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Just a few Thoughts on LIFE after surgery.
Jan 19, 2008
You know since having the surgery and going through everything I am, I have begun to have a deeper understanding when the doctor tells you this surgery isn't for everyone.
Aside from feeling sick to my stomach quite often, even when I do everything I am told to do, and feeling ugly most of the time. (HORMONES) Not being able to eat what others eat and see them eating something that just a few months before you could eat can really bring a person's self worth DOWN a few dozen notches.
I mean I am not trying to scare anyone out of the surgery because I will be the first to tell you straight out it IS WORTH EVERY SINGLE PENNY! I am just noticing things. Things that I am most positive every post weight loss surgery patient has or will go through.
I mean I can not eat so many different things (mostly my favorite starchy foods LOL). I know, I know bad Jennifer BAD for thinking that way, but there are some things I do miss being able to enjoy every once in a blue moon. Like for example a piece of apple pie. Not a big one just a small piece. But unfortunately there is soooo much sugar in it number one and two white flour. TWO number one naughty items. Apples are good though. I do occasionally enjoy a good apple now and then. But honestly it is not the same. Oh and potatoes I miss potatoes. ~sigh~ Just too much starch.
I still get to enjoy my chicken and fish and vegetables though which makes me happy. I love vegetables. Too bad no one else in my household does. Eric absolutely HATES vegetables unless its corn. Which for someone like me is another starch I just can't have.
Another thing I have noticed is foods that are not normally sugary tasting with taste soooo sweet I have to spit it back out and a good example is the skim milk from the store. I know it does not have sugar in it or any fat but it tastes so sweet I can barely stand drinking it. That and tea. I don't have to add any sugar to it believe you me.
THEN there is the fun issue of just smelling something and know it won't settle right in my small tummy. Which can be most frustrating at times. Especially if its something I had only two nights previous and it was fine then.
Sorry if I seem to be venting a bit in the process of writing down these thoughts. I do not mean to sounds that way. But it sorta does. Anyways back to subject at hand.
Another thing i find difficult is going to restaurants of ANY kind. I do not eat a lot and these restaurants see me coming and basically dig out the big plates. Like the other night I went to Deny's with the family and only ordered a glass of water and 1 hard boiled egg. I didn't need any more than that because the rest of the family was going to share a small bit of their chicken and veggies. But I had to order something. Well danged if I didn't know it they bring the rest of the family these platter like plates of food and I swear to god I got the biggest chicken EGG I have ever seen in my poor life. And it seemed like every three seconds she was asking me if I was sure I didn't want anything else. I wanted to yell at her a few times telling her, " NO GOD DAMN IT I DON'T NEED ANYTHING ELSE I AM A POST WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY PATIENT NOW GET OUT OF MY FACE." But I kept my peace knowing she was only doing her job and didn't know i had gone through the surgery.
But unfortunately this situation happens more often than not. I mean yes I have had the surgery I am 6 months out but I still look heavy. Not as heavy as I did before the surgery (dang cloths keep falling off me) but still heavy. And unfortunately in the restaurant industry they see someone who still looks heavy as a potential money train because they have it in their head that big = big money.
How I come up with this is because they believe persons on the larger side of the scales eat and eat and eat and eat and eat etc., etc., etc. But what they don't know is that is only a small amount of us. Me for example: My sizable weight increase was due to pregnancy. I still ate the same amount of food as before I had gotten pregnant. Only difference is the food was not being used by my body the same way it was before the pregnancy. Something inside my body switched to the off position and so my body stopped being skinny.
Now, well now i eat even less than i have ever in my entire life. And the restaurants still want to bring me HUGE PLATES of food. Frankly I wish there was a restaurant even maybe a CHAIN of restaurants out there that was designed specifically for weight loss surgery patients. I mean everyone can eat there but the food is designed for the weight loss patient instead of mass population. Number one the portions would be WAY smaller and it would be food that we could actually eat and not feel like OMG IF I PUT THAT IN MY MOUTH I AM GONNA PUKE type of food from normal restaurants. I mean, if there was a place like that, food served at the correct proportions and smaller proportions for the weight loss surgery patients I honestly think a lot of people would go. I know I would. Weight loss surgery or not.
I mean I never really went to restaurants before the surgery just every once in a blue moon with the family but I never did really care for restaurant food. Mostly because they always serve TOO much and its always so greasy and loaded with salt. YUCK! And besides you always hear all this stuff on the news how the food industry makes obesity and that XX amount of billions of people are obese. And I have to say that yes that is true and No it is not true.
Number 1 The food industry is yes bad! In the way the prepare their food and the amount they serve. But Number two No one made the mass population pick that food; pick up their fork; and shovel it into their mouths. They did it on their own. And the funniest thing is they now expect the food industry to make healthier food and smaller proportions to help regulate the food intake of the mass population. And ironically the ones who have made said changes still have their highest selling from the food that caused this mass hysteria in the first place. So really yes the choice for healthier food is there but most people down the greasy, salty, unhealthy food.
Freedom of choice. However if there was a food place out there as I was describing earlier geared toward weight loss surgery patients I know a great many people who would go. Not to mention the fact if you had it set up as a regular restaurant with a fast food window there might be a lot of the fast food regulars hitting up the window for the healthier foods. I mean that is one of the main reasons "fast food" is so popular even though most KNOW its a bag of grease. Its because the healthier restaurants don't have fast food capabilities.
Anyways enough of my neurotic ramblings. Enjoy your days. And remember Even though the surgery isn't for everyone IT IS FOR THE MOST DETERMINED. Have faith.
GOD BLESS!
Jennifer
Aside from feeling sick to my stomach quite often, even when I do everything I am told to do, and feeling ugly most of the time. (HORMONES) Not being able to eat what others eat and see them eating something that just a few months before you could eat can really bring a person's self worth DOWN a few dozen notches.
I mean I am not trying to scare anyone out of the surgery because I will be the first to tell you straight out it IS WORTH EVERY SINGLE PENNY! I am just noticing things. Things that I am most positive every post weight loss surgery patient has or will go through.
I mean I can not eat so many different things (mostly my favorite starchy foods LOL). I know, I know bad Jennifer BAD for thinking that way, but there are some things I do miss being able to enjoy every once in a blue moon. Like for example a piece of apple pie. Not a big one just a small piece. But unfortunately there is soooo much sugar in it number one and two white flour. TWO number one naughty items. Apples are good though. I do occasionally enjoy a good apple now and then. But honestly it is not the same. Oh and potatoes I miss potatoes. ~sigh~ Just too much starch.
I still get to enjoy my chicken and fish and vegetables though which makes me happy. I love vegetables. Too bad no one else in my household does. Eric absolutely HATES vegetables unless its corn. Which for someone like me is another starch I just can't have.
Another thing I have noticed is foods that are not normally sugary tasting with taste soooo sweet I have to spit it back out and a good example is the skim milk from the store. I know it does not have sugar in it or any fat but it tastes so sweet I can barely stand drinking it. That and tea. I don't have to add any sugar to it believe you me.
THEN there is the fun issue of just smelling something and know it won't settle right in my small tummy. Which can be most frustrating at times. Especially if its something I had only two nights previous and it was fine then.
Sorry if I seem to be venting a bit in the process of writing down these thoughts. I do not mean to sounds that way. But it sorta does. Anyways back to subject at hand.
Another thing i find difficult is going to restaurants of ANY kind. I do not eat a lot and these restaurants see me coming and basically dig out the big plates. Like the other night I went to Deny's with the family and only ordered a glass of water and 1 hard boiled egg. I didn't need any more than that because the rest of the family was going to share a small bit of their chicken and veggies. But I had to order something. Well danged if I didn't know it they bring the rest of the family these platter like plates of food and I swear to god I got the biggest chicken EGG I have ever seen in my poor life. And it seemed like every three seconds she was asking me if I was sure I didn't want anything else. I wanted to yell at her a few times telling her, " NO GOD DAMN IT I DON'T NEED ANYTHING ELSE I AM A POST WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY PATIENT NOW GET OUT OF MY FACE." But I kept my peace knowing she was only doing her job and didn't know i had gone through the surgery.
But unfortunately this situation happens more often than not. I mean yes I have had the surgery I am 6 months out but I still look heavy. Not as heavy as I did before the surgery (dang cloths keep falling off me) but still heavy. And unfortunately in the restaurant industry they see someone who still looks heavy as a potential money train because they have it in their head that big = big money.
How I come up with this is because they believe persons on the larger side of the scales eat and eat and eat and eat and eat etc., etc., etc. But what they don't know is that is only a small amount of us. Me for example: My sizable weight increase was due to pregnancy. I still ate the same amount of food as before I had gotten pregnant. Only difference is the food was not being used by my body the same way it was before the pregnancy. Something inside my body switched to the off position and so my body stopped being skinny.
Now, well now i eat even less than i have ever in my entire life. And the restaurants still want to bring me HUGE PLATES of food. Frankly I wish there was a restaurant even maybe a CHAIN of restaurants out there that was designed specifically for weight loss surgery patients. I mean everyone can eat there but the food is designed for the weight loss patient instead of mass population. Number one the portions would be WAY smaller and it would be food that we could actually eat and not feel like OMG IF I PUT THAT IN MY MOUTH I AM GONNA PUKE type of food from normal restaurants. I mean, if there was a place like that, food served at the correct proportions and smaller proportions for the weight loss surgery patients I honestly think a lot of people would go. I know I would. Weight loss surgery or not.
I mean I never really went to restaurants before the surgery just every once in a blue moon with the family but I never did really care for restaurant food. Mostly because they always serve TOO much and its always so greasy and loaded with salt. YUCK! And besides you always hear all this stuff on the news how the food industry makes obesity and that XX amount of billions of people are obese. And I have to say that yes that is true and No it is not true.
Number 1 The food industry is yes bad! In the way the prepare their food and the amount they serve. But Number two No one made the mass population pick that food; pick up their fork; and shovel it into their mouths. They did it on their own. And the funniest thing is they now expect the food industry to make healthier food and smaller proportions to help regulate the food intake of the mass population. And ironically the ones who have made said changes still have their highest selling from the food that caused this mass hysteria in the first place. So really yes the choice for healthier food is there but most people down the greasy, salty, unhealthy food.
Freedom of choice. However if there was a food place out there as I was describing earlier geared toward weight loss surgery patients I know a great many people who would go. Not to mention the fact if you had it set up as a regular restaurant with a fast food window there might be a lot of the fast food regulars hitting up the window for the healthier foods. I mean that is one of the main reasons "fast food" is so popular even though most KNOW its a bag of grease. Its because the healthier restaurants don't have fast food capabilities.
Anyways enough of my neurotic ramblings. Enjoy your days. And remember Even though the surgery isn't for everyone IT IS FOR THE MOST DETERMINED. Have faith.
GOD BLESS!
Jennifer
UPDATE
Dec 06, 2007
Down to 370 and still going strong.
WOOHOO AVON
Dec 04, 2007
Well my latest news is I have become and Avon Rep. So far I am sooooo loving it.
Check out my website. www.youravon.com/jennifercarr
Or contact me:
Jennifer Carr
Avon Rep In Jax, FL
904-223-9943
904-599-3248
[email protected]
Check out my website. www.youravon.com/jennifercarr
Or contact me:
Jennifer Carr
Avon Rep In Jax, FL
904-223-9943
904-599-3248
[email protected]
UPDATE
Oct 18, 2007
Sorry haven't written for a while but things been CRAZY around here. Good news though. I am down to 393lbs. And my BMI is down to 56.8. Bad news is the Doctor doesn't think I am loosing like I should be so that means extra appointments. 
Anyways things otherwise have been going decently. I had a couple of friends living with me but that turned out to be ugly so i had to evict them. And that was a stressful mess unto itself. But things are good now. I have reached my goal of being able to shave my own legs and I have finally found work! YAY ME!!! 
So thats the update there is nothing more.
Jennifer
Anyways things otherwise have been going decently. I had a couple of friends living with me but that turned out to be ugly so i had to evict them. And that was a stressful mess unto itself. But things are good now. I have reached my goal of being able to shave my own legs and I have finally found work! YAY ME!!! So thats the update there is nothing more.Jennifer
month out
Aug 29, 2007
Well i am more than a month out and i am still having issues with eating. Some days I can eat just fine others oh boy just the sight of food makes me sick to my stomach. The doctor tells me I need to eat but what can I do if almost every other day or more sometimes I am sick to my stomach to the point that i can't even be around food. 
But i try anyways and its not a problem with keeping the food down once its down its trying to get it down in the first place.
Jennifer
But i try anyways and its not a problem with keeping the food down once its down its trying to get it down in the first place.Jennifer
update
Aug 16, 2007
Doc says I am doing great!
445lbs
74.1 BMI
Ya i know i really haven't lost tons of weight but the BMI is what is most important says the DOC.
so bmi is 74.1 from 79.5
445lbs
74.1 BMI
Ya i know i really haven't lost tons of weight but the BMI is what is most important says the DOC.
so bmi is 74.1 from 79.5
Moved
Aug 10, 2007
Sorry ya all for not writing things down sooner, but its been mad crazy around here and of course I have been offline for a whiles. We (Eric and I) Just moved to a new home over on Beach Blvd. And for a while while things were being set up I was without Internet and phone. But now im back! LOL
Things are going good so far. I am still having troubles trying to figure out if I am just full or just not hungry due to the surgery but I know it will all work out in time.
Jennifer
Things are going good so far. I am still having troubles trying to figure out if I am just full or just not hungry due to the surgery but I know it will all work out in time.
Jennifer
post-op update
Jul 26, 2007
went 2 post op follow up appointment today and 30lbs down BMI 75.9 down from 80.9. sorry not longer on cellphone.
I SURVIVED
Jul 24, 2007
Well I Survived sorta. I got home and slept for like two days straight. I was so danged exhausted. anyways now i have been up and about a little bit and finally was able to get online and chat.
I can honestly say it so far has been a challenge. trying to stay positive and yet know you can not do things like you want to because either you don't have as much energy as you want or you are in pain does make it very difficult.
Basically just hanging in here or at least trying to.
Will update more later... I am growing a bit tired and need a nap i think.
I can honestly say it so far has been a challenge. trying to stay positive and yet know you can not do things like you want to because either you don't have as much energy as you want or you are in pain does make it very difficult.
Basically just hanging in here or at least trying to.
Will update more later... I am growing a bit tired and need a nap i think.
2 Days EEP
Jul 16, 2007
Well i only have two days and as it gets closer to the day i get more nervouse and excited at the same time. I am ready for surgery! just wish it were over already.
Jennifer
Jennifer
