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Wowsers...its been a while since ive been in here to blog, but I feel its about time to chat with myself.

Im almost 7 months out and Ive lost about 110 lbs. My goal to be personally "sucessful" was to lose 100lbs or to be a size 14, which was as small as I can remember ever being happy with. Well, Ive surpassed both and Im happy...I think.

However, now I am at the gym constantly. Not that that's bad, but now I am sad to see the scale creeping up. Now I know from what I eat and track on thedailyplate.com that I am either negative calories or under 200 net calories a day so there is no way for me to be actually gaining weight, I must be gaining muscle. But its still so discouraging to me since I said I wanted to never be over 200lbs again, and im getting there :(  I spend 45-60 mins on cardio and 20-30 mins on weights 5 days a week at the gym. Usually burning about 650-800 calories each time. I also am alot more concious of what im putting in my mouth. I know that since I just went and worked my butt off to burn 600 cals the last thing I feel like doing is eating a cheeseburger from Burger King, or coming home and eating some cheetos. As much as I'd love too :) I spent the first 6 months post of enjoying that I could eat almost anything besides sugar and still dropping lbs like no tomorrow. Now I am not losing lbs, but I must be losing inches cause im into smaller pants again, but no lbs are dropping. Oh well, I know that I havent "failed" per se but I feel like ive started late on my healthy life and I may have missed the peak of my weight loss.I can eat an entire orange and im still hungry within 10 mins...oh well, I guess I should be happy that ive realized it now and that I can still get back on track and have made better food choices and fitness goals now than before its too late.

Wish me luck!!

So I have only been lurking around for a while, too busy to update things.

But now im stuck here in bed with a nasy stomach flu and so here I am. LOL

Tomorrow I will be 5 months post op and I am down 96 lbs. Amazing. I would have never ever believed that I would be smaller than a 22. My life has been blessed with the chance to start over and I am grateful every day for it.

I went from a size 22 to a 12 in 5 months. Thats a big wow for me. The fact that I can walk into a mall and shop at more than just lane bryant has floored me. I still feel guilty passing by and not going in, feel like im betraying an old friend so I still buy my bras there! Their balconette bra is my favorite favorite bra in the whole wide world. When Im wearing it nobody knows that my boobs dont look anything like they seem under my sweater. They dont know that they hang to my belly button and I look like im 70 and not 26 ;-). Big props to the undergarments at Lane Bryant. I heart them!

Im a little apprehensive now when people ask me about my weight loss. At first I was very tolerant of any questions asked or thrown my way. Now I am rather offended by alot of things people ask me. Now I understand its my own fault I suppose for being so open to talking about it in the beginning but now I feel like these strangers that ask me personal things are bashing the old me. At first I was all gung ho to reveal information, and now I feel uncomfortable more and more with these people asking how much I weighed pre-op and saying things like "wow thats big". Either way, I know that now I realize that I was bigger in reality than what I saw mentally, but now these "new friends" that have appeared and began to try to work their way into my life is rapidly causing me to back away from everyone. Im trying my hardest not to change and I feel I havent, Ive realized alot of people have began treating me different but reflecting the blame on me for changing. I am okay with that, cause if you dont want to be happy for what i've done, pack your bags and move along...but I am finding the change of how people treat me now rather appaling. I am still the same person, just about half of the old me now. How can you not speak to me for years and now within 5 months your talking to me like we're long lost buds? I would never ever do that, and have never treated any of my co-workers who had WLS this way. Before I even knew any of these people I treated them with respect and never asked them any questions or anything unless they brought it up themselves. I still do that now. Just because someone has had a similar experience with you doesnt mean they are meant to be your best friend. Or just because someone has lost a 100lbs means they feel welcomed into your life when you've known them for years but never spoke a word until post-op. I smile, and be friendly, Im still loyal to the friends that have been there since the beginning. I have many many more superficial relationships than ever now, but I recognize that. Must be smarter than I thought! ;-)

Holy crap! Im almost 26...

Im doing well, im down about 60lbs and havent lost much for weeks, but its all good. Im less of a scale whore now...Ive cut myself down to 2x a week of weighing, when I used to check like 3x a day! 

I am onto all regular foods now. I am pretty much able to tolerate anything besides raw veggies and chicken. For some reason chicken is fine for a few hours then I'll get sick. I had one single baby carrot, and it ruined my whole day. Oh and lettuce, dont even think about it. Peapods, who would have thought chewed peapods somehow put themselves back together in my stomach? I got sick at work off of steamed peapods I chewed up really well i thought! Not the case when they came back up.

Other than that all is well. Im tolerating sugar better. After that first fiasco with the propel water I swore off sugar. Now I can do a starbucks vivianno protien shake in 3 hrs and im fine. I accidently bought the regular Lipton Green Tea the other day and was drinking it and started to get a headache, after an hour I went to drink more and realized that I had gotten the regular not the diet and I was drinking 21gs of sugar! So now I know that im still a little intolerant but it didnt knock me on my ass like the propel did

Im doing great, as far as I can tell. Im down about 35 lbs already!

Ive had no compications... no vomiting, no dry heaves, no pain, no pressure no nothing... that worries me. Either I am extremely lucky or I have a doozie of a surprise coming my way. My Dr approved me onto pureeds and now im having fun experimenting with different recipes. I actually look forward to learning to cook now.  Ive noticed that I cant sleep as much as I used to and I have alot more energy. I feel like a different person already! I have been walking my dogs and trying to catch up on all the housework I have, um, never done before LoL! I have 2 more weeks before I go back to work...which is plenty of time to get myself in better shape :)

I just drank my bottle of Mag Citrate and I must say that the grape flavor could not hide the nastiness of this stuff.  Now I know that I shouldnt have expected to like it at all but ewwwwwwwwwwww. I couldnt even finish it all, I have about a shot glass left of it but I cant drink it, I keep gagging. I wouldnt wish this crap (no pun intended) on my worst enemy...hehe

Ok, im going to set up my stuff in the bathroom where Ive been told ill be spending the rest of the day

Well its 5am, and I just got off work. Im not scheduled to come back for 3 weeks :)

Two days from now at this time I will be checking in for surgery. Wow ive never been this excited to go to the hospital! LoL

Wish me luck!

it only took a day! Im approved...ill let you know the day!

Well, maybe 50k for the insurance company but only $2500 for me ;)

Today I called Park Nicollet to find out if they had all my paperwork and FINALLY they do! She said they will submit the paperwork tomorrow and I should hear back from the insurance company within 2 weeks with a yes or a no.

*crossing fingers*

Ok. So  I was debating on whether I pull out my angry eyes and call the psychs office everyday and see if i could annoy them into getting me in sooner, or if I should just wait it out. I got on the phone still not  knowing  what I was going to say and the nice lady answered the phone. I asked if there was any cancellations for any doctor and she told me no. But then she said "wait. Yes there is one at the bloomington clinic for friday at 10 am if you'd like" WOOOOHOOOO! So i took it, then after I hung up I realized that I had a court date that day too (speeding ticket)...at 830am. Mind you that I work until 2am that morning also. Well I put on my big girl pants and went to the psych appointment at 10 while making a call to court to say I wouldnt be there. Luckily they reschedule you once, yay. So I can fight that ticket another day :)

I had my appointment and the dr told me im not nuts! 
(well they never said I was in the first place but hey)

He told me that I am good to go and that my nurse should have the report ready to submit by tuesday. So as long as all stands true to what they told me before, this was the missing info from my file. So as far as I know I should *finally* be ready for submittal.