grandmaree
I am sad
Sep 03, 2009
I am so sad....today, after a sudden illness, my mother passed away. I am here in the Philippines and couldn't be there at her side. I have Skype and was able to be in the room with her and my family, which helped, it was almost like being there, but not quite the same. I have some comfort in knowing she was "ready to go" and actually made the decision to die or have potentially fatal surgery. She had made her peace and died within hours. It was very peaceful and she wasn't in pain, I don't think we could ask for anything more. I am flying back to the states tomorrow, and am looking forward to seeing my family, but I was supposed to be coming back in a week anyway to spend time with my mom, not be going to her funeral. I am going to try to wrestle the demons that are going to want me to eat, to cover my anger and sadness. I won't beat myself up, though if the demons win for a while....I know eventually I will get back to a normal life again. I am going to miss my mother so much...she was a major part of my life and my best friend. I am thankful she is not suffering anymore, as she had been ill off and on with various issues over several years. Rest in Peace, Mom, until we are together again.
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Blanchard, OK
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26.5
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Surgery
12/31/2008
Surgery Date
Oct 05, 2008
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Family insisted I take a picture with my grandbaby!!
250 lbslbs
