5 Days and Counting.....

May 23, 2009

So here I sit, 5 days out from surgery and I am starting to get more anxious. I have been on liquids for 3 days so far and aside from the head hunger I think I am doing ok with this piece.

Up until tonight I was starting to get excited about the surgery and now I am starting to panic thinking I still have time to back out. It must be the fear of the unknown....the fear fo what life will be like after.

I MUST STOP reading the posts on this web site (no offense anyone) but hearing of all the issues, is enough to make me think that maybe the best thing to do is to back out and deal with this on my own, just as I have done in the past.

Is this rational? Probably not - I keep asking myself, what happens if you don't do it? Do you look back a year from now 50 plus pounds heavier, and have insurance that won't cover the surgery and say WTF did I do???? OR Do you manage to be successful and take the weight off...

Sometimes I wonder if maybe it's better to just leave things as they are...or NOT.

Wow, I'm rambling.......fear and anxiety will do that to you.....

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