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At last glance, my band had slipped and it was removed. Sad day. I loved my band but it didn't love me...anymore. So...out it came like a bad tooth.  For the last 5.5 years, my weight crept up but in the last year its really come back with a vengence. My thyroid went totally crazy and my weight went with it. It was awful!! ..and now its almost impossible to get it off...so...back to the table, surgery table that is and I am most likely having a gastric bypass. I wanted a sleeve but the GERD will be overwhelming so..its a bypass. I don't care at this point. I just want it off and back to my healthy body and weight. So  ...here we go again....

Hey OH family...its been a minute since I've been on. Changes arise...my  lapband has slipped and will be removed shortly. I will follow up with a RNY in three months.  No saddness...just pressing forward....

I teeter, tumble, waddle and weave
Barely holding on, struggling to breathe. 

I hobble and hitch, stumble and fall
So far off the path. So far from my call 

I jerk and pitch and lurch and sway
Lost for words and what to pray. 

I fragment, splinter, smash and shatter
Am I too broken to fix, too torn to matter.

I surrender, relinquish, submit, concede
Knowing that in you Jesus, I truly believe. 

And in the end, this final hour
I run to you, my healer, redeemer, my strong tower. 

For I am forgiven, renewed, lifted and loved
By the Lamb of God, the pure white dove. 

You are mighty and worthy, you are Adonai
You are Jehovah, Yeshuwa, El-Shaddai. 

You are my rock, my savior, shield and rod
For you are my INVINCEABLE GOD!!!

To love is to go beyond...

Beyond falling in love to creating love...

Beyond thought to intuition...

Beyond words to knowing...

Beyond loneliness to divine connection...

Beyond desire to satisfaction...

Beyond hurt to healing...

Beyond darkness to brilliance...

Beyond tangible to intangible...

Beyond abandoned to cherished...

Beyond expectations to acceptance..

Beyond fear to innocence...

Beyond self conscious to spiritual awakening...

Beyond sexual performance to trust, surrender, and letting go...

Beyond pleasure to ecstasy....

Beyond separation to unity of body, mind , heart and soul....