Dianna_Lynn
Do I need an eating disorder?
Jun 24, 2008
I've lost a total of 93 lbs. that includes the 2 week liquid diet before surgery. I am disappointed that I didn't lose like a lot of others in one of my support groups, but I did find out something that makes me upset. Three months ago, I was admiring two of the women in my group and congratulating them about how wonderful they look. Now, 3 months later, I saw them the other night and they look horrible. Talking to them in private I found out that one of them only eats one meal a day of half a baked chicken breast and 1/2 a cup of steamed broccoli (hasn't changed what she eats for like 6 months), then the rest of the day she drinks sugar free smoothies. She was whispering to me to let me know how to lose weight like her. When I told her that wasn't healthy, she stopped talking to me. I'm afraid she's in big trouble with an eating disorder. Then the other one was whispering to us that she even quit her job because it was interfering with her working out at the gym for 5 to 6 hours a day, and she too seems to be living on Smoothie King. Both of these ladies lost over 150 lbs. in one year. I swear, this has really started me thinking. Is that what it takes? I don't want another eating disorder. I think our over-eating was bad enough.
I've been religiously sticking to 1,200 calories per day and tracking everything on www.thedailyplate.com and my husband and I started walking in the park every night. We either walk 1 or 2 miles. He's a doll to do that with me. He's thin and works his butt off at work, but he's been a real trooper to support me. I just don't know what else to do to jump start my weight loss. I'll just keep doing the right thing and hope for a better result.
Still hanging in there
May 31, 2008
At my one year check-up, my doctor and NUT both said they thought I was doing really well. I had my mind set on losing another 60 lbs., but they raised that and said I should lose another 40 lbs. over the next 6 months. We'll see.
I'm still having low grade stomach pains, but NOTHING like the horrible pains I went through for so long when we didn't know that I was severely lactose intolerant. Wow that was a hot mess. However, I found a hard spot, or lump, right above my waist, to the left of my belly button. I asked the doctor to feel it. He said it's not a hernia because it has no "give" like a hernia. He made me get another CAT scan last Tuesday. It's still not showing anything wrong. I thought my stomach was just getting hard from all the sit ups.
I've been journaling everything I put in my mouth on The Daily Plate. I love that program. I stay as close to 1200 calories as possible, give or take. That's a good amount to feel satisfied, but not enough to ever make me gain weight. My carbs are still sky high, but it's almost all good carbs. I really avoid refined carbs as much as possible. I've also been using my treadmill and/or walking in the park, about 4 days a week. I really need to step up the motion. This is probably the most serious and prolonged "diet" of my life. I pray to God it gets easier at some point.
I have an appointment with a rheumatologist next week. My shoulders are hurting worse and worse. I can't even shave under my own arms anymore. My daughter suggested I see a rheumatologist to start the elimination process as to what's up with this pain.
Big disappointment
Apr 09, 2008
Most of my bad attitude comes from depression. I've been out of work since I was fired from having the surgery. I've put in probably close to 100 applications, and nothing. I do not want to take antidepression medicine. I did try once or twice but it made me feel so weird, and also caused me to have a panic attack for the first time in my life. I'm afraid to try any others.
I started the 5 DPT to see if I can get my eating more under control. I'm still not a big eater, but I'm a grazer of the wrong damn food. I eat small bits of junk all the time. My stomach hurts (hunger pains?) just about constantly. I really think it's from IBS, but food stops the gnawing in my gut. That's what I'm up against.
I really feel like such a loser, and not in the good way. I won't give up though. I'm not ready to throw in the towel. This old girl still has some fight in me.
---------My Weight Loss Chart----------
Oct 23, 2007
THIS CHART IS UPDATED WITH EACH POUND LOST
Original high weight............. 308
5-23-2007 ......................... 292 Morning of surgery (after liquid diet)
5-30-2007 .......................... 280 (was too sick to weigh in between)
Total loss in May = 28 lbs.
6-8-2007 ............................ 277
6-9-2007 ............................ 276
6-10-2007 .......................... 274
6-12-2007 ........................... 271
6-13-2007 ........................... 269
6-15-2007 ........................... 268
6-16-2007 ........................... 267
6-18-2007 ........................... 266
6-22-2007 ........................... 265
6-23-2007 ........................... 261
6-26-2007 ........................... 260 - 3 days no loss
Total loss in June = 18 lbs.
7-09-2007 ........................... 259 - 13 days no loss
7-15-2007 ........................... 258 - 6 days no loss
7-20-2007 ........................... 257 - 5 days no loss
7-25-2007 ........................... 256
7-26-2007 ........................... 255
7-28-2007 ........................... 254 - 2 days no loss
Total loss in July = 6 lbs.
8-02-2007 ........................... 253 - 5 days no loss
8-13-2007 ........................... 252 - 11 days no loss
8-21-2007 ........................... 251 - 8 days no loss
8-22-2007 ........................... 250
8-27-2007 ........................... 249 - 5 days no loss
8-28-2007 ........................... 248
Total loss in August = 6 lbs.
9-03-2007 ........................... 247 - 6 days no loss
9-08-2007 ........................... 246 - 5 days no loss
9-21-2007 ........................... 245 - 13 days no loss
Total loss in September = 3 lbs.
10-05-2007 ......................... 244 - 14 days no loss
10-10-2007 .......................... 243 - 5 days no loss
10-11-2007 .......................... 242
10-17-2007 .......................... 241 - 6 days no loss
10-19-2007 .......................... 240 - 2 days no loss
10-24-2007 .......................... 239 - 5 days no loss
Total loss in October = 6 lbs.
11-04-2007 .......................... 238 - 11 days no loss
11-05-2007 .......................... 236 - (I caught a stomach virus)
11-06-2007 .......................... 235
11-07-2007 .......................... 234
11-08-2007 .......................... 233
11-10-2007 .......................... 232
11-13-2007 .......................... 231 - 3 days no loss
11-14-2007 .......................... 230
Total loss in November = 9 lbs.
Total loss in December = Not one damned pound
Total loss in January = Not one damned pound
2-04-2008 ............................ 229
2-07-2008 ............................ 227
2-10-2008 ............................ 226
2-15-2008 ............................ 224
2-22-2008 ............................ 223
Total loss in February = 6 lbs.
Total loss in March = Who knows?
Total loss in April = Who knows?
5-29-2008 ............................ 220
5-30-2008 ............................ 219
Total loss in May = Who knows? Maybe 2 lbs.
6-01-2008 ............................ 218
6-24-2008 ............................ 215
Total loss in June = 3 lbs
7-08-2008 ............................ 213
240 Pounds -- 2 days later
Oct 19, 2007
Pounds 242 and 241
Oct 17, 2007
We had a wonderful support group meeting yesterday. I was so happy to meet Carolyn, Kim, Sabrina, Patty, and a few others. They are such good people. I'm happy to know them. I'd love to plan a social event with everyone. It would really be fun, I think.
One of the ladies told me that I'm probably having such bad hunger pangs because I started drinking regular coffee again. She said when she tried a cup of coffee she was hungry all day. Damn. I hadn't drank coffee for over 3 months. I'm so sorry I started drinking it again. I had NO energy at all, and that's why I started drinking the caffiene. I don't know what to do.
Pounds 244 and 243
Oct 06, 2007
Then I weighed in this morning and the scale said 243. Not one pound for however many days, then 2 lbs. in 2 days? Hmmm I'll see tomorrow.
I'm still very discouraged.
Failed experiment
Sep 22, 2007
Results: I GAINED 2 lbs. back to 247.
Now it's been 13 days without losing a pound, but gaining 2. *cries* I need a plan B. And, I refuse to change my damn ticker to a higher weight. 
Pounds lost
Sep 21, 2007
I use weight manager to keep track of my weight loss, but I think I will post here everytime I lose a pound so that I can have an exact date of the weight loss.
My hair is falling out by the handfuls. It feels as if I won't have a strand of hair on my head really soon. This is scary.
I still haven't found a job. This is beyond scary.
Today I weighed 245. This is the first pound lost in 12 days. I'm very discouraged at this point.
Answering a question
Jul 28, 2007
My only co-morbidity was joint pain, however, all I could think about was it was just a matter of time before my body rebelled against the extra weight. Therefore, I can agree that I had WLS for vanity.
Let me be very honest here, I've always had a very good opinion of myself. I wasn't a fat child and didn't become SMO until the last 2 years. I have been MO for many years, but it didn't stop me from earning the higher belts in karate, and playing vollyball, swimming, etc. It's only in the last 2 years that I've become physically impaired to the point of not wanting to do anything. Also, I met my (very much younger) husband and married him 6 yrs. ago when I weighed 240 lbs. (gained another 60 in the last 2 yrs. that put me over the edge).
In all honesty, I only remember being insulted one time. I was about 28 yrs. old, I weighed about 162 lbs. I was crossing a street when a car full of teenagers passed by and one girl yelled out the window at me "oink oink". I was devastated, and still think about it 20 years later.
At no time in my life would I go out without my hair fixed and make-up on.
I do agree that I would only wear what fits me (no choices there), but I always tried to be as stylish and up to date as possible.
I am somewhat angry at myself for not being more kind and attentive to what I've been doing to myself by not taking better care of my eating needs.
Since this journey is only just beginning for me, I'm not yet prepared to talk about the differences my weight will make in my life, because I can't remember being treated any other way. Now I'll be sure to pay closer attention.
