The Date

Oct 07, 2010

I got a call from the Dr.'s office on Monday morning.  They have an insurance approval and a surgery date of Dec. 2.  Of course, my first instinct was excitement and joy.  But then, the reality started setting in.  After all, this is major surgery.  A very big deal.  I was also told that I need to go to the hospital for surgery for placement of a filter about mid Nov.  The office will make all the arrangements.  They are awesome.  At least I don't have to fret about that.  Now, I have to keep dieting, and praying that God will understand my decision to go this route.  I want to enjoy the rest of my life with my husband.  I don't want to be stuck in the house in a chair when he is retired and ready to travel and enjoy life.  So, in my mind, I guess the two opposing points of view are:. 1)  I am older, have lived my whole life with this, and deserve the health issues I am facing for not paying attention years and years ago.  2)  There is now hope, where there was none.  Those years and years ago, there really wasn't this opportunity.  And, if I have a chance to live the rest of my life "normal" and healthier, isn't that what everyone strives for?   
Oh well, guess I have rambled long enough for now.  I have miles to go before I sleep!

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