elleraheem
My thoughts
Jun 06, 2008
You know the more and more I think about the procedure, I ask myself how come so many people have so much negative things to say about it, the WLS? I have reached my wits end with all these different types of diets, and yes some do work, and then you hit a plateau that you just can’t break, and that is emotional in its self.
Ok well I guess it’s a start off the right direction, I just received a call from the hospital regarding my EGD that’s scheduled, and I really have to say I am so happy that everything is coming together for me. Even if the procedure happens to be sometime in 2009, guess what? I still don’t have to make New Year resolutions regarding weight anymore, oh now I can breathe easily.
I know that this surgery is going to change my life and it’s up to me to actually succeed and never come back to the 258pds that I am at now. I like to dress up and lately I haven’t been able too, because I can’t stand to see the way that I look in the clothes that I have. They all look so dam frumpy, and that pisses me off. I refuse to go shopping any time soon, and I know that I should but that’s a waste of money to me. Am I the only person that sees an outfit on someone and then gets upset when the outfit doesn’t look the same on me? I want to be able to go shopping at Target (oh I just love there summer and business casual stuff) and Kohl’s. I am so tired of going to Lane Bryant and spending $200 on like 4 pieces of clothing because I am heavy set, if I was a smaller size I could really do some damage with $200.
I want to take vacations and I don’t want to take a vacation as a fat person. I have well 3 vacations that I want to take, for starters I want to take my kids to Hershey Park, and I want to go to walk the Garden and Time Square in New York, and then I want to go to Atlanta but that can just be a 3 day weekend so no biggie there. I have so much planned its incredible, it’s time for me to start living my life, and stop being a hermit. I have always loved to shop so that isn’t going to stop. I never needed an extension for the plane and I want to keep it that way. When your losing all this weight I know that you also lose weight in your feet so that will be good, that way I can fit most of my shoes again.
I am so stoked about this procedure, I know it’s going to happen and I just have to be patient.
Just Checking In Fam
May 31, 2008
If you've been reading my profile you know that I have to do my 6 month supervised diet with my PCP. I started in April and weighed 262, now I'm down to 258. I know that it's not alot, but it's something. I have been trying really hard to stay away from things that I don't know aren't good for me, and what I have commited my self to doing. I have been drinking more water like flavored water and also eating more fruits and vegetables, at lunch I have a co-worker that eats salads from Subway, and so I have started doing that also, and I guess it's working.
I just moved to Falls Church,VA from Maryland. It's so quite where I am now, it's amazing and I am starting to like it more and more. I moved into a townhouse, and my son counted 28 stairs, it's killing me but I know it's good for my heart,legs,thighs, and bascially everything else. What can I do now? Thats right just grin and bare it.
My next appointment with the PCP is June 24th, after that appointment I will have 3 more months of the supervised diet visits. I'm a real impatient person, but thats ok, I have no choice but to wait it out. Hopefully it'll be around September or October 2008. I'll be turning 31 in October, I am so nervous, but God willing, I will embrace it. New changes and a brand new life.
It feels good knowing that this year is the last year that I have to worry about my weight, making resolutions that are harder to change than the idea of making one. Honestly speaking, I'm kind of anxious to see what I'm going to look like, is that at all normal? Well I ain't trying to hold anyone up, just wanted to check in with you guys is all.
Please everyone pray for me and I will keep all of you abreast with what is going on with me speaking of which, I have my EGD coming up pretty soon, and I am still waiting on the Sleep Study office to call me. I will check back on June 24th, until then everyone, be safe, be blessed, and love one another.
P.S. Oh yeah for all you music lovers, Anthony Hamilton's CD, "Ain't Nobody Worrying" is so deep, I love it, so if you have a chance check it out.
One Love
Peace,
Elle
My visit for the psych evaluation
Apr 26, 2008
I also have my EGD scheduled for June 16,2008, now I just have to find somebody to drive me there, and back. I hear and read all these stories about the numbing spray, the gagging, its not something that I am especially looking for.
I never really saw myself as the fat girl, or the obese girl I just identified with my self as my name,nothing less, nothing more. I now know its going to be difficult for others to accept the new me, but it is what it is. I know that the journey ahead isnt going to be a easy one, but I am so ready to accept change and deal with my decision to have the surgery that if I could have it done tomorrow am, I would go for it. Has anyway ever heard of puree chicken, yuck that sounds so gross, but I know that it is something that I will also have to embrace for a short period of time.
Ellen also showed me a book by the name of "Weight loss surgery, is it right for me"? I read the first couple of pages, and if could have borrowed it I would have. I want to go into this with as much knowledge as I can humanely have, and I dont want to regret it ever.
The more I think about it, I want to visit my family and friends in Atlanta(I used to live there), but I havent been there since Memorial Day of 2007, and I think that I wont be back down there until I am at least 6 months pre op. I am also planning to move back to Atlanta in the next couple of years, because I want to buy a house, so I am thinking maybe by the time I am like 33, or 34 hopefully no later. I might even settle for 35, but no later than that.
On another note, I am think that I am ready to see who this new person is. I know that we are the same, but are we really? All I keep saying to myself is "Please God let this work, let all my information be in order so that the insurance company doesnt try to throw a monkey wrench in my plans".
I am ready to use this tool and make my life what its supposed to be. I hope that I can inspire someone like all of you have inspired me.
One Love,
Elle
Just want to get different opinions
Apr 24, 2008
First I will start off saying is there anyone out there that can help me post some pictures on my profile. I have tried for the past 2 days to no avail. I had a digital camera and my children broke that and I just haven’t replaced it yet, but I guess I should for this journey that I am on. I have a laptop but I use it to surf the net and for school, I haven’t tried to figure it out yet, and I know I should. If anyone out there has time and the patience to try to help me out, I would appreciate it very much.
I keep on thinking that 6 months is such a long time, and it really isn’t. Think about it we are almost in May which would be 5 months more and then before you know it, I will be on the losing team. I know that time fly’s by, but I have a question to get you guys thinking. Would the majority of you guys say that it’s better to start exercising as soon as you’re discharged so that you can start kind of toning, or would you say it’s smarter to wait? I just wanted to know some of your opinions is all.
