Evelyn, I haven't been a member here that long but one thing I did notice is that you were ALWAYS popping up to offer words of love and encouragement to others. With just a few days to go, I know you are on an emotional roller coaster, but in you quiet times, you have to tell yourself that you took this journey to make a better life for yourself and to fully enjoy the gift of life that your Higher Power gave you. Trust in Him and trust in yourself. You will be fine and you will be on the losing side soon. Can't wait to hear about your experiences in the near future because I know you will be back here letting us know how it is and encouraging us all!