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Funny how this dreadful day comes around but once a year, but always leads me to believe in the unity of the American spirit.  As I drove into work this morning, I got goose bumps when I enter the highway and I saw all of the cars with their headlights on, in honor of those who perished since the terrorist attacks.  But , as a working member in emergency medical services, I also know that there are those who I will always remember for their dedication to serving others in time of need as well.  My entry today is mearly to serve as a reminder to any who may read this in future days; Live each and every day to the fullest.  Please don't every take anything for granted.  And finally, never give up.  If you work hard enough, and stay focused, you can make any dream a reality.  I am living proof of this, and so can you.  God Bless America! 

Today I am happy to report that I am down 50 lbs!  It has not been easy.  The first month and a half, I was really tired and vomitted alot.  But I seem to be slowly easing into a groov now.  I am walking, getting all of my meds and vitamins in, focusing on fluids and protein.  It really takes a while to get your groove back, but I am getting mine.  I have more energy.  I have been walking in the evenings religiously.  I cannot believe how far I can go now.  At this time last year, I was in pain to just walk to the end of my block.  Now I am able to walk all around my development, well over a mile; twice. I have two dogs.  I walk one all the way around and then I bring that one back and take the other dog out.  It is great!  My parents have been walking with me too.  I do have some nights that my arthritis causes too much pain and I have to cut it short, but I still just keep plugging away at it.  I have struggled a good bit with food.  Portions are not the problem now.  The big problem for me now is that from one day to the next I may not be able to eat the same exact foods.  It is really weird.  So, for the most part, I have adopted a very soft foods diet consisting of soups, puddings, protein shakes, and protein bars.  It is really not that bad, and trust me, it sure beats the heck out of vomiting all the time.   My wedding is coming up really fast!  Just three weeks away.  WOW.  I sure hope that I look good in my dress!

Today is April 15th.  I am ten days post op and I am still having alot of abdominla pain.  I am calling the Dr tomorrow to see if he wantes to see me again.  I saw him last week to have my drain removed and ever since then I have had this terrible pain in my abs.  I hope he can help.  I cannot bear this.  I just pray that it isn't anything majorly wrong.  Other than this problem I am having a wonderful time.  I am able to eat and drink quite well.  Almost too well.  I have very little problems with nausea, and no vomiting so far.  I am having regular BMs.  I am still very very tired though.  I cannot beleive how tired I feel.  I admit to not waiking like I should at this point, but I will once I get this pain under control.   

Tomorrow begins my new life.  My struggle with obesiy is not over; perhaps it has truly just began.  But I will finally have something in place and on my side to help me to win this battle once and for all.  I have the love and support of so many friends and family.  I just know that I am going to make this dream become a reality.  Where will my adventure take me?  Just you wait and see.... (to be continued)

Well, I did it!  I finally told my boss that I am taking a medical leave to have surgery!  It wasn't as bad as I had thought.  She didn't even ask me what I was having done.  Big relief!  I am soooo elated right now.  I had this huge weigh lifted off of my shoulders and I haven't even had the surgery yet, hehehe.  So with that behing me, I just have a few last minute things to do.  I have to finish helping my brother move this weekend.  I also have to go to Walmart and get my Rxs filled and get my post op food and supplies.  I have to sit down and make a list up of what I need.  I will do that tomorrow.  I am planning on leaving work early at the end of the week to go get my EKG, Chest X-ray and labs done.  Then I am all set.  I still have to finish organizing the office.  Whew, I am tired already just thinking about all of this stuff I have to do.  I cannot believe that this journey is about to begin.  The past year has gone by soooo fast.  I am having a bit of trouble grasping all of the changes that are about to take place.  I guess once they start to happen to me, I will have no choice but to deal with things.  I just hope that My fiance can handle all of this too.  This will be the true test for me to decide if I will marry him or not next year.  We shall see.

The BIG day is fast approaching and I have so much to do that I am going nuts.  I decided that I wanted to paint and redecorate both of my spare bedrooms before my surgery,  since my family is coming in from out of town to care for me while I recover.  I guess to me it is my little way of saying thanks to them by giving them a fresh new place to retire each evening after a long day of putting up with me.  So needless to say, but I am pooped!  I work all day long and then I come home and get right to work until I am so tired that I have to stop and clean up and go to bed.  I almost have one of the rooms done.  I hope to have the entire project finished by Saturday night.  God please give me strength to get this done so I can move on to something else.