ElleBW
Pre Op testing has begun...
Sep 03, 2011
Friday I went to the hospital and did my pre-op testing. Everything looked fine. I was very happy not to have any sludge in my gallbladder. After, I met with the nutrionist who was VERY kind and seemed to approve of the work I have done so far on my own. I'm not happy that my weight loss is stalling, but I have a week before I weigh in at the doctor's office, so we'll see. Tuesday I go for my psych eval and then the internist is on the 15th at after that I should get my surgery date. I go back and forth between being super excited and determined to feeling scared and unsure if I can get through it all. I will be disappointed if I don't get an October date. I was hoping to have it on my birthday the 12th as symbolic of my "rebirth" but realize it just may not happen. My back is feeling better, so I plan to get back on track with excercising. I just keep plugging along and hope that it will all be okay. I was happy that the insurance paid for my endoscopy and am more hopeful that it will cover the surgery.
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Very anxious
Aug 16, 2011
I had my second appointment at the clinic. At least I've lost a few pounds, how I don't know. Now I go for more tests: heart, lungs, psych and nutrionist THEN I'll get a surgery date.... looks like it won't be until October at least. It would be kinda neat if they did it on my birthday so I would feel like it was a "rebirth" of me. My stomach is tied in knots and I am tense, but still slowly moving forward.
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Now it feels real
Aug 09, 2011
Going in for my endoscopy tomorrow. I still don't even know if my doctor has approved me for the surgery and am worried that I won't be able to pass the psych requirements... ha ha ha. I think my worst fear right now is NOT getting the green light to go ahead. I am usually an instant gratification person so this slow process threw me at first. Now I am glad for it because I have learned so much and know that I have made the best and a wise choice for me. I'm not worried about the endoscopy. I just hope that it is not done for nothing.
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Forced positivity
Aug 03, 2011
I was told by my doctor that I would need to lose at least 10% of my weight before surgery. I wrote a post in the forum and was feeling better after, but still had a hard time getting to sleep thinking about what I was going to do. I had some time pouting this monring, but then decided that if that was what I needed to do (and I told myself I would do everything they would ask of me) then I needed to "just do it". So after drinking a smoothie with protiene powder and a handful of supplements (practising) I got on the treadmil and walked for 15 minutes. It was slow and my body was freaking out, but it's a start. This is my lesson for, it will be hard but I CAN do it.
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Now I know
Jul 27, 2011
I've been struggling the past few days wondering if I made the right choice to move ahead with my plans for surgery. Yesterday I had an anxiety attack after hearing that my closest friend thought I could lose the weight on my own and not get such invasive surgery. She is genetically skinny and doesn't eat when she is stressed. She may never understand the extremes I have been to in order to lose weight. So I got over that okay and then today talked with my insurance to find out I needed a co-morbidity. I'm pretty healthy except for the obese part. I was crushed. I spend the whole day feeling down. The good news is that now I know I really do want this surgery so I have a new tool to use in my efforts to lose weight. I'll go to my appointment Tuesday and see what they have to say; nothing ventured, nothing gained... or lost! I knew none of this would be easy. It does feel better to know that I at least want it and that I think was worth a low day.
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About Me
WA
Location
30.4
BMI
Surgery
10/18/2011
Surgery Date
Jul 15, 2011
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