Darcy S.

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What a road it has been..... As i write that I am truly thinking it hasn't been THAT hard!!!  Yes there are major adjustments in the beginning and learning what agrees and doesnt agree isnt fun but its not the end of the world either.   And all  the compliments kept me going...lol I'm a sales person at heart so recognition is a big motivator for me!!!  Hahahahaha Well I'm nothing if not honest!!!

 

I feel great and am sooooo happy to be a size 8.  I grew up as a size 12 and atr 30 to 48 grew to be a size 22.   So it feels amazing to be and FEEL smaller.  I love the way my hubby can wrap his arms around me or i can curl up on him on the couch!!!  Loving those moments!!!!

 

I am a little afraid that at a year out I am stable at 153 - 156 lbs.  for the last 3 months.  And what is really scary is that I've started to cheat!!!  Yes I admit it!!!  Christmas opened pandoras sugar box!!!!!    I learned that I don't or haven't yet dumped.  I was praying I would dump after the three cookies I had...then the cinnamin red hots candy that we used on the gingerbread men w my kids.... No i FIND AS MY KIDS BAKE i TASTE AND TASTE.....  iLL KEEP YOU POSTED... BUT AHHHH

 

 Hello new me,   Yes this is about taking control of what I can and becoming an even better me.  I feel reborn in a way.   I feel lucky to have my head finally in the game.  You all know that game.  The.... someday I'll start eating healthy...exercising, making the right choices.  Always another day but not today.   Well my someday is here!!!   Want to know why I know in my heart this is the real thing this time...?  Because at Christmas Dinner 5 days after surgery, I went to my sister's house in NY and served my 2 daughters the most delicious looking Prime Rib I've ever seen.  But, as I was cutting it up for them I didn't feel mad (the ugh they can eat and I can't syndrome) no I instead felt proud that I didn't need it.  I was proud of the choice to shake my shake.  That's because now its about feeling good again.  Being the fun Darcy that loved to Ski, windsurf, ice skate, Make snow man, go boating, biking etc.  I laugh writing that because of course as a friend reminded me "that was all before kids, careers and husbands."  Yes that's true, but I know lots of families that enjoy all those activities!!!  So that excuse just doesn't cut it anymore!!  

I have a great support system among my family and friends.  My Husband met and loved me when I was at a healthy weight and he loves me still at 100lbs over weight.  He is happy that I have chosen to live longer for the family.  When it came closer to the surgery and I attended a few mandated support groups, many preop members stated that they were nervous as their date grew closer.  I do get it... but... for me I was far more afraid NOT to have the surgery!!!!

So here I am 7 days out and I'm OK.  I hurt where the main manipulated cut was made but overall my pouch is doing great!!!  I don't mind the shakes and I'm not nauseus.  ONWARD...Someday is here!!!!   I'm down 36 lbs since I made the decision and 11.1lbs since the surgery!!!