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well I don't know what made me think I'd be unlike any of the other people that my surgeon talked about, but when I saw the scale  moving in the upwards direction I had a MELT DOWN!!  I'm talking...big time!  I have lost my grandmother to cancer and been in and out of the hospital with other family members for months and "forgot" about taking care of myself.  That goes to show how QUICKLY eating poorly can add on the pounds.  I was in tears in Dr. B's office (his nurse had started the tears, but didn't see Dr, B in time to prepare him for it!!!)  he did make me laugh by saying that no one told him I was in here crying...but he made me feel 10x's better and got me refocused on what my true goal was- being healthy...SO with that being said...time to get back on track and meet Dr. B's weightloss goal for my next 6 month visit so I can schedule PLASTICS! 

well I'm down 115lbs!!  Currently weight 184lbs...I know I could be smaller, but I'm happy where I am...gotta start working harder at watching what I eat...unfortunately I'm one of those that can eat almost anything as long as I moderate the amount!!  I HATE that...but I go for my 18 month appointment and I will talk to Dr. B about where he thinks I should be weight wise and when I can schedule an appointment with plastics!!!  I would be fine the size I am if I didn't have a tummy and flappy arms!  haha  Overall I'm completely satisfied with the surgery and where I've come from...I get compliments DAILY on how great I look...even from people that don't know about the surgery...it's been a true Blessing!  Dr. B is my angel

So i went to my aunts for thanksgiving and she tells me she has some clothes for me...my aunt isn't overweight...so I'm thinking...sure, this should be fun...not!  Well we go into her room and she starts pulling out dress pants in a size 14...no way i'm thinking can my butt fit into a 14 yet...well I try them on anyway and lo and behold....THEY FIT!  HOLY SIZE 14 BATMAN!  I was stunned...not all of them fit, but two pair did and that was enough for me  haha  I was on cloud nine the rest of the day.  I wore one pair of them Monday to work and the other Tuesday hehe  I got a lot of compliments on my outfit yesterday...It made me feel wonderful.  I still feel like I'm losing really slowly, but you know what...i'm not worried about it.  I know i'm doing what I need to and it will come off eventually!  I did my yoga last night before bed and felt wonderful.  Thank God for this surgery!! 

rock on! 

So has anyone else experienced this?!  I'm sure they have...but I just feel so GOOD!!!  I'm like, in such a good mood compared to before surgery.  I wake up each day and look forward to dressing and fixing myself up.  I have a new desire to really look my best.  Starting tanning (which my sister, a nurse, HATES!!  haha I know, I know...) letting my hair grow back out (if it doesn't all fall out first  haha) and getting my nails done!!  Grant it, this does put a crunch in the budget, but I eat so much less that it sort of evens itself out!!  I just feel like a new person honestly....full of hope and excitement on a daily basis...people can see it too...people are work are like, something's different about you, you're glowing!!!  Well....it's because I'm HAPPY people!  I'm melting away and finally becoming the person i've always known I could be...I've been overweight since I was a child, so i've never seen the thin me...not even close!!  so seeing this person evolve is surreal....  sorry for such a long post, but I just started thinking about how many posts there are about problems and such and just wanted to share sort of the bright side a little!  I'd like to know your new you stories...if you've found that you're happier and a more go out and face the world person now that you've had the surgery!!

ROCK ON! 

Well what can I say?!  I'm just over 3 months out and feeling WONDERFUL!!  I am loving the renewed energy and self-confidence.  I am starting to see that beautiful person that I knew was in there just waiting to get out.  I am having no problems with foods or feeling sick or anything...just getting my water and protein in!  LOVE the EAS shakes, they've made it so much easier for my protein intake!  My friend gave me some MORE clothes!  which is such a blessing...I love trying on things and looking great in them haha  today I'm wearing one of the outfits she gave me and i'm getting so many compliments on how good i'm looking.    My husband can't keep his hands off of me!  I've had some problems with "desire" but I think those things are working themselves out...last night was a good start!  *wink wink*  I think he's feeding off of the positive aura I have around me now.  I'm just so grateful I made this decision and that I have such a wonderful Dr. and his staff...the support groups are great...I couldn't ask for anything more except for it to already be a year from now and me be in my skinny butt jeans!!!  haha    To all of you newbies that are reading this...its not going to be all sunshine and rainbows...but it's so worth it! 

So I'm one of the people that like to roam the forum and read other's posts especially WOW moments...they are just so inspiring to me!  Well I had a mini wow moment yesterday!  Finally!  I started this journey at 299lbs and at almost 3 months out I'm down to 246!!  That's 53lbs for those of you that aren't mathmatically inclined!  HAHA  I always wore a 2X in pretty much everything, except for some sleep clothes which for some reason i always had to get a 3x...which I HATED...so yesterday I was supposed to spend the night over at my twin sister's house to watch her two kids while she and her husband were at work (both work 3rd)...I had gotten a change of clothes and all that, but realized when I was at work that I didn't take anything to sleep in!  So I figured I'd run to the Big Lots next door and grab some pajamas...well...all they had were XL's or smaller!!  I was like...well poop on a stick...I can't wear an XL...or can I?!  I figured I would buy them and if they didn't fit (which I expected) then I could wear them later on down the road...so I get to my sister's and it's time for bed so I try on my new pajama set....and IT FITS!!  OMG...I called my hubby immediately to tell him the  news!  I was so happy...an XL...amazing!  I'm so thankful for this surgery and for this journey...I'm enjoying every day, and feeling better and better and better...so there...that's my WOW moment!

My friend Jessica (thank you so much by the way!) gave me a bag of clothes yesterday after our post op support group.  I was so excited to get home and try them on!  There were jeans, shirts, a skirt, and two dresses!!!  and they are ALL my style...it's like my personal shopper went out and got me exactly what I'd want to wear!  haha  So I ran in and came into the livingroom where my husband was watching tv, started to take my shirt off...I think I got him a little excited!!   He asked what i was doing, and I was like...trying on my new wardrobe!!!  LOL  poor thing...so it was awesome...the jeans made me really excited b/c mine are starting to droop in the booty area!  I'm down 42 lbs now which is great...the scale FINALLY moved!! I was doing a little happy dance for my 5 lbs!  So everything is going great, still not getting sick on anything...trying to keep with my exercise, water, and protein.  I tried this class called "Centergy"...it's a combo of yoga and pilates...HOLY SORE MUSCLES BATMAN!  I was hurting...but it was great!  I didn't feel completely out of place...I felt revived and excited about my new life and looking forward to being able to put my leg in those positions without thinking I might die! ROCK ON!

well i know that sounds a little drastic...but seriously, this had been a lifesaver for me!  The bariatric clinic that I go to has these prepackaged meals they sell...they are great and made by a local chef in the perfect portion sizes for us post ops...by sister went with me one day to pick up some things and saw the price...and she (being the penny pincher that she is) said..."SIS!!!  These things are 20 bucks for 5 tiny meals!!  that's insane....we can make these on our own!"

so we did!

We bought everything we would need at the grocery store in one stop...it was 50 bucks...got chicken, fish (tilapia and salmon pre-portioned in the freezer section), thin cut center pork chops, and veggies....

we bought little plastic plates and Ziploc has these vaccuum seal bags that are amazing!!!  you buy the pump which comes with a few bags, then another pack of extra bags...

we then went to her house and cooked all of it at one time which honestly didn't take long...we cooked all of the fish under the broiler and cooked the chicken and pork on the grill with just a little Emeril's seasoning...and nuked the vegges...

assembled the plates, then put them in the ziploc bags and sealed them...AMAZING!!!

I have like 40 meals READY TO GO whenever I need them!!   they are vaccuum packed so they take up very little space in the freezer and can last longer without freezer burn...it also helps me stay on track because I don't have to guess what I'm going to eat and end up getting tempted by something that is less than good for me!!

Just thought I'd share!!!! 

so im over the 1 month mark and i'm already on a stall!!  I haven't lost a pound...not one freakin pound...in two weeks!!  I hate it b/c my mom asks me every single time we talk, how much weight have you lost now?!  and i've had to say...none...none...none...it's like i feel like i'm doing something wrong you know?!  I'm eating small portions and not overeating...i stop when i feel full even slightly...I get my vitamins and trying to get my water and protein in...guess this is just the beginning of the up and down roller coaster, just didn't expect it to happen so soon!

Ok so i'm almost offically a month out...the 22nd will be a month and I'm down 29 lbs!!  woo hoo  Also, I had my catscan today for the kidney stone and it hasn't moved.  Apparently it is very content being lodged up there and doesn't plan on trying to come out anytime soon, which is fine by me!!  I'd rather not be in excruciating pain if i don't have to!!  So in a month I have to go back and have another x-ray, if it still hasn't moved they will do surgery.  Fun stuff...but the eating is going great...still haven't gotten sick once! Praise GOD!!  I am trying my best to get my protein in and get my fluids...I feel like im constantly putting something in my mouth...it's so wierd to just wish i could not eat something...I have some hunger, but I think that's just in my head honestly.  I wore a shirt I haven't been able to wear in a while which was nice!  On a sour note...a lady in the elevator on the way up to the Dr.'s Appt...asked when my baby was due!  Well...I'm NOT PREGNANT...I just politely told her I wasn't pregnant and she apologized...funny thing is...it didn't upset me!  Before the surgery I would probably have broke down crying right there and made her feel like a complete ASS, but I was fine...I just thought, well this time next year...no one will think that again!  What a freedom to have...it's like i'm just seeing myself in a totally new light...I see possibility and hope!  I'm a beautiful girl, I've always thought I had a unique look about me...and I seriously think I'm just going to be HOT HOT HOT in a year!  it's so exciting...I wish there was time travel so I could jump ahead!  Not really...b/c then i'd miss all those mile stones and little achievements that make this journey worth making...anywho...I better get dinner started for the Hubby!  Love you guys...and for goodness sakes comment on my blogs so I know you're reading them!!  HAHA  :)