Godsplan
7/3/08
I am anxious about starting a journey that I know will change my life forever. My date is coming up and the nerves in my body are just jumping like crazy.
I keep trying to imagine what the turn out after a year is up is going to be, but I have to learn to be patient. I am a 28 year old, happily married, with 3 kids female in Dallas Texas. I made this decision because I ran out of ideas of how to obtain health and be here for my kids and hubby. I am having surgery mainly for them so that I can see them grow up and also to maintain a healthy lifestyle. Any encouragement will be greatly appreciated because this is not going to be easy and friendly gestures go a long way. I wish everyone good luck! 
10/19/08
Hello everyone. I am doing well and maintaing my composure with all that life is dealing me. I have lost quite a bit of weight and striving for more. I cant believe that I can run 2 miles without walking and work out on a daily basis. I am a procrastinator so I am so proud of how I made exercise a priority. I am not going to act like everything has been peaches and cream bc it has'nt. I have been to the hospital twice because of my body wanting to throw up constantly without giving me a chance to absorb anything. I am doing awesome now the weight is triclinly off. I wish faster, but I guess I need to be patient since this would not be possible without my surgery. I thank and love my doctor (Dr. Barker) so much because he has given a reason to love my life. I was beating myself up constantly for my appearance being so horrible and now I can actually look in the mirror without so much shame. God is good. All the time. He was an angel sent from God so help a wrench like me. For those of you that are deciding on whether to have the surgery or not, please dont hesitate and let the moment pass you by. I put my surgery off for years because I thought that maybe I can lose the weight on my own or somehting. Well the scale went the opposite direction than what I was intending. My husband, kids, and family has been so supportive and I know that I would not have made it if it was'nt for them. Today is another day and tomorrow is not promised so I will do my best to show the world that I can and I am able.
10/24/08
Here I am again harrassing my scale because I want to be thin in the blink of an eye. We all know that we did not gain over night so we cant lose over night either. I have a doctor appointment November 6th with Dr. Parker so I better get it in gear. I cannot believe that I ran 2 1/2 miles this morning without stopping. 
Can you believe it. It seems like just yesterday I was sitting on the couch, watching tv, and eating chips while drinking soda. What a change!!!!! I am down to 200 and going crazy because Onderland (100 pounds) is just a hair away. The good news is that I am gaining more self confidence and I am not scared to tell people what I weigh because God is not thru with me yet. I cannot believe that I let myself get to this point, but the past is in the past and it is time to turn the page for a better future. My kids are so excited that I am more active with them. We play games, run around like we are crazy, and just act silly. My husband has been a dream come true because he looks beyond the outer Queen and sees what alot of others are not willing to meet. I believe that beauty is in the eyes of the beholder so as the Golden Rule says "YOU SHOULD NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER"! The book of Queen goes way deeper than what you could imagine. I am a people person and I teach my kids to be the same way because people are in your life to fall into 3 diffenet seasons. It is up to you to decide which category that they fall into. 1) A lifetime 2) A reason 3) A season. The lifetime category are the ones that are like family that's there no matter what. The reason category are the ones that are in your life for a short period of time just to teach, warn, or take you thru something. The season category are the ones that are in your life for several months or years just to get you from one point in your life to another. We need to keep our heads up because we are all beautiful. Remember that anything worth having is worth fighting for. Especially YOU!
11/5/08
I am in a good mood today since my day at work is flying by so quickly. On Nov. 1 I entered into Onderland. WOW! 
I cannot believe it. It has been a while since I've seen these days. I still have a long way to go but I will keep my head up and feet to moving. I had another wow moment last week. I ran 3 miles without stopping. 
I would of never done that in the past because of my lazyness. I now usually run 2 - 2 1/2 miles every morning at 4:20am. I am now so dedicated to my new life and my husband is just as excited because of the new fire that I carry inside. The mirror is still not my best friend but we are working on it. Lol! I can honestly say that this journey is helping see things that I never saw before because of the blindfold that I have kept over my eyes for so long. I not only want to live life, but embrace it as well. So many people have more conversation for me now and I think that is kind of sad because I am the same Queen that I was 69 pounds ago. Society tends to block out a lot of good people just because we are not always the first that you see on a magazine cover. I have learned that I was beautiful then and now, so I will let my light shine always. God has brought me to this point and now I must keep things going steady from here. My mom always told me that God will never put more on me then what I can bear. She is so right. Without my family, friends, and yall; I would of had a even harder struggle to make it this far. Thank you for being there, thank you for listening , and thank you for wanting to know who Queen really is. Till next time.................
11/14/08
I am so upset since my scale does not want to budge. I hope this is not the end of weight loss for me bc I have such a long way to go. I am eating right, working out at least 6 days a week. Better luck next week. 
12/16/08
I am estatic to say that I found out that I am officially a size 12 last night while shopping at Ross. I have not been this size since high school. I am 185 pounds and lovin life. My husband keeps tellin me that I am beautiful but I see a reflection that needs a lot of work. In due time, I will feel comfortable in my skin again. I am blessed that God loves me so much to work on my physical as well as my mental. I have been making changes inside and out lately because I believe that God has a plan for me! Keep movin to lose because it will pay off..... I am still struggling to get my protein so bare with me on that issue. I bet I would of lost a lot more if I would follow that rule a bit closer. The members on here make me want to strive to do better bc everyone is doing so well. Good luck to everyone and drop a line to say hello if you can! TTYL
3/10/09
What a day the Lord has made. I am loving my RNY more and more. My weight loss has slowed down drastically but I can still say that I am losing weight. That is a good thing. I am learning to look at the positives over the bad and everything will see it's way thru.
I am better today than I was yesterday. This week my oldest daughter of 12 years is having cheerleading tryouts so everyone please say a prayer for my 7th grader that she makes it. My kids bring me so much joy. I look at them and I see me when I was a toddler. Man, does time fly. I am praying for to be 150 pounds and I know I can do it. I made it this far so the sky is the limit.
Everyone keep your head up and stay blessed. TTYL
