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I feel like I am slipping....down to 139 now back ti 160 what the heck??? I had a uti for a year and then hospitalized as meds will not absorb as I have no/not much of stomach.... sad, depressed, not sure

The time has flown by faster than I can think. I am down to 145 lbs and wear size 1,2 and 3 in misses and juniors. My goal is 130 but I feel I may not make it. I go back and forth between 146 to 143. All has been perfect for me as my Dr. promised it would. I almost pulled the plug on the operation in the preop stage. I have consumed small bits of sugar but nothing outrageous. I have and will always eat pretty well. I will have an endoscopy at the U of M in Aug. but all should be well. All my blood work has always been perfect and I do all that I am told. I was married May 23 and started a new life. My wedding dress was a size 3 but had to be taken in. I am seriously considering breast enlargement when I can as well as tummy tuck and the works. I only had minimal hair thinning but it is growing like a weed now so to speak. I hope and pray that all is well with all my friends. I wish I had a digital camera to post pics. Take care and best wishes to all..........

today was my first day to drive....
today was my first day to wear jeans since the surgery.....
today was my first college class.....
Today was a first for so many things. I drove like a granny so to speak and the jean thing still a little tender but I am getting there. It was great taking my daughter to her guitar lessons and things getting back to a normal routine. The college class intimidating as I was third to oldest but oh well. I am still praying hard that all will be well. I walked about two miles with my daughter yesterday. It was a work out. Normally it would have been a breeze. Good thoughts to you and much appreciation to all those that have been there or me, Lorie

life is moving along and I am coping. I had chili pureed in a blender and it was I swear the best thing that I had ever tasted. It has been a half a hour and all is well. I had my one week check up and down to 197.4 pounds. The dr. said all went great and I am doing great and that I will have no complications. Even with those words I still pray a great deal. Monday night is my first college class and hopefully I will be able to contain my gas in class lol. I am trying to take one day at a time but it is hard being alone. It will be another two months before I can return to work as I do very strenuous work so hopefully we can survive on my shortterm. I guess it is in Gods' hands. I have walked up to 3\4 of a mile. I thank you all for reading and all your caring thoughts.... please take care and I here for all, Lorie

I am home with a huge array of emotions. Nat thank you with all my heart for all your great comments and concern and that goes for all of you in my corner!!! Surgery was great so they tell me I slept through it all, lol. I woke with great pain and had to have approval from two drs. for more pain meds. I guess I have a small cavity so more gas. I have been home three days and so many emotions. I will need someone to talk to. I have feelings of guilt for changing my body, for not being able to do it on my own, still afraid for what the future holds. I could use a ton of sleep but it seems not to come. My daughter, wow, I can not say enough about her. She is amazing. 9 years old up when I am up, down when I am down. charts all meds and intake of fluids, has moved into my bedroom on the floor. Does all household chores. makes me take broth. She deserves a medal and then some!!! I want the whole world to know hpw amazing she is. The hospital and staff fell in love with her. Many nurses commented how great she was and beautiful, but also that they had never seen a bond like ours. The first night was so hard when she left for both of us. It is too soon to say if I would do the surgery again. I am having a hard time putting down fluids as they taste the same. Any ideas? Take care and much love and appreciaton......

WOW.... the last time online and I am trying to be at peace... someone said do not think about food... it is everywhere.. even ads on the back of the towel dispensers at the gas station.. it is crazy... we live to eat.. I AM GOING TO LEARN TO EAT TO LIVE.... all you of you have been so wonderful... I will help anyone and answer all the questions honestly and hold nothing back.. the bowel cleanse was not that bad, not like I thought it was going to be.. just like water coming out for me.. must say though very weak as it has been since friday that I ate.. thank you all for being in my corner... I will be there for anyone who needs me at anytime.......

tomorrow is the day.... all I can do is think about food I have not eaten since friday... I am trying to figure out what life will be like afterwards.. OUT OF THE MOUTHS OF BABES.......... as I am laying in my bed suffer from the bowel cleanse my little girl comes up and rubs my back and snuggles and says " A YEAR FROM NOW ALL THE BAD STUFF WILL BE GONE AND YOU WILL BE SKINNY ONLY A YEAR OF BAD AND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE GOOD" man she is wise and my strength.... we have to buy a new scale I think mine is off. at least I made the weigh in at 210 lbs today needed to be at 214 for surgery... take care and say a prayer for my little girl and myself.........

on july 29 I made my weigh actually 2 lbs lighter then needed for sugery today at 223 my surgery is in 6 days