Where I am right now!

Feb 25, 2010

Today is a good day.  I have lost about 3-4 pounds this month so now only  20 pounds from being overweight.  Which is my personal goal.  My body just refuses to be cooperative and lose like my friends but that is fine.  I like the way I look in clothes.  I will like the way I look out of clothes one day too.  Plastics is next but only after I lose that 20 pounds.  Therein lies my incentive.  I am riding my stationary bike 100 miles a week, but my real bike sits and collects dust since the weather has been so poor here.  I am looking forward to spring and trying to ride for real.  Boy, let me tell you,  riding a real bike is a lot of work.  Once you get down the braking and gearing up and down issues just peddling yourself around is tough but even little hills are a challenge.  It is going to take forever before I can ride in a real road ride, but that will come, I know it.  In the meantime I watch Lance and Team Radioshack and dream on...
Dr. Stapleton is still the best, helping me wrap my mind around the concept of feeling my feelings.  What a novel idea.  Can be painful BUT...so rewarding.  The joy is so much deeper and fuller, the laughter more genuine,  and life has so much more color.  Life is good.  Unfortunately on teh other side, the sads are really sad and I am mourning so many lost things in my life.  Years of being fat and miserable,  things I never took the time to do or see or be.  But the Nickleback song "If today were your last day" has given me so much inspiration.  The truisms in the lyrics just strike a chord in me at this point in my life.  One of those one liners is "Dont take the free ride in your own life" .  I mourn the years I did this.  But today is a new day and I plan to move forward.. not back.  So today I saw Dr. B in passing today and he reminded me to measure so I am off to do that before tucking in.  Is it all worth it?  Absolutely!!! So keep up the good work friends. 
Linda 

Lyrics to the song:  "If Today Was Your Last Day"

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you'll never live it twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin' stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

 

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