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12-02-05****I AM 53 YRS OLD, I WEIGH 250 LBS AND I AM 5'3" tall. I am tired of being fat and feeling bad all of the time!. I want to have the surgery very badly. Iam single, divorced mother of 3 adult children 22, 20, and 18. I am very much inspired by the stories and photos I have seen on this site. I have an appt with the surgeon on Jan 11-06. I have already attended the seminar, Dr. Hutcher was WONDERFUL!!!!!!!! He made everything very easy to understand. Many people have asked me. Are you afraid to have the surgery, I say NO..IF I CAN LIVE IN RICHMOND VA. WHICH IS VERY FRIGHTENING, why would I be afraid of this surgery..LOL.. .I will keep you posted...and remember..WHEN LIFE GIVES YOU LEMONS..MAKE LEMONADE..JUST DONT MAKE IT TOO SWEET:)
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12-15-05...Hello everyone, I met with my PCP today, I had a physical, EKG..ETC.. I have hypertension, asthma, and some other stuff going on 250LBS.. BMI 44.2! He agrees that weight loss surgery is my only hope for losing weight, he was easy to talk to. He said diets dont work and to weigh the PROS & CONS, but agrees that I am an excellent candidate. He said there is no problem writing me a letter and giving me a referral to the surgeon!!! yeah!!!!!!! I will keep my profile updated, as I take my journey hopefully to THE OTHER SIDE. HAVE YOU SEEN PATTY AUSTIN...She lost 120 LBs, she looks BEAUTIFUL, she is on the cover of JET MAGAZINE, AMAZING!!!!!!!!!. remember WHEN LIFE GIVES YOU LEMONS MAKE LEMONADE..JUST DONT MAKE IT TOO S-WEET... (:
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1/13/06..Hello everyone. I had my consult on 1-11-06. The staff was VERY NICE! I AM DEFINITELY A CANDIDATE FOR WLS ..boy was I shocked!...(just kidding) I had the nerve to lose 6 lbs since 12-15-05. My information is going to be sent in within a week to the insurance company for APPROVAL..I hope I am not turned down :( I will keep you posted..I hope to have the surgery mar/apr...
WHEN LIFE GIVES YOU LEMONS...MAKE LEMONADE..JDMIT2SWEET:)
1-18-06***I called the surgeons ofc and was told my information was faxed to the insurance company tues a.m...yeah!
1-19-06***NOTHING YET...something tells me I wont be approved, but I am going to think positive...and just WAAAAAAAiiiitttt**I am not going to stress about it..if they say no..I will appeal..and appeal and appeal..then if they still say no..well I guess I will buy a large George Foreman grill and eat salads and fruit and excersise and diet and yoyo for the rest of my life:( boo hoo...
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1/23/06**I was nervous all weekend! I couldnt wait to call the insurance company to see WHAT OTHER INFORMATION WAS NEEDED!!!!!!! TO MY SURPRISE I WAS TOLD....DRUM ROLL PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR APPROVED!!!!!!! APPROVED*******APPROVED! MY SURGERY DATE IS 2-21-06..I AM SOOOOO EXCITED I CAN HARDLY STAND IT!!!!!!!!!! AND I DIDNT HAVE TO WAIT LONG EITHER...I JUST HAD MY CONSULT ON 1-11-06..I am so happy, nervous, scared..but I am going to think POSITIVE..I will keep you posted! WHEN LIFE GIVES YOU LEMONS MAKE LEMONADE:)
***1-24-06****soooo amazing..well IT IS OFFICIAL I RECD my letter from the surgeon today, with my surgery date..yipppeee!!!
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******1/29/06--WELL I HAVE LESS THAN 3 WKS TO GO BEFORE THE BIG DAY! I am feeling fear, nervousness, BUT MOSTLY JOY..I feel like flying around the room..finally I will have no more pain, depression from carrying around all of this weight AND GOOD HEALTH!! Now when people make "fat" comments I feel nothing but joy that soon I will be SLLLLLLLLLIIIIIMMMMMM....LOL..THE OTHER DAY ON THE ELEVATOR AT WORK A FELLOW EMPLOYEE and I were discussing blood pressure medication that I am taking..I thought for sure one time she told me she was taking bp meds..anyway she said losing weight will help! She wasnt being mean and well...it is true..but before I would have felt bad all day..I knew I was big..but I always hoped it wasnt that noticeable..lol..lol..really LOL..and comments like this only served to remind me OTHERS KNOW I'M FAT TOO! DUH...there are soooo many memories I have of the pain I have gone thru due to others remarks about my weight over the years, and now when the fear of the surgery begins to overwhelm me..I do something that I probably shouldnt do but I think of ALL THE CRUEL things that people have said to me..laughing to my face because of my LARGE REAR END..talking about how big it is in front of others..saying things like...boy we cant look at these little clothes bec we are fat while shopping with friends...people who are smaller than me telling me how disgusted they are with their weight...hearing from others that men I have known didnt find me attractive and suitable for dating because they felt I was TOO BIG...I didnt want them anyway..but it still HURT...People who I considered bigger than me giving me their clothes..saying this is too small for me so I am giving it to you..I hope you can use it...ummm..guessing my weight and starting at 200lbs..they were right,,and I always wished they would say less..lol..going to the beach and the temp was prob..100 degrees..and sitting on the beach in the sand with pants on..long pants..and a blouse and jacket bec I didnt want to show my fat arms..I was so embarrassed..I have always dreaded the summer because I couldnt cover up..I LOVE THE WINTER..turtle necks..long pants and skirts..jackets..coats...so I could hide..even in the heat I would always wear jackets..I knew I looked crazy..but I would go to the market or walmart and pray they had the AC on so I wouldnt look too crazy...BUT BEC I felt so fat I didnt want my body to show!!!..I would never go to picnics..Amusement Parks..etc..all the small women with thier little shorts or slim fitting jeans..little tops would make me feel so out of place..I have lost YEARS OF ENJOYMENT..My last husband even though he was a jerk..used to look at me with disgust because of my weight...and believe that it contributed somewhat to the end of our marriage a small percentage...I remeber one woman telling me her bro in law in know way could be interested in me bec he likes women with good shapes..she didnt even think this would hurt me..I remember someone telling me one time when she heard I was dieting..that so and so has lost weight so whatever she is doing you should try it..bec she is being sucessful on her diet...or going almost a mo. on slim fast and NOONE notices youve lost weight...but they notice the weight loss of everyone around you..WELL NOW..I WANT TO SEE WHAT PEOPLE WILL HAVE TO SAY WHEN THEY SEE ME THIS SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!...some will act like they DONT EVEN NOTICE IVE LOST 100LBS..you know the ones who all of a sudden your invisible..well I am finally going to end the fat comments once and for all!! OH..AND I AM GOING TO GIVE ALOT OF PEOPLE CLOTHING THAT I USE TO WEAR..ah..when I was bigger than they are...lol...I will say..oh I would love to give you these clothes bec you were so kind in giving me clothes when I was BIGGER THAN YOU..I am going to stop here for now..this has been very THERAPUTIC..and I FEEL MY NERVOUSNESS AND FEAR SLOWING FADING AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...c ya!!!
***2/1/06..Sometimes I wonder? is anyone really reading my profile?? well just in case...Hello everyone..I had my psych eval today it went great..Ronnie was soooo nice and sweet...I feel it went great..looking forward to the surgery being over..still in shock but I'M LOVIN IT :) SURGERY DATE 2-21-06 YIPEEEEEEEEEEE...
2 MORE WKS TO GO... Today is 2-7-06, I had my lab work done today, CHEST XRAY, EKG, funny thing on 1-11-06 when i had my consult I weighed 243.5 lbs and TODAY I WEIGH EXACTLY THE SAME NOT 1/2 LB MORE OR LESS...THE SAME...and I pre-registered..tomorrow I have nutrition class 4-8 and next week I meet with the surgeon. I feel at peace and there is a strange calm coming over me, well not strange but I am going to be positive about this and not think of negative things! Noone can believe I am 53..two nice ladies told men today your going to be small and cute..one said small an pretty..lol..we shall see:) This has been soooo amazing, I dont feel self conscious anymore..because I know what is coming, when I look at people who look nice and slim and they seem healthy I think THAT IS GOING TO BE ME IN ABOUT 6 MOS..YEAAAAHHHH..IT HAS REALLY HELPED READING THE PROFILES..WHEN I GO TO MY CONVENTION THIS SUMMER I WONT BE OUT OF BREATH, I WILL BE WEARING PRETTY OUTFITS AND NOT TRYING TO COVER UP WHEN THE TEMP REACHES 100..I WILL WALK AROUND AND GREET OTHERS AND NOT FEEL ASHAMED AND FEARING SOMEONE WILL SEE ME AND THINK OMG LOOK HOW BIG SHE IS..I WONT FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE BEC I CANT FIT IN THE CHAIR..I CANT WAIT!!! I AM ANXIOUS FOR THE WEIGHT TO START DROPPING OFF, TO WALK AND NOT HAVE TROUBLE BREATHING BOY THAT WILL BE WONDERFUL. In the Bible it speaks of a time when there will be no more sickness and no more death Rev:21:3...4, I look forward to this time and I look forward to being happy NOW with myself instead of feeling like a failure, no more rude comments from people... I deserve to feel good and LOOK GOOD too, SOON IT WILL BE A REALITY...:) C YA*********2/7/06
2/11/06..MET WITH SURGEON WEIGHT IS 250.....wow..I did it..I went to walmart with my wls book listing what I will need ie:vitamins..and liquids..I think I did pretty good I found everything I needed except the SUGAR FREE JELLO..bec of the storm coming (the shelves were pretty empty)there was no jello either that or everyone who is wls pt purchased them..I purchased a large container of whey powder,,carnation instant brkfast..high protein slim fast..lactaid milk..broth chicken and beef so tomorrow I am going to start preparing for how I will have to eat when I come home..10 MORE DAYS TO GO..OPRAH HAS A BILLION$$...BUT THE ONE THING SHE WANTS AND cant MANAGE TO GET IS ...SMALLER AND KEEP THE WEIGHT OFF..she looked so sad the other day as she sat with her trainer BOB again for the one millionth time expressing her plans to once AGAIN START ON A WEIGHT LOSS PROGRAM...up and down..yo yo dieting..DIETS DONT WORK..this surgery IS NOT A DIET..it is serious..and I can not think of any other way to SUCCESSFULLY LOSE WEIGHT AND KEEP IT OFF!!!!!!!!!!..SLIMVILLE HERE I COME...LEMONADE ANYONE?? :)*******
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2/20/06..Well I have less than 24 hrs before I have my SURGERY..I have to arrive at the hospital @530 a.m and the surg is 7:30..I am nervous..scared..excited..and I feel as though I am going to pick up a check for a sweepstake that I've won for 1mill $..but I have to crawl to Calif from Va to pick it up on my knees:(..I wish I would have done everything right to prevent this from happening but I cant look back now..everyone says YOU DONT LOOK BIG ENOUGH TO GET THE SURGERY..and it is funny I have started to lose weight lol..SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I AM CHEATING AND TAKING THE EASY WAY OUT BUT THERE IS NOTHING ABOUT THIS SURGERY THAT IS EASY. ALMOST everyone has been very supportive and I have already lost my appetite, a friend of mine invited me to her home last night for dinner..it was wonderful but the weird things is I didnt have seconds of ANYTHING except I drank lots of ice tea..and I brought cake home which normally I would have devoured in no time but it is still wrapped up NOT TOUCHED lol..my mind and body is already rejecting food..Today I am just chillin listening to smooth jazz and R&B Classics praying..cried a little bit..packing my little bag to take with me..getting instructions ready for my kids..and making sure bills due soon are all taken care of..I have my vitamins..broth..slim fast Optima High Protein drinks (surgeon approved)..sugar free jello..crystal light...ummm..well that seems like everything..oh and I am going to give myself a PEDICURE..it will make me feel good! House is neat and in order..I want to be successful...this is such an important step I am taking..I have to write my Dear Food letter: I think I will do it now..
DEAR FOOD:
You masked yourself over the years as my friend, I relied on you, you brought me comfort soothed my nerves, you were my tranquilizer, but I abused myself with you and I lost control. You enabled me to think less and less of myself and for years I tried to release myself from your tight embrace only to run back to you knowing you were not good for me. I was unable for long periods of time to stay away from you and only eat what was good for me and instead I ate all of the wrong things, did not excercise and the lbs came on year after year..You made me feel ugly and I felt ashamed to show myself in public..BUT NOW I REALIZE LIKE ANY OTHER ADDICTION YOU ARE NOT GOOD FOR ME, and I AM BREAKING FREE FROM YOUR DEATH GRIP..I will only share my life with you when you are good for my health, I will not allow you to ever again control my life, you tormentor of my soul, I would become totally involved with you until I was drained and you would laugh knowing you had another victim in your grasp who could not break free..I loathe the thought of ever becoming comfortable with you again..and this time I WILL BE SUCCESSFUL in breaking free from you. I had to have you esp when times were bad..when bored I needed you..when sad I needed you..when excited I needed you..when happy I needed you, your aroma that would arouse my scenses into a dreamlike state of mind, the pleasure I would have when I tasted you would only have me coming back for more, but you were not my friend. I will lose this weight, I will look good again..I will be healthy..I will show you.. myself and others that I AM IMPORTANT AND NOT THE FOOD I CONSUME...LIFE GAVE ME LEMONS AND I MAKING LEMONADE WITHOUT SUGAR ADDED!!!!! SEE YOU ON THE OTHERSIDE...
CURRENT WGHT 244.00
GOAL...130-140 (NEVER MORE THAN 145)HOPEFULLY IT WONT TAKE AN ENTIRE YEAR..
YIPPEEEEEEEE..I KNOW THAT THE PAIN FROM THE SURGERY THE DISCOMFORT WILL NOT LAST FOR EVER..I WILL SAY EVERYDAY ..THIS TOO SHALL PASS....C YA...
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2/21/06 THEY DIDNT WEIGH ME WHE I ARRIVED AT THE HOSP i PROB STILL WEIGHED 250 IF NOT MORE:(
2/27-06 Hello...sorry that I am just getting around to updating my profile..well I am on the other side..and EVERYTHING IS GOING GREAT..I havnt vomited once..and I feel like I had ANY OTHER kind of Major surgery as a matter of fact I only feel like I have eaten too much at an all you can eat buffet:).....nothing else is really bothering me I had some old scar tissue from a previous surg so I have staples...ouch but I am doing everything I am supposed to be doing and I have support of family and friends..Iam getting in all of my vitamins..clear liquids and my CIB Meal..I am prob the healthiest I have ever been my entire life now..I have climbed my stairs today was the second time..and I have alot of stairs..one of the worst things I encountered in the hospital was tring to get in and out of bed,,still a problem now but I am not sweating the small stuffand the NURSES WHO WERE ALL OBESE..(I was reminded everyday)why I made the decision to have this surgery..they could hardly walk..and they all had on perfume,,boby lotions etc,,it drove me crazy tryiong to breath!!!! but I have beeen Blessed and I am doing fine..I havnt weighed myself..I will wait until my 1st appt...c ya Roe..when life gives you lemons...enjoy them!
4/6/06 It has been a long time since I updated my file. I have lost 39 lbs in six weeks..this is great..I have had no complications, just pain in my stomach, it is subsiding every day. I am bak to work part time this week FT next week..I can finally eat regular food, I tried pork roast a few slices on wheat toast NEVER AGAIN... I ate a salad later with PAUL NEWMANS LIGHT BALSIMIC VINERGRET (SP) I had it last night no problem, but tonight pain pain pain..it felt like I was passing a kidney stone but then it went away and I went shopping and bought two pairs of shoes..I will be happy when I drop under 200 lbs :(..I can tell I am losing but the scale has gone up since I began eating reg food, I eat protein and fruit plenty of water, it may be fluid..my face and neck are very small and my clothes are very lose...I am going to start going to the gym this weekend. I will keep you posted..:)
5/06/06 205 LBS ...Last night I went to a concert and I got the looks from people like i used to get 20 yrs ago! If I must say myself I looked fabulous! I can now wear sz 16 skirt and 16 tops no more 1 2 and 3 X's yeah!!!!!!!!!!as of today I have lost 45 lbs in less than 3 mos. I have energy and I look 20 yrs younger it is truly AMAZING!!!!!! I cant wait until another 50 lbs comes off! My ultimate goal is between 135 and 140 NO MORE THAT 140 I hope to be under 200 by the end of this month...I will keep you posted:)
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5/19/06 had appt with nutritionist8wk visit weight 196 right on target...
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5/28/06 I havnt updated in a while..but I am finally under 200 lbs! people are referring to me as skinny and TINY, it is amazing..and I am only down to 193 lbs..I cant wait to get down to 180 then 170 160 150 140 and GOAL OF 135 LBS...I will never go back to eating the way I did before..NOTHING...I MEAN NOTHING TASTE AS GOOD AS A SZ 8 OR EVEN A 9/10 WILL LOOK AND FEEL! I CAN WEAR SZ 16 SKIRT...WILL POST AGAIN AT ANOTHER TIME..
*******6/11/06 I had to go get my fluid/blood pressure pills fluid made the scale say 200 lbs..I ran to pcp's ofc..got fluid pills (BP) and now back down to 195 whew..I cant wait to finally be under 190!!!!! I will post later..oh by the way I made crab cakes tonight..cooked in olive oil..normally I used to be able to eat betw 4 and 6 with no problem..tonight I was satisfied after eating 1 and a little potatoe salad..this is amazing.will post later..
june 14 2006****weight 191...boy that fluid is something else..hope to be under 191 by the wkend..I went to the gym last night walked on the treadmill and came home and dance to some oldies and did some other exercises..WANT THIS WEIGHT UNDER 180 BY THE END OF THE SUMMER..EVERYONE SAYS I LOOK LIKE I DONT NEED TO LOSE ANYMORE WEIGHT HAHA YEAH RIGHT!!! THEY AINT SEEN NOTHING YET I WILL NOT BE SATISFIED UNTIL I AM NO MORE THAN 145LBS...AS FAR AS I AM CONCERNED I AM STILL FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EVERYONE COMPLIMENTS ME AT WORK..WELL NOT EVERYONE BUT MANY ARE SHOCKED AT HOW :SMALL" I AM PEOPLE STOP ME EVERYWHERE COMMENTING!!!! STILL...I DONT SEE WHAT OTHERS SEE, BUT I APPRECIATE THE COMPLIMENTS...I DREAD THE MERE THOUGHT OF EVER BEING 200 LBS AGAIN...I HATE WHAT I ALLOWED FOOD TO DO TO ME SHOULD I SAY WHAT i DID TO MYSELF...MY KIDS ARE ALL MOVED OUT NOW..i MISS THEM VERY MUCH..BUT i AM STILL STICKING TO MY LIFE LONG GOAL OF CHANGING THE WAY I EAT... SOMETIMES I LOATHE FOOD!
...SINCE BEFORE 2-21-06 DAY OF SURGERY THE ITEMS LISTED BELOW ARE WHAT I HAVE NOT EATEN THAT I USED TO ENJOY..
KRISPY kREME DONUTS
i HAVE ONLY EATEN 1/2 OF A CROUISSANT..NO OTHER BREAD..
POTATOE CHIPS
FRENCH FRIES
CAKE
WINE
LIQUOR
FRIED CHICKEN (ONLY HAVE HAD 4 CHICKEN WINGS FRIED)
PIZZA (TRIED ONE SLICE..WONT DO IT AGAIN EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!)
CHINESE FOOD
CHEESEBURGER ON BUN
SUB ANY KIND
COOKIES
PIE
ICE CREAM (ONLY HAVE HAD EDY'S W/SPLENDA)
SODA (ANY KIND)
SUGAR
CANDY
AND IT HAS "NOT" BEEN HARD..i DONT EVEN WANT ANY OF THE ABOVE ITEMS...
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I AM NO LONGER OUT OF BREATH.MY SKIN IS FLAWLESS....I HAVE PURCHASED SHOES WITH HIGH HEELS AGAIN..SZ 16 SKIRT AND POANTS NOW LOOSE..
THE DAY THE SCALE SAYS 150 i WILL BE HAPPY...145 ESTACTIC..135 DREAM COME TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WILL POST AGAIN LATER....
6/15/06 FINALLY UNDER 190!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 189 IS MY WEIGHT today... 7 LBs LOSS IN LESS THAN 1 MO....TOTAL LOSS 61 LBS...YEAHHHHHHHHHHHH :) 54 FROM GOAL LOOKS LIKE I WILL BE UNDER 180 BY JULY 1ST WE WILL SEE...
6/18/06 weight is 185..total loss 65 lbs surg date was 2-21-06..it will be 4 mos 6-21-06 this coming wed...yeah..NOT EXCITED YET THOUGH..will be excited when I reach 160..estactic 145 and super flying high unable to think straight at 135-140 which is my goal only 50 lbs to lose!!!!!!!!!!!GYM HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6/20/06 184 lbs... I went to the gym tonight walked on the treadmill did free weights combination of about 1 hr. ....ONLY 49LBS FROM GOAL OF 135.
.EVERYONE SAYS I AM GOING TO BE TOO SMALL AT 135 BUT I DONT WANT TO BE ANYWHERE NEAR 150 LBS...140 AT THE MOST!!! THIS WAS A DRASTIC SURG AND I WANT DRASTIC RESULTS..
IT FEELS SO GOOD BEING SMALLER THAN I WAS..IT FEELS SO GOOD SOMETIMES I THINK I AM DREAMING..AND I FEEL GOOD AND CONFIDENT..PEOPLE TREAT YOU DIFFERENT..IT IS FUNNY SOME PEOPLE AT WORK TRY TO NOT EVEN MAKE EYE CONTACT WITH ME ANY MORE...I NAM SZ 16 AND IT FEELS A LITTLE LOOSE CANT WAIT TO BE SZ 10 DONT WANT TO BE A 12 OR 14! 9/10 OR 7/8.
.IT FEELS SOOO GOOD NOT HEARING FAT COMMENTS ANYMORE...I WOULD HAVE THIS SURG AGAIN IN A HEARTBEAT..MY SUCCESS HAS BEEN FANTASTIC...SOMETIMES I WALK AROUND LIKE I AM DREAMING..SZ 20-24's ARE HUGE NOW I cant believe I have to leave them on the rack..I have so much more energy now..I had a great lunch today..string beans and a sm salad YUM..should have but didnt eat dinner..just drank ice tea...cold brew with equal is fantastic..
.I am so determined to reach my goal it isnt even funny!!! I have lost 66 lbs and tomorrow will be 4 mos..I think that is wonderful..I never would have been able to do it without WLS..NO WAY POSSIBLE..sometimes PEOPLE DONT recognize me at work..but something strange happens that I want to mention..sometimes if someone compliments me in front of others I feel embarrassed bec of the attention..esp if the person standing nearby is obese...
I know quite a few people who should have this surgery..but the public mostly because of being misinformed only have negative things to say about it..I feel it is taking a risk but so is being obese..I took my chances and I am happy beyond words that I did..If I had not had the surg...right now I would probably be 260 lbs or more..huffing and puffing, upset because it is hot and I have nothing to wear...now even at 184..(it looks like I weigh much less)I can weer cute pants and tops..and beautiful shoes again..SHOES ARE MY PASSION...I have them in all colors you can name..oh and II can cross my legs!!!!! with no problem...feels great..I have wanted to do this for a long time.....sometimes when I am shopping and I see sm clothes I dont get upset anymore I looK at athem and I say out loud to myself..ONE DAY...ONE DAY..and I move on to the sz 16's...the day I reach 135 I am going to be sooooooo excited I will probably go to New York and go on a shopping spree...that will prob be around the end of sept...AND I WILL NEVER.NEVER.BE FAT AGAIN....NEVER.EVER BE FAT AGAIN..I dont know how anyone can have this surg...and then be sad because they cant eat certain things..I loathe the foods that caused me to be fat...I dont miss them..and dont want to indulge in them...I remember the hurtful things people said to me..and when I think about those times it makes me hate anything that will put the weight back on me!!!!!!...I know I am going on and on..and noone will prob read this..but it is good therapy lol .it is late I am going to sleep...Peace!
6/23/06 WOW MOMENT..Had to go shopping none of my old clothes fit they are TOO BIG!!!....I went to a store and on past shopping trips Ive never gone to the Jr side..I always stayed on hte PLUS SIZE side of the store..well everything was too big so I ended up going to the other side..and I tried on 2 skirts THAT DID NOT HAVE AN X IN THE SIZE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS!!!!!!!!!! iE" 1 X 2 X 3 X...I tried on XL..and the material dosnt give...TOOO BIGGG..I was shocked..so I tried on L..and told the cashier..(check this out)..I will take these two skirts and not the other ones bec they are too big...lol..it sounded weird saying it.....I feel great..didnt have a good exp with dinner tonight steak and salad got caught in my chest baaaddd exp...dont want anymore steak for a while...it was good though..lol..I am really getting excited now I am less than 50 lbs from goal!!!!!!! I have noticed fianlly that I am smaller..more energy too.. I will be soooo happy when I get under 150!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and can wear 9/10's or even 8's..soooo AMAZING FEELS LIKE A DREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
7/3/06..THIS IS GETTING CRAZY LOL...everyone is in SHOCK about my weight loss..sz 14 skirt is now loose...scale now says 182-183 lbs... I am thrilled!!!!!!!!!!! hopefully by the end of this month scale will say 170 or less...this has been truly amazing....REMEMBER..NOTHING TASTE AS GOOD AS A SIZE 8 FEELS..N O T H I N G!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
7/14/06*******HELLO EVERYONE...SAW PCP TODAY WEIGHT 178LBS...I HAVE LOST 72 LBS IN LESS THAN 5MOS. YEAHH!! yippe..looks like i weigh 150...sz 16 pants were falling off of me today!!! 38 more lbs and I will be 140!!!!!!!!!!!! ONLY 43 FROM GOAL OF 135...C YA
7/16/09 176 yeah!!!! bought sz medium skirts yesterday...LG is too BIG...my daughter was going to throw a jean skirt away I brought it home and I CAN FIT IT...ALSO SZ MED..AND IT LOOKS GOOD!!!
HOPE TO BE DOWN TO 170 BY END OF THS MO..
START WGHT------250
CURRENT WGHT---176
SZ START---22/24 DRESS. ---2X......3X .SKIRTS
TOPS..1X-3X
CURRENT LG...XL-1X-3X/TOO BIG
CURRENT MED (14'S ARE LOOSE 16'S FALLING OFF 18/20 OUT OF THE QUESTION)
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GOAL 135-140 (41-36 FROM GOAL)AND IT HASNT BEEN 6 MOS. YET!!!!!!! REMEMBER NOTHING TASTE AS GOOD AS A SZ 8 IS GOING TO FEEL,,,,
C YA :)
7/21/06 5 MO. ANNIVERSARY IVE LOST 75LBS I CAN WEAR MED TOPS..I LOOKE LIKE I ALREADY WEAR 150 LBS YEAH
7/24/06 AMAZING..PEOPLE ARE IN SHOCK STILL AS a result of my weight loss..some are speechless..some react with screaming from excitement,,this IS REALLY WEIRD...I am 172lbs..32 lbs from goal 37 from ultimate goal of 135!!!!!!! Most people are amazed that I still want to lose more and they think I am already 140 lbs..will keep you posted...I hope someone is reading this lol...
7/31/06 YALL READY FOR THIS WEIGHT IS 172 SZ 12 PANTS AND SKIRTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TOTAL LOST 80 LBS IN LESS THAN 6 MOS... I NEVER CHEAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
8/9/06 VISIT WITH NUTRITIONIST...172 LBS..6 MO VISIT WILL BE 6 MOS..21ST
8/13/06****165lbs...this weekend was amazing..I cant beleive HOW GOOD I LOOK!! SORRY IT SOUNDS LIKE I AM BRAGGING..i am...I LOOK AS ONE GUY ON MY JOB EMAILED ME SAYING..15 YRS YOUNGER..IT IS KINDA SCARY..SOMETIMES I FEEL SAD FOR THE OTHER PERSON (me fat) WHO SEEMS TO HAVE DIED..She was so miserable..it is so sad how she suffered for so long..) People dont recognize me at all...it is so amazing....one woman was talking to me saying I looked like someone she knew and coulnt believe it when I said I AM HER!!!, i ran into a couple of guys who last saw me fat...THEY WERE SHOCKED!!! EVERYONE SAYS THEY CANT BELIEVE I WANT TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT...WELL I DO!!!!
I AM BETWEEN 25 and 20 lbs from goal of 135-140.
*****8/15/06 WGHT IS 165-166 LBS...i DONT HAVE AN APPETITE AT ALL..PROB bec I am excited about being so close to my GOAL...YIPPEEEEE..NOT EVEN SIX MOS. YET...TRIED ON SZ 9/10 DRESS (I BOUGHT IT..SILK! IT FITS..A LILTTLE SNUG..BUT I GOT IT ON AND IT ZIPS UP THE BACK..BY THE END OF SEPT/EARLY OCT I WILL BE WEARING IT WITH EASE!!!!! T H I S IS AMAZING!!!!! OH AND MY BMI IS ONLY 29.? MODERATELY OVERWEIGHT..AND I NO LONGER QUALIFY FOR WLS...HAHAHAHA THAT IS SO FUNNY!!! IN LESS THAN 6 MOS...
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8/26/06 162 LBS YIPPEE..I'm MODERATELY OVERWEIGHT LOL...purchased sz 10 jeans...they fit!!! Iam really watching my portion sizes and what I eat..want to be 140 by the end of nov and 135 on DEC. 31ST!!!!!!!! C YA
9/12/06.. for some strange reason scale went up to 167-168...i had prev typed 197-198 by mistake!!! fluid I guess back diwn to 162-163 sz 10..dont understan why stuck but I LOOK GOOD
9/14/06*******wow!!!!!!!! THE SCALE SAYS 161 LBS YIPPEEEE...MY SZ 10 JEANS PURCHASED AT JCP'S ARE FITTING LOOSE..EVERYONE IS STILL REACTING WITH SHOCK...A WOMAN AT WORK YESTERDAY SAID...WOW YOU LOOK LIKE YOU WEAR SZ ZERO!!! IVE NOTICED WHEN I'M WALKING WITH PEOPLE, THEY DONT WALK (SOME OF THEM)WITH ME BUT BEHIND ME :( MAKES ME FEEL WEIRD...IVE LOST 89 LBS...11 FROM 100..9-21-06 WILL BE 7 MOS.....FROM SZ 22/24 TO 10...LESS THAN 7 MOS..AMAZING..I LOOK 20 YRS YOUNGER....HAVE A GREAT DAY...
9/18/06*****159 lbs..all I hear is DON'T LOSE ANYMORE WEIGHT..YOU'LL BE TOO SMALL...YEAH RIGHT!!! 24 MORE TO GOAL..OF 135..OR 19 FROMOK GOAL 140...CANT PLEASE PEOPLE EITHER TOO BIG OR TOO SMALL..SO I WILL PLEASE MYSELF, WILL BE 7 MOS. ON 9-21-06...LOST TOTAL=91 LBS...9 MORE TO REACH 100LBS.!!!!!!!!!!!
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9/23/06
157lbs ONLY 17 MORE LBS TO GO TO REACH GOAL OF 140 LBS...ULTIMATE GOAL IS 135...22 MORE TO GO THEN THAT WILL BE ENOUGH LBS LOSS..I'VE LOST 93 LBS IN 7MOS. AND 2 DAYS..7 FROM 100 LBS. THIS IS AAAAMMMMMAAAAAZING!!!!!!!! I WALKED PAST THE CAKES AT THE GROCERY STORE LAST NIGHT AND LOOKED AT THEM AND SAID " ENEMY"!!!! ROLLED MY EYES AND KEPT WALKING!!!!!!! LOL
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9/24/06
156 lbs...bought sz 8 jeans and sz 8 skirts THEY FIT!!!!!!!!!!
EVERYONE SAYS STOP NOW YOU LOOK SMALL ENOUGH...NO WAY AM I SATISFIED AT 156...135-140 IS MY GOAL..
9/26***it is that time of the month****scale says 158 (I'm going to -3 lbs).is this cheating?? SOMEONE PLS ANSWER LOL!!!!
9/29/06*********155 current weight.. One of the most wonderful things happened yesterday..I was visiting my mother and she had a suit that belonged to my grandmother..a beautiful two piece wool suit, a very classic suit (my mother said it is a sz 8) My grandmother wore it in the 60's-& early 70's...I tried it on and it fit perfect!!!!!!!!!!!! the suit would probably sell for $200.00 now.
People are still wondering why I want to lose more weight????? now I tell them that when my BMI indicates I am at a healthy weight I will be happy and not until then..(this will be at 140 lbs) which I hope to reach by the end of the year if not sooner!*****
Sometimes I become sad because I hate still being overweight, but I remember Ive lost alot of weight...in a short period of time..sometimes the sadness is because I feel like this is a dream and I am going to wake up and be fat again..I still cant believe it..also I wish I could lose weight and be healthy without ever having to eat again, I do not enjoy food and I am NEVER HUNGRY...I never crave food..Most of the time when people say hi twiggy,,hi skinny etc I change the subject..I am sort of tired of the attn now..and also I still see myself as A FAT PERSON...all it would take is one cookie and I would blow up..I dont understand why anyone would lose all of this weight and then gain it all back..AND I WILL NOT BE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE..I HATE UNHEALTHY FOODS TOO MUCH TO EVER INDULGE IN IT AGAIN..IT WOULD BE LIKE GETTING RID OF A NO GOOD MAN WHO ABUSED ME AND THEN GOING BACK TO HIM AND ALLOWING HIM TO ABUSE ME AGAIN l will reach my personal goal and not the goal others have set for me....I will be so happy when I am maintaining and not still trying to LOSE WEIGHT for the first time in over 20 yrs..:( I have been needing to lose at least 50 lbs since around 1990 maybe sooner..and for the first time in that many yrs I have less than 25lbs to lose to reach my goal..I am happy but not thrilled yet..maybe I am crazy??..I will update later...I still wonder if anyone ever reads my profile???
9/30/06****wght=152 lbs 12 from 140****17 from ultimate goal of 135 lbs...i've lost 98 lbs in less than 8 mos. I bought a sz 6 jean skirt from JCP's IT FIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10/1-10/04 flucuating betw 154-156????????????? dont know why :(
10/5/06******154lbs
10/9/06******154-157
10/23/06*****152lbs
10/25/06 146 lbs
10/29/06 GOAL REACHED 1 4 0 LBS.. SZ PERFECT 6 AMAZING ..ONLY 5 MORE FOR ULTIMATE GOAL THEN I DON'T WANT TO LOSE ANYMORE..ACTUALLY WHERE I AM IS FINE..IMAGINE THIS EVERYONE IS SAYING DONT LOSE ANYMORE!!! 5 MORE AND I'M DONE I DONT EVER WANT TO BE OVER 140 AGAIN!!!!!!!!!
12/11/06 I havnt updated in a while..well I can wear size 4 and 6 weight iss 130-133 lbs..lost total of 120lbs. i do not need to lose anymore weight! I am going to try to maintain at this weight dont want to ever weigh more than 135 lbs ever again!!
YIPPEEE_______NOT EVEN 1 YR YET!!!!!!
2-27-07****Havnt updated in a long time...Im very excited I am around 128-130 lbs..1 yr and 6 days after surgery..I cant believe it has been a YEAR!! I can wear sz 4 (from different stores) sometimes I will buy a 6 IF I really like the outfit..skirt ..dress..or pants..and they dont have it in a 4..this has truly been amazing..I think I am dreaming sometimes..SOME PEOPLE ACT VERY DIFF TOWARDS ME SOME DO NOT..but I feel GOOD about myself now..and I look amazing..very small but I dont look sickly..I dont want to gain any weight..I feel more content at 130 lbs..I dont even want the scale to say 135..(hahaha imagine those words coming out of my mouth) I actually enjoy life now..esp shopping...it is like a HIGH,,and it keeps me motivated to keep the weight off..I still am very careful about what I eat and HAVE HAD no problems, If I eat too fast I regurgitate but no other problems! Some people are REAL HATERS..Hey but like MARY J. BLIGE SAYS ON HER SONG..I will tell all those people what they can do! (YOU CAN HATE IT OR LOVE IT!!!!!) LOL..I am actually looking forward to the spring/summer season,,this time last year I wasnt under 200 lbs yet! I am happy I had the surgery, and now when I go to the gym, I RUN ON THE TREAD MILL..WITH NO PROBLEM..FANTASTIC...WILL POST AGAIN LATER!
4/16/07 130 lbs sz 4/6 yippeeeeeeee
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Hello It has been 3 yrs and 1 mo and a few days since I had the surgery..and I still feel gr8..my appetite has incr a little I dont really crave anything..I got married 3-12-08 to a wonderful man..who is 18 thats right 18 yrs younger than me and he treats me like Im a QUEEN lol...Ive gained some of my weight back...but taking steps to lose it..most of the time if Im not retaining fluid the scale says between 150 and 155...Im trying to get back down to at least no more than 140...130 was a lil too small..but my ultimate goal is too reach 135-140 by the end of june of this year..I can still wear sz 6 and sometimes 4..and 8...joined the gym..and I need to pull back from the wine and mixed drinks..lol..anyway as I said Im feeling gr8 Ive never had any problems I do need to be more deligent with taking my vitamins..and I sometimes get depressed about the weight gain but it has been more than 3 yrs and Im still 100 lbs less than i was when I had the surgery..Anyone contemplating having it..just remember it IS NOT A DIET...and you have to for the rest of your life be careful about what you eat...or the weight will come back..I feel good that I do still look small...As soon as I figure it out im gonna post some pics...IT IS AMAZING HOW SMALL I STILL LOOK..I really look like I weigh 140-145..Have a gr8 day..
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Hello everyone. For those comtemplating weight loss surgery I hope you are successful. Please understand that this IS NOT A DIET IT IS A LIFE LONG JOURNEY..it is not a quick fix and if you are not careful you can and will gain your weight back ALL OF IT AND THEN SOME. Fortunately because I have during these four years kept that in mind I have managed to not gain my weight back..well not all of it . Today I am 164 lbs I would like to get back down to 135-140 by the summer and I know I will. I am going back to the gym, and watching what I eat. I am happy that I am still even with the weight gain in all of these yrs. only 25-30 lbs from wear I was and will get back down. You have to realize that you are still the same person inside and if the bad habits return and you dont exercise and you eat the wrong foods and increase your portion sizes YOU WILL PUT THE WEIGHT BACK ON..Im glad Im getting back focused again. I know so many people who have had this surgery in the past and to look at them today you would never know it. There is something that goes on after about (4 me) 3 yrs that you start snacking again on foods that you wouldnt even touch before. chips cookies french fries WINE lol..and slowly the weight will come back. Don't get me wrong I dont by any means look fat, I was 250 when I had the surgery and now Im maybe 164-165 so that is still alot of weight gone so I still look small but I felt better at 135-140 lbs. This time when I get back down to that weight i will never put the weight back on that is a promise ive made to myself..It is scary seeing it creep back up. But I got married march 2008, and lost focus but the GLASSES ARE BACK ON NOW..and I look at my before pictures and I still read my journal to remind myself of how far I have come and to stop beating myself up bec Ive put on some lbs..that only leads to frustration and snacking on crap that is bad for me. I have to remember I had MAJOR SURGERY (SOMETIMES I FORGET) Im a gastric bypass success story and I can and will get back down to my goal weight. All these years later I still get sick if I eat the wrong things or if I eat too fast.
I do not regret having the surgery and would have it again in a heartbeat. If you are not serious about losing the weight and keeping it off for the rest of your life.
1/18/2010*****Hi everyone I looked back over my profile today as I usually do and my pre and post op pics...it is always good to do this from time to time to remind yourself of what an amazing journey this is and will continue to be..the scale this morning said 161 so I am happy to say Ive gotten my act together and I am going to once again get very serious about getting back down to my previous weight.. no more than 140..almost there. Will keep you posted.
1/29/10 164 lbs goal 135-140 by june 1 2010 I CAN DO IT.
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