A Decision...

Apr 01, 2009

A couple of you expressed concern when I 'disappeared' around here, and for that I appreciate it! :) I am still here, still trekking away.

As I wrote previously, I weighed in at my highest (319) in early October of '08. That was in the WLS office and not quite six months later, I have not looked back. I went through the months of dietary visits, and I also went through the additional "pysch" meetings. I thought at the time that the psych stuff was a little unecessary...but I learned a lot about myself and how/why I eat.

So anyhow here I am, 31 pounds down. With my husband starting a highly intense program of nursing school, I decided to put the surgery on the back burner, for now. I am doing great...I feel amazing, and although I have a long ways to go, for the first time in many years, I feel like I can do this.

I think I went into the surgery mode because I was so scared. Weighing 300 pounds is scary, plain scary! I felt horrible, I looked horrible, etc. Even so, I have normal blood pressure, no signs of diabetes, no sleep apnea, etc etc. Once I got into the mindset of "this cannot continue" (gaining weight), I started to achieve my goals.

I am still apprehensive that I will fail on my own. That I will still have to come back to the surgery route. And if I do, that is okay, but I am giving this 110% and we will see where it goes. Stay tuned...

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