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Wow, where do I start?? Growing up I always had a slight weight problem. I was always the chubby girl. Looking back, I think it was more of an insecurity problem as I always thought I was bigger than I really was. My mental view of myself was much worse than the physical self. It always has been really.
I steadily gained weight over the last 20 years. Sure there have been losses along the way with whatever fad diet caught my attention at the time, but I always gained everything back doubled.
The past 10 years I really shut myself off from life because of my weight. I'm always the wallflower...happy to stay in the back and be quiet so as not to draw any more attention to myself than my weight already has. I've lost touch with so many people because I let myself believe they didn't really like me anyway and were only being nice to me out of pity. I'm so thankful for the close friends I have that don't let me get away with that crap. No matter how withdrawn I get, they have a stronger hold on me and pull me right back.
But now I’ve finally come to the realization that 200+ pounds isn't going away without some sort of medical intervention. Until now, I’ve always been too scared of any type of weight loss surgery. Too afraid of all the side effects, or things that could go wrong, and afraid for all the things I’d have to give up. All that changes now. Somewhere I read the other day "If you do what you've always done, you'll get what you always got." How true it is!!!
So here I am trying to make this happen for myself. Trying to do something different from what I've always done. Trying to get healthy and start living my life again and actually enjoy it. Like the song says, life has been patiently waiting for me. It's about time I start moving on. Wish me luck!
Song lyrics | Rascal Flatts lyrics
