dollyctimeforme
My name is Dolly C
Im a nurse a mother and a wife. Growing up I always felt fat, and thought about my size constantly, I hated going in front of the class room for fear of being made fun of. As far back as I can remember I was verbelly and physically abused by my stepfather. He always made hurtful remarks about my body, would laugh at me and loved embarrasing me in front of people. Looking back I really wasn't all that big. Following the births of a son & a daughter I wasn't able to get the weight off. I would diet, loose wt, then gain it back plus some. Over the years I continued yoyo dieting. When my 5 yr old nephew with special needs came to live with us, I really started gaining. I now know I was eating emotionally. I started seeing a Dr. for wt issues. with restricted calories and diet pills I lost some of the wt, just to have it return after stopping the pills. In my generation the Dr's had no problem prescribing Didrex a powerful addictive appetite suppressant. Needless to say I got hooked on them, but thats a whole different chapter of my life. Today I am clean and sober. I am 52 yrs 5' tall weigh 254 lbs with a BMI of 46 I am a good candidate for the lapband procedure. I completed a year in a wt loss management program which intales working with a Dr., dietician, wt coach, completing a stress test, have an up to date mammo, pap, see a shrink (yes I'm sane lol) and was scheduled to see the surgeon. Before my appointment I recieved a call he had passed away from kidney cancer. Needless to say I gave up for a while and completely stop trying. After about 6 months. I found another provider Dr. for the wt loss and had to repeat all the above again except the psych evaluation because time had lapsed and everything must be current. Nov 26/08 I will see the surgeon and hope he will agree that i qualify? If so I will just need the insurance authorization. I'm really not up to another let down?and am getting my hopes up again that this is the time for me. They say care providers tend to give and give and never take care of them selfs. I think as women we all have a tendency to put our selfs last and feel like were not that important. So I am looking for support and hope you will welcome me into your lifes?
