8/27/04
I have been married to a wonderful man for over 27 years and we have two children, 14 and 21, and two foster children, 15 and 19. I am a writer, editor and publisher. I am finally scheduled for surgery on Sept. 27, 2004 at St. Alexis Hospital in St. Louis with Dr. Daniel Fabito.

I have been working on getting a surgery date since Nov. of 2003. I was just told this week that the date is set! Praise God!

Seven years ago my cardiologist told me I should have this surgery in order to live a normal life. I was all set to have it and then chickened out. I had not researched the surgery and was just not sure what I was getting into. So, I went on the Atkins diet and lost 100 lbs. Now I have gained back 50 lbs. and I realize that I really need the surgery.

Since that time I have developed arthritis in my knees and type 2 diabetes.

I researched several surgeons around in my area before settling on Dr. Fabito. It was actually a process of elimination that led me to him. There was no one else I could find who could do an open RNY and would take United Healthcare Select HMO. They actually do the surgery in my town of Columbia but one hospital does not take my insurance and the other only does the surgery laproscopically.


9/3/04
I have finished all my pre-op tests--PFT, echocardiogram, gallbladder ultrasound, venus doppler study, ekg, cardiology consult and now have only my pulmonology consult to go.

I know there are things God has for me to do yet on this earth. I have been really bothered in the past when thinking about this surgery. Then our pastor preached a message about a year ago about breaking free of chains and bondages. He had all these different sizes of chains. The first several were small and he could cut them with scissors, then he brought up bigger and bigger and bigger chains until the last one took several men to carry and hold and one man to wield a huge chain cutter to cut it and then I don't think that even got the job done. His point was that some problems we can handle on our own. Some problems get bigger and we need the help of friends. Other problems are so big they need a God-sized intervention. I really felt he was speaking directly to me. I knew this surgery was my God-sized intervention. God even gave me the scripture about if you hand offends you cut it off. Well, my stomach has been offending me for quite some time and so, it's time to cut it off! And so, that's exactly what will happen on Sept. 27.

But I can't believe how scared I was when they wanted to move surgery up five days. The surgeon finally called back and said that he would come back from wherever he was going to be just to do my surgery. But then he's going to leave again and be gone who knows where. I guess he'll have a backup person around to help. I know God wants me to do this and so that's what keeps me going.


9/10/04
Got a call from my cardiologist yesterday and she is approving me for surgery. That's really good news. One more to go. Have to see the pulmologist on Monday. I've already had the PFT.


9/12/04
I was reminded today of Psalms 121. Many years ago, I memorized that Psalms to music and I used to sing my children to sleep with it at night. It brings me great comfort now in anticipation of surgery in two weeks and one days. Sorry, I only learned it in King James Version. Here it is:

I will lift up my eyes unto the hills. From whence cometh my help? My help cometh from the Lord who made heaven and earth. He will not suffer my foot to be moved. He that keepeth me will not slumber. Behold, He that keepeth Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord is my keeper. The Lord is my shade upon my right hand. The sun shall not smite me by day nor the moon by night. The Lord shall preserve me from all evil. He shall preserve my soul. He shall preserve my going out and my coming in. From this time forth and even for ever more.

That simply says to me that no matter what happens to me, I am safe in God's hands. This will sustain me through surgery and whatever happens beyond.


9/13/04
Went to see the pulmonologist today. He approved me for surgery. But not before he asks, "So, have you tried other ways to lose weight?" I'm thinking what fat person has not tried other ways to lose weight? Of course, he was a skinny med student kid and a foreigner, so I felt like slapping him. Not because he's skinny or foreign, but because he seemed so insane with his question. Instead of stopping that train of thought, he continued on, "Because you know this is a very dangerous operation and if you can do it a different way, you should do that." I told him I had lost 100 lbs on Atkins and 100 lbs. on Diet Center, not once but twice, 50 lbs on NutriSystems, about 40 lbs. on Weight Watchers, about 20 on a lowfat diet and another 20 on every diet that has ever come out in print. In reality, I weigh minus -53 lbs. right now. I don't think he understood what I was saying. But, I forgive his stupidity and know that people who do not have a weight problem, even if they have gone through medical school, have no idea what we heavyweights go through.


9/15/04
Thanks so much to Dianne for updating my profile to this wonderful one with the Warrior Angels. My mother passed away almost 12 years ago. She had always had a collection of angel figurines. When she passed away people began giving me angel figurines. I have a collection now that I love. But the one that is missing is the warrior angel. I see this type of angel as the one fighting back the forces of evil on our behalf. I believe that when I pray and when others pray for me, God sends His strong warrior angels to fight on my behalf.


9/22/04
Surgery is only five days away. I don't really feel stressed about the surgery itself. I know it will be a bear, but I think I can get through that and the recovery period. I pray that all goes well because I don't want to be an invalid and be a burden to my family. I'm doing this to get back in the game, not to be taken out again.


9/25
It's definitely getting closer now. Last night I sort of broke down and cried. I told my husband I didn't know if I was doing the right thing or not. He just held me. It was what I needed. Fear is a funny thing. It seems to creep up on you when you are least expecting it. I really know this is what I am supposed to be doing but last night I was second guessing it again. What if I just went back on Atkins diet and stuck with it. Then I realized, I've done that and I didn't stick with it. I have to have this tool to remind me and hold me to my goals. I wrote a very long letter with all the good-byes in it. Every time I read it, I cry. I know I would be in a better place if something happened to me, but I'd miss doing what things I need to do here on earth. That's the whole reason I'm having this done. To be the best I can be for my Lord and for my family.This time next year when I'm reading this and am 150 lbs. lighter or more, I'll just laugh at my jitters.


October 1, 2004
Here I am on the losing side and feeling good. Have a little less energy today because I'm having difficulty getting my protein down. It's really true, the stuff you liked before surgery you do not like now and vice versa. I had some clam chowder without the clams yesterday and it tasted divine. I've never liked the stuff. Isn't that strange.

Surgery went fine. I will break it down for you. We arrived at the hospital on Monday, 9/27 about 7 a.m. We signed some papers and then went up to the sameday surgery area. I answered more questions and signed more papers. They started an IV, took blood and took my blood sugar, blood pressure and pulse. By that time it was about 7:45 and the waiting game started. Dr. Fabito is apparently notorious for running late. The surgery was scheduled for 9 a.m. It was about 9:45 when he arrived. He came in and talked to me a bit and then said he'd see me on the other side. In a few minutes I was wheeled a short distance and the anestheologist came and said, "OK, time for the wine cooler" and injected something in my IV. That's about the last thing I remember until I woke up in the recovery room. I asked when they were going to start the surgery and they said. "It's already over." It only took about an hour. I was in recovery about an hour and then I was in ICU for a day. I don't remember much about ICU. I was back in my room I think on Tuesday morning. My husband stayed on a fold-out bed in my room.

I did Ok on Tues., sleeping on and off all day. My husband left mid-afternoon and my friend, Kim came for Tues. evening. I only had ice chips all day long and was very thirsty. Tues. night I was extremely nauseated. I had the demerol drip going through the IV and they also gave me some Toradahl and some nausea medication. I think it was the demerol making me sick because on Wed., the IV blew and they couldn't restart it. I started feeling much better by Wed.

My aunt and uncle came by sometime. I don't even remember when. I barely remember them being there. My friend who is a family nurse practitioner came by on Wed. afternoon right after the barium swallow test. Man, was that awful! They took me down to the X-ray place and had me stand on a little ledge on a machine. Then they put this x-ray glass down in front of me and had me move all different ways while I drank this awful, awful clear liquid stuff. The x-ray box was hitting my stomach and hurting and I told them that. The guy was rude and said, "I can't make the machine go out any further." I was not feeling well, because of the nausea, and he was rushing me because things were backed up in x-ray. I didn't like that part.

When I got back, I wanted something to drink to wash the barium stuff out of me but the nurse said I still had to do the blue ice chip test and couldn't have anything to drink. I rinsed my mouth with water to just get some of the taste out and endured the waiting for the next test. In the meantime, Dr. Fabito came in and asked how I was doing. I said I'll be doing fine after this next test. He said, "What test?" I said, "The blue ice chip." He said, "Oh no, you don't have to do that. The swallow test is all I require." I did a little happy dance (in my head, couldn't really do it yet). I got to drink. Hallelujah!

They decided they did not need to start another IV because I was drinking and I didn't want any more demerol. So, they gave me darvoset as a pain med and that worked fine. They did try about four times to start an IV. But gave up. I did much better on Wed. night and finally was able to urinate and even did the other as well. So, on Thurs. morning the doc. came in and told

I should have asked for lunch before I left. It was a 2-hour drive home and I didn't have anything to eat. So, when my husband stopped for his lunch, the hamburger looked really good. Instead I had water until I got home.

I slept in the recliner the first couple of nights. I took one darvoset and tried to make it last the entire night by taking some tylenol in between. That did not work too well. Last night, I slept in my bed and took a darvoset every four hours which is approximately when I woke up! I slept pretty good except for waking up to take the med.

Today, I am up around the house for the first time and doing a few things like posting on the computer and going through mail.

It's good to take it a little easy. I'vebeen up and around for about four hours and I'm probably going to go take a nap shortly. But first, I'm going to have a little more clam chowder.

I have no idea what I weigh now or if I've lost any weight. My stomach seems very distended and pushed outward more than usual. I'm sure it's just swollen from the surgery. Of course my sister and step-mom have both told me they think I've already lost weight. I was actually losing a little before the surgery. The day I went in, I had lost four pounds from the week before. Anyway, we'll see next week when I go to get the stitches out.


10/4/04
I think I overdid it a bit yesterday. I went to church for Sun. School and church yesterday and then a former foster son came by with his fiance and stayed most of the evening. By the end I was hurting and tired. I did sleep pretty well last night but still was awake every 4 hours when the pain meds wore off. I'm thinking I should be stopping the pain meds by now. It's one week out but whenever I try I get that horrible pain in my belly. I'm going to try using tylenol today and see how it works. A weird thing happened this morning. When I unplugged my drain site, tons of liquid came out. I had been having little trickles each day but this morning it was quite a bit. I guess I shouldn't worry. It wasn't blood or anything. I'm feeling OK, just a little weak. When I get tired and it hits me, I have to go to bed right then. It's like immediate. I'm wasted. Get to bed. Still very glad I've done this even without knowing my weight loss yet.


10/6/04
Feeling great today. Feel like I could run a marathon. Instead, I'm doing some office work at home. I get my stitches and drain out tomorrow and I'm determined I am going to drive today as soon as I get everything else done.


10/10/04
I got sick of liquids and tried some other foods. I got my drain out on 10/7 and since then if I eat soft foods, about an hour later it goes right through me. I guess this is dumping. I'm told it might be just the bile juices from the old stomach that my body isn't used to. Yogurt usually stays put and cream of wheat cereal. But I dump on things like scrambled eggs, boiled eggs, skim milk, baked potato...I'm scared to try too much. But having the drain and staples out is really great. I had lost 13.5 lbs since the surgery when I got the drain out. I'm going to go and weigh again tomorrow because that will be my two-week anniversary and then I can go weigh every Monday until I get a scale I can weigh on. It's probably better to not have a scale at this point.


10/12/06
I weighed yesterday and am down 10 more pounds! That's 23.5 since surgery! Praise God. I'm going to try a recipe for noodle-less lasagna today. I got all the ingredients yesterday. I officially started soft food yesterday. I got some melba toast and fat-free swiss cheese. For lunch I had 4 toast crackers with one slice of cheese divided among them. It was so good. The toast was Mediterranean flavor with parmesean and spices. For supper I had about 1/4 baked potato without skin and a tablespoon of cottage cheese. I could only eat about 4 bites before getting very full and having to drink some water to get the food to go down. I think I was eating too fast and too much in a bite. I was just so anxious to have real food. Anyway, it's good to have more choices now.


10/18/04
Confession is good for the soul. Here's what happened. I went and weighed and I had only lost 2 lbs. since last Mon. I was bummed. Of course that is 25.5 lbs. total but still I was bummed with only 2 lbs.

Next stop was the grocery store to replenish supplies since my 4 teenagers had depleted the food reserves over the weekend. While there, I found steak bites teryaki beef jerky. Now, I know others eat these who've had WLS but they are MUCHO further along than 3 weeks. I didn't care I bought them anyway.

About 3 hours after getting home I decided to try them. I took a bite and chewed, chewed good. Then I recognized the still, small voice of God saying to me, "OK, you tasted it, now spit it out." I ignored that and swallowed.

It got about halfway down and felt like it got stuck. I thought I was dying. I could breathe but it hurt so bad. My DH called my stepmom who's a nurse and lives around the corner. She came over and called 911. Then I belched and felt better. So she called them and cancelled. Then I started feeling worse, so she called and they actually came. 3 big firemen in my bedroom. They put oxygen on me and I kept trying to tell them it had run out but they kept wanting to stay on me. Finally we got that communicated and they got the oxygen off. Then the ambulance crew came and they started doing stuff to me. About the time the party was getting good, I threw up.

After that, I felt much better. I felt bad about my crying and whining but it did SOOO hurt and I will never, eat stuff I'm not supposed to again. I will stick to my diet and I will listen to those still, small voices!


10/27/04
I month since surgery and I am down 32 lbs. Again the constipation bug hit me. I started taking colace and finally a few days ago it worked like a charm. Now I take it every night and it is seeming to keep things moving. I had weighed on Monday and then again on Tuesday after things moved on out. I had lost 3.5 lbs in one day!


11/2/04
Went to weigh yesterday and I had not lost any weight. Bummer. I think it has to do with a combination of constipation and not eating enough protein. A normal day for me consists of 16 oz of Strawberry-Kiwi Crystal Light with 1 scoop of unflavored unjury protein powder (20 grm. protein), a small noon meal such as a slice of turkey, a slice of swiss cheese and a little light mayo, small evening meal such as 1/4 chicken breast, 1/4 baked potato (inside only mashed up with a little lowfat cottage cheese). For snacks I might have a Dole no sugar added juice bar or two. My dietitian says I need to add another protein shake. I always get in my water. I like the bottled water but if I don't have that, I use Crystal Light for half my water. The dietitian also recommends benefiber powder for the constipation and to increase my b-12 to 1,000 mcg a day instead of 500 that I was taking and to switch to adult liquid centrum with iron for my vitamins. The b-12 and vitamins are to increase my energy level. So, we'll see how this does.


11/05/04
I went back to the doctor yesterday and I have officially lost 38 lbs. He also told me that the extreme pain at the back of my throat I was having when trying to eat, especially at supper, was esophagus spasms. He explained that your esophagus is a muscle and it can have cramps and spasms like any other muscle. He recommended drinking hot tea before I eat. I tried that last night and it worked OK. I had 1/2 of a small popcorn chicken. It really tasted good.


11/13/04
I was still having problems with the esophagus spasms. The really hot tea would set it off worse. A nurse practioner friend of mine said she prescribed prilosec 20 mg twice a day for her patients with the same problem. I tried it and have been able to eat more this week. I went to water aerobics every day this week. It felt good. I lost 2 more lbs. for a total of 42 lbs. lost. I was hoping it would be 50 lbs. by now but I guess I was being a little too optimistic. Anyway, 42 lbs. is good, too.


11/20/04
I weighed yesterday and after another week of water aerobics, I had still lost only 2 more lbs. However, my pcp did discover that I have a bladder infection which might account for the water I seem to be retaining, especially around my abdomen. I am really not eating much. I can only eat about 1/4 of a Lean Cuisine meal at a time. I am still only doing one protein drink a day. I guess I'll up it to 2 and see how that does.


11/27/04
How strange is this? I went to Mon and Tues of water aerobics without one lb lost. Then, I didn't go Wed. before Thanksgiving because of a big snow we had and I didn't go Thurs, Fri or Sat (today). On Thurs, the scale showed 3 lbs. lost and on Fri another lb! I'm glad the scale is moving down but it's really strange how these things work. So far, 47 lbs. down! I wanted it to be 50 by Thanksgiving but it's not too far off. I can actually weigh on my own scales now!


12/7/04
I weighed this morning and I'm down 53 lbs! I went out and bought a size 2x top and size 18 pants (they have some give to them). I haven't had the courage to try them on yet but I will and if they don't fit now, they will soon! I think the weight loss is still going slowly but it is going. I have been doing 8 tablespoons of liquid proteinex in 24 ounces of crystal light as my morning protein. That is equivalent to 60 grams of protein. I like the taste because in lemonade crystal light, I can't taste the protein. So, it is great. I had to go back to my unflavored powder protein this morning because I ran out of proteinex, but I have it on order.

I actually went shopping at the mall today because I wanted to! I have not done that in forever! I usually only go shopping because I have to. There's just too much walking involved. I didn't walk all over the mall but I did walk all over Penney's! Things are looking up! I can't wait until I reach my next goal. I'm going to buy some more clothes!


12/15/04
Finally down another five lbs. It seems hard to believe that I lose some weeks and not others even though I don't seem to be eating much different or exercising any more. However, at aquasize I feel like I'm getting a better workout and am able to keep up better with the teacher. I bought a smaller bra 46DD and it fits really well. I also bought size 10 stretch cotton briefs and they fit well, too! Finally got my proteinex order. I like the liquid so much better than the powder. I can do a lot more protein with the liquid as I can tolerate it better. I also got some 400 mg mint calcium citrate. I can tolerate it better than the other chewables I have.


12/22/04
Officially down 60 lbs today. Wa-hoo!


12/27/04
Down 66 lbs. today. Awesome. Thought I should say a bit about what I'm eating, etc. I still find 4 oz of proteinex in 20 oz of lemonade crystal light to be what I like for protein. That gives me 60 grams of protein in the morning. I also do 2 flintstones with iron chewable vitamins, 2 chewable mint flavored calcium citrates and one stool softener (colace). For lunch I usually have a piece of smoked turkey lunch meat and a piece of swiss cheese with mustard. I just roll it up and eat it that way. For supper I'll either eat a lean cuisine meal. I can eat about 3/4 of one now. Or I'll eat a little of what the family is having. Chili, spaghetti, chicken nuggets, turkey, baked potato with cheese all work well for me.

I have eaten a chicken hard taco with sour cream but no lettuce from taco bell, also I've eaten about half of a pintos and beans side order from there. Sometimes I get hungry for a hamburger and so I order a Frisco Melt from Steak and Shake. I ask for it on wheat bread and with only one hamburger patty. I take off the top slice of bread and don't eat much of the bottom slice. I can eat about half of the entire sandwish doing it that way. My husband likes for me to do this so he can have the other half.

I made scalloped oysters for Christmas. It's sort of a tradition in our family but I'm one of the few who really eat them! They tasted really good. Then Christmas evening, I ate some more of them. I don't know if it was just too much oysters or if they were too rich but I got really bad diarrhea. Which in a way was good because I had been constipated! I lost 3 lbs in one day!

Even though I take 2 stool softeners a day, one in AM and one l PM and benefiber in AM, I'm still have problems with constipation and only have a bowel movement about once a week. Normally it doesn't hurt until the day I actually have a bowel movement. I had some difficulties with this before and found taking a fibercon pill was about all that would really help. I may try this again and see if it works. It can't be worse than it is now.

Oh, I must tell you. My husband got me an awesome warrior angel for Christmas. It's a limited edition Seraphim Michael. He has his sword drawn. It was a perfect gift and a physical representation of what I know is taking place in the heavenlies on my behalf and for whoever is reading this, on your behalf as well!


1/1/05
A New Year and I'm 67 lbs. lighter. That's awesome. I generally do some praying about direction for the next year about this time every year. So, last night I was doing that and I believe God gave me the direction for this year as Philippians 1:6 which says, "Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." I believe this good thing that has started in me is not just for my physical being but also for my spiritual, mental and emotional being as well. In Sunday School, I'm teaching a class called "The Mind of Christ." It's very thought-provoking and makes you dig deep to think about things that need to be changed in your life. I'm learning that I'm way too things-oriented. So, God is changing me little by little. As the pounds come off, so do bondages to old ways. God is encouraging me to love more this year. Since I'm a simple person, God gives me simple thoughts. My word for this year is love. That may look differently as I apply it to different people. For some, it may be tough love, encouraging them to be all they can be in Jesus. For others, it will be gentle love, simply putting an arm around them at special times. For others, it will be more of a giving love, so they are sure beyond a shadow of a doubt that I love them completely. What is your word for 2005?


1/4/05
I felt I should add this to my profile because there are so many people who are looking at surgery and are scared speechless. I know there are risks to this surgery. But the risks that might cause death are primarily from anesthesia, blood clots in your legs or heart problems. All of these could happen with any surgery! No one would question it if your doc told you you needed gallbladder surgery. You'd have it. But these same complications exist for that surgery, too. It's just that with WLS you don't necessarily have to have it or you will die tomorrow. I'd had two c-sections and an abdominal hernia repair prior to WLS, so I knew what to expect from abdominal surgery. I'd say the WLS was the easiet of all of those except for maybe my second c-section where they went through the incision they made the first time around.

Other risks are getting a surgeon who just plain doesn't know what he or she is doing because of lack of experience. check out your surgeon. email others who had surgery by them. Ask about their mortality record and how many surgeries of this type they've done and how many years they've been doing it. Don't be bashful. You're hiring him even if insurance is paying the bill. Things like surgeons knicking the bowel in several places usually don't happen with experienced surgeons.

Another risk I've heard of is a bowel obstruction. My surgeon says this is when the bowel sticks together and forms an obstruction. He uses some kind of spray that is supposed to help that not happen.

All of that said, I should also say, any surgery is a risk. For those with co-morbidities who are Severely Morbidly Obsese, it is a BIG risk. But so is doing nothing. I'm a proactive person I like to take things into my own hands and do something about it.


2/1/05
Lost 2 more lbs today, so that is a total of 79 lbs. lost. 3 more lbs and I'll be in the 2's! That will be my first major goal reached! Hope to be there by the time I go back to the doctor on 2/10.


2/5/05
I can't believe I didn't update after the first. I weighed the next day and I was down 3 more lbs (after remedying a bout of constipation) and that puts me at 299.5! I am officially in the 2's! I should celebrate with something, but I'm not sure what. Just knowing that I'm in the 2's is important.

I got a firm word from the Lord during church last Sunday that says I should pursue starting an ISL outside my home. I have been reluctant to do that. But, if it is what God wants then I'm all for it. We looked at duplexes in our neighborhood today.


2/14/05
Happy Valentine's Day. It's been a busy last few weeks. I weighed today and I'd lost another 2 lbs. That's so awesome. I can't describe how great it feels to be losing weight every day. I can't wait to get to that 100 lbs lost place! That will be awesome. Went to see Dr. Fabito on 2.10. He said I was doing great. Nothing to change.


2/24/05
Weight was down again this morning. I've lost 90 lbs. so far. I have a lot more energy and can do so much more. I still have bouts with diarrhea alternating the next day with constipation. But at least when the diarrhea hits, I lose more weight. I think the last bout was due to eating smoked almonds. Have to watch that. Must be too much something, not sure what.


3/10/04
I've been hovering around the 92 lbs lost mark for awhile now. The eating is going well and I still go to water aerobics but my shoulder and knee are giving me problems. I think I must have done something to my rotator cuff during water aerobics. Today, I was out looking at a house and my knee just totally gave way and down I went. It took about 10 minutes for me to get up. I see the orthopedist tomorrow.


3/27/05
Easter Sunday, my six month anniversary. Today I got on the scale with fear and trepidation. I wanted so bad for it to say 100 lbs lost and ... it did. It said 100.5 lbs lost. Praise God. It was a great day. My family was all here for lunch. My brother brought a ramp so my dad could get into our house with his wheelchair. It was great to have him here with us even though he is confined to the wheelchair. I was afraid he wouldn't be with us, but he was. I'm rejoicing!


5/19/05
Can't believe I haven't updated in so long. I'm now down 114 lbs. I think I could be down more if I would be able to go to aquasize on a regular basis. I'm trying.


7/8/05
Down 124 lbs this morning. My dad died on 6/23/05. Lost 5 lbs that week. Not the best way to lose. I miss him so.

7/10/05
Down 127 lbs. I have now officially lost 1/3 of myself. I weigh 254. It's really amazing. Some days I am hungry and I eat two meals. But most days I eat one meal. I've found I love Arby's regular roast beef with swiss cheese and honey mustard sauce. Some days I can eat the whole thing but usually I eat half and then about an hour later, eat the other half. I usually eat this at lunch and then at supper, I might have a few crackers and one ounce of cheese or a couple of bites of whatever the family is having for supper, but I'm not really hungry the rest of the day. I'm still having my GNC liquid protein drink. I use about 6 T of GNC liquid protein in 24 oz. of Crystal Light. That is my morning drink. If I don't have it, I get very hungry in the morning. Yesterday was Sunday and we usually go out to eat. I have been wanting Banana Bread from Bob Evans all week. So, we went there and I ordered a meal with banana bread. I took one bite of the noodles and sirloin tips and ate the two pieces of Banana bread. The sirloin tips and noodles are still in my fridge. I'm learning to listen to what my body wants. It sure would have been cheaper to just order my banana bread and nothing else. Check out my new pictures at www.familypublishing.org/wls.htm


 9/24/05
It's a couple of months since I've written. I've actually lost another 12 lbs for a total loss of 139. That feels good. THe last few weeks, though I haven't lost anything. I think the culprit is cinnamon crunch bagels from Panera. Wish I had never found out that I could eat them. It's strange but I can eat them for breakfast lunch and supper and not eat anything else. They set really well for me and are filling. Also I found out if you buy 13 of them, you pay like 1/2 price. No use buying 6 because it's the same price. It's just too tempting. I must stop. it's just that nothing else tastes very good. I think something will taste good and I fix it and then just let the family eat it because it doesn't taste good to me. Oh well.

4/26/06
Well, I had hernia surgery a month ago. It was a major abdominal hernia repair. They inserted mesh from under my breast bone to as far down as they could go and then from side to side. I had 12 laproscopic incisions. It has taken awhile to heal. I'm feeling much better now. They put the mesh over my gastric bypass incision. For some reason this has made me not as hungry. I am once again losing and not very hungry. I have lost 158 lbs so far and my bmi has gone down to 38.8. I am still obese but not morbidly obese, praise God! I am solidly in an 18-20 pants and shirt unless the shirt has tight sleeves and then my bat wings won't fit. I'm sure once I start exercising again, I will be losing even more. I still do have some pain on my left side right where my drain was for the gastric bypass and on the right lower side, where I had an appendectomy before. Both these areas had lots of adhesions, so the doc said.

Also, I no longer crave cinnamon crunch bagels. My appetite has changed some just like it did when I had the gastric bypass. Weird, huh?


7/29/06
We just got back from a vacation to upper Michigan and I was able to walk quite a ways this year. In past years, I would have stayed in the car or sat on a bench and read. But I was right with them most of the time this year. Felt good. So far I've lost 166 lbs. I still would like to lose at least another 45 lbs. That will put me in the merely overweight category.

1/15/07
I'm down 185 lbs. now.  I broke my hand on 1/9 and so that is slowing my typing. I'm also constipated, i think from thr tylenol 3 they gave me as a pain killer.

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