"Happyland 80`s"

May 14, 2011

 I am 189.6 and in "Happyland 80`s"  Woot Woot! Who would have THUNK!  Wow   hitting me like a ton of bricks with excitement right now. 

Here is the bummer part, We had a birthday party with family for my son this past tuesday. Yes I ate mexican food not only one day but 3 days in a row. Wow the salt, not to talk about the food cravings that came back just for having the crap back in my body.
Well the 1st day I found out that I can eat a cup to a cup and half of food!   What a mind F* that was.   I now know I can eat that much....ummm "SCAREY"!!!!

FOR ME:   I now have to work on discipline and remember to continue to measure my food and not over eat like that meaning volume until maybe maintenance. Its way different than when I first had surgery and the restriction was soaring with barely any effort.  I can drink through a straw, I can take two pills at once ( just the other week I wrote a post how I can barely swallow a half of a pill) I can actually swallow several drinks of water at once, I chew gum, etc....    So its like I am at a turning point, a decision in which way to go.  er um duuuuh....  "continue this path and dont screw up!"  I guess this is the point where some could gain weight and that is within me.  That is my fear and do not want to act on it.   Daaaam my freaking head!!!!

Well, I didnt do this surgery for nothing and want to respect the sleeve.  I am going to stick with measured food one day at a time.
So, I had a little test...  big deal ( well it is and going to act light of it so my head can recover. I can beat myself up pretty good!)....    So, its back to basics  :))))) 

Yaaaaay for me being in the 80`s!!

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