LaTanya W.
It's been a while but...here goes!
Jul 15, 2009
Where do I start? Since I came back from Vegas on 4th of July, I haven't been doing well on my vitamins or protein shakes. Ok, I haven't been doing it AT ALL. My husband even noticed and yes I got mad at him even though he was right. I had to apologize to him because I was just embarrassed. Plus, I got mad at him for saying that I should start thinking about toning up since he could tell that I've lost a lot of weight. The truth just hurts even though I tried to disguise it with anger.
I have been able to eat a lot better and I haven't thrown up once so I think I just got too comfortable feeling "normal" again. It's no wonder I've been feeling soooooooo tired. My hair was starting to shed some too when I washed it this weekend so you would think that would motivate me to get back on track but nope - I failed.
I will wake up tomorrow and get back on the plan though so I can get my energy back and I can stop feeling sorry for myself. I thought the psychological aspect that BAF speaks about was bullshit but now I see. I have to remind myself not to load up my plate because I start feeling sickly after maybe just 3 or 4 bites. It sucks that I don't dump either. I mean absolutely nothing makes me dump and I feel stupid for drinking that goddamned soda when I know I shouldn't.
I am just messing up all around but I WILL GET BACK ON TRACK AND DO IT RIGHT. I don't know what's wrong with me, maybe it's because I've been bleeding for 2 months straight and my hormones are messed up. Who knows what it is but it's only been 4 months so if I don't get it together now - I never will.
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I have been able to eat a lot better and I haven't thrown up once so I think I just got too comfortable feeling "normal" again. It's no wonder I've been feeling soooooooo tired. My hair was starting to shed some too when I washed it this weekend so you would think that would motivate me to get back on track but nope - I failed.
I will wake up tomorrow and get back on the plan though so I can get my energy back and I can stop feeling sorry for myself. I thought the psychological aspect that BAF speaks about was bullshit but now I see. I have to remind myself not to load up my plate because I start feeling sickly after maybe just 3 or 4 bites. It sucks that I don't dump either. I mean absolutely nothing makes me dump and I feel stupid for drinking that goddamned soda when I know I shouldn't.
I am just messing up all around but I WILL GET BACK ON TRACK AND DO IT RIGHT. I don't know what's wrong with me, maybe it's because I've been bleeding for 2 months straight and my hormones are messed up. Who knows what it is but it's only been 4 months so if I don't get it together now - I never will.
My stall is over...for now!
May 06, 2009
When I got back on that scale and I lost another few pounds I was SO HAPPY!! It's terrible but I am a pro at throwing up now. All I have to do is just think about it. I know it's gross but - my husband said "I ain't kissing you with throw up breath". LOL I told him to smell my breath and I said "see it just smells like (whatever I was eating - I forgot)".
Thank God the constipation has went away cuz chile I thought I was never gon' get that mess out. I was in the bathroom for like 2 hours. I gave myself an enema and that made it way worse! Well, I got me some gloves from my perm kit and went to work and freed myself from agony. My butt was sore for a few days but that was the price I had to pay for not drinking enough water. I still hate water but I'm damn sho drinking it er day now.
I heard all about the head hunger but I've been getting HUNGRY for real. I still know not to over do it and I don't eat anything that's not good for me (ok, I ate some popcorn) but I think I'm doing pretty good.
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Thank God the constipation has went away cuz chile I thought I was never gon' get that mess out. I was in the bathroom for like 2 hours. I gave myself an enema and that made it way worse! Well, I got me some gloves from my perm kit and went to work and freed myself from agony. My butt was sore for a few days but that was the price I had to pay for not drinking enough water. I still hate water but I'm damn sho drinking it er day now.
I heard all about the head hunger but I've been getting HUNGRY for real. I still know not to over do it and I don't eat anything that's not good for me (ok, I ate some popcorn) but I think I'm doing pretty good.
Ok, I'm back to work now and I feel much better!
Apr 03, 2009
I never thought I'd be happy to be back at work but I really am. It helps not to think about food (well, lack therof) all day long. Don't ask me why I torture myself with the Food Network. Anyway, I'm on pureed soup and I'm starting feel more normal now.
My husband is even losing weight now since I haven't been cooking. It's still not fair that his weight comes off so easy! His stomach is going down faster than mine!
My mother has just now called to act like she's concerned about me. Whatever! She's just trying to get me to call her again so I can be held hostage on the phone listening to her never ending problems for 3 hours as usual. NOT GONNA DO IT!! I'M GETTING A NEW LEASE ON LIFE AND SOME THANGS ROUND HERE GON CHANGE RET NAH!!!
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My husband is even losing weight now since I haven't been cooking. It's still not fair that his weight comes off so easy! His stomach is going down faster than mine!
My mother has just now called to act like she's concerned about me. Whatever! She's just trying to get me to call her again so I can be held hostage on the phone listening to her never ending problems for 3 hours as usual. NOT GONNA DO IT!! I'M GETTING A NEW LEASE ON LIFE AND SOME THANGS ROUND HERE GON CHANGE RET NAH!!!
3.24.09 Thank you Lord!
Mar 24, 2009
Praise God!! I made it through the surgery (3.18.09) and my journey is still in progress. I always have to learn stuff the hard way but the Lord never lets me down.
I have about 7 holes in my stomach but they don't hurt. The thing that's killing me is the gas! Woo! the gas makes my back hurt so damn bad and the pains shooting through my shoulder are no joke either. I'm taking the loritab and the protonin or whatever but it's not helping enough. I have to take sleeping pills with it in order to get a good night sleep.
I'm not convinced that my stomach can only hold 2 or 3 oz. of food either. I haven't tested it out exactly because my throat, back and shoulder start hurting before I can even get there.
I'm still happy though and my weight is dropping pretty good for now. I know this won't last forever so I'm slowly learning what to eat and how to eat. I'm doing good though, I don't even miss sweets. I never was a big sweets person anyway.
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I have about 7 holes in my stomach but they don't hurt. The thing that's killing me is the gas! Woo! the gas makes my back hurt so damn bad and the pains shooting through my shoulder are no joke either. I'm taking the loritab and the protonin or whatever but it's not helping enough. I have to take sleeping pills with it in order to get a good night sleep.
I'm not convinced that my stomach can only hold 2 or 3 oz. of food either. I haven't tested it out exactly because my throat, back and shoulder start hurting before I can even get there.
I'm still happy though and my weight is dropping pretty good for now. I know this won't last forever so I'm slowly learning what to eat and how to eat. I'm doing good though, I don't even miss sweets. I never was a big sweets person anyway.
I hope they don't cancel the surgery
Mar 16, 2009
Two more days to go before I check in for surgery. I have to confess that I could not make it through the whole weekend without eating. My head was pounding and I just couldn't resist eating. I didn't eat anything too bad though, just some chips and salsa but I'm still worried. I was thinking that I could take some epsom salt and flush myself out but I don't know...
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I really am over fast food!
Mar 12, 2009
Last night I was thinking...Man I'm hungry and I could have my absolute last fattening meal since they said I could start my liquid diet 5 days out. I decided on my own to start earlier.
Anyway, while I was sitting there trying to think of what could be my "last meal" I COULD NOT THINK OF A SINGLE THING I WANTED TO EAT.
MCDONALDS? No
J I TB? No
Mexican? No
Panda Express? No
Pick Up Stix? No
I haven't eaten fast food in a year so I think I'm finally over it!!
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Anyway, while I was sitting there trying to think of what could be my "last meal" I COULD NOT THINK OF A SINGLE THING I WANTED TO EAT.
MCDONALDS? No
J I TB? No
Mexican? No
Panda Express? No
Pick Up Stix? No
I haven't eaten fast food in a year so I think I'm finally over it!!
3.11.09
Mar 11, 2009
Ok, I'm on this liquid diet and I'm starving! Well not really, I drank my SlimFast shake and I had two cups of SF jello and I'm actually alright. It's hard walking past the cafeteria and smelling food though.
I called my friend Mika today to ask if she knows someone that could braid my hair since I'll be in the hospital next week. Of course she wants to know why I'm gonna be in the hospital but I'm not sure if I wanna tell people about my surgery. I just don't want the stigma attached to me.
Another thing bothering me is that I'm having surgery at the same hospital I work in. People are just so damned nosy! OMG I really don't want anybody except my husband to come and visit me in the hospital but I just know they cannot resist.
I had my labs done this morning as well as an EKG and my Nurse consult. It's crazy that the answer to all the questions was "no". I don't smoke, I don't have any health problems yada yada yada. I was expecting them to weigh me but they didn't so I don't know if I' ve lost any weight since my last doctor visit which was on 2.26.09. I think she said my weight was 268 and they need me to get down to at least 250 by the surgery date. Man! 18 pounds in a few weeks seems like a lot. I've been doing good though. I haven't had any bad foods since then.
I CAN DO IT! I'm gonna go and buy me some more books, puzzles, movies or whatever I need to keep me busy in the evenings after work and on weekends!
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I called my friend Mika today to ask if she knows someone that could braid my hair since I'll be in the hospital next week. Of course she wants to know why I'm gonna be in the hospital but I'm not sure if I wanna tell people about my surgery. I just don't want the stigma attached to me.
Another thing bothering me is that I'm having surgery at the same hospital I work in. People are just so damned nosy! OMG I really don't want anybody except my husband to come and visit me in the hospital but I just know they cannot resist.
I had my labs done this morning as well as an EKG and my Nurse consult. It's crazy that the answer to all the questions was "no". I don't smoke, I don't have any health problems yada yada yada. I was expecting them to weigh me but they didn't so I don't know if I' ve lost any weight since my last doctor visit which was on 2.26.09. I think she said my weight was 268 and they need me to get down to at least 250 by the surgery date. Man! 18 pounds in a few weeks seems like a lot. I've been doing good though. I haven't had any bad foods since then.
I CAN DO IT! I'm gonna go and buy me some more books, puzzles, movies or whatever I need to keep me busy in the evenings after work and on weekends!
About Me
San Diego, CA
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38.6
BMI
Surgery
03/18/2009
Surgery Date
Aug 13, 2008
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