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I spent the first week after I got approved kind of nervous because it had taken so long, and I wasn't really sure if it was real or not.  As well as, I was nervous that something was going to go wrong again and it was not going to happen.  As this week came I knew it was final as I have registered with the hospital and had my final check up which came out great.  I started to get very very excited.  Up until last night I was still excited as ever. 

I woke up this morning terrified.  Those emotions everyone has been talking about finally got here this morning.  I am scared to death, I have never had surgery and never been under.   I will be alone in the hospital the entire time of my recovery and my sister won't be here until two days after I get home.

I guess I wish I had my Mom here or my sisters, or all of them.  I know it will be fine but I am a baby when it comes to enduring illnesses, even though this isn't an illness, it still fills me with emotions.

As we all say,
I will see you all on the losers bench.

Gina

I had my final check up and they said they would call me the next day if there are any problems.  I did not hear from them so everything is a good to go.
I have five days to go and I am getting excited, the nerves are gone.
 

Tomorrow is my absolutley final appointment and will be exactly one week away from my surgery.  I am running around like crazy because I have so much to do before then.

I have to double up on my homework and get my house in order because I had a yard sale yesterday, what a mistake having it so close to the surgery,because now I have to get all this crap back in order and then prepare for my sister and her friend to come.  I am going to dinner at my friends house on Wednesday and the simple things in life make me so happy, she is a great cook and I am excited it is going to be one of my last real nice meals before I can't eat everything.

The excitement and nerves are starting to kick in.  I wasn't really nervous at first because it has been so long, it was more like a finally feeling.

Wish me luck tomorrow.
Gina

Everytime I turn around I am saying, I have only one more thing to do.  This is my last appointment.  I have a wish, that "I have one more thing to do" Is to be put on my headstone.
I will say, at this point, I still have one more thing to do. On October 5, 2009 I will be going to get a complete physical from my bariactric doctor, apparantly they take blood work and there are things included in there that the primary care physician doesn't usually take.  Either way I could care less how many more appointments I have.  I will be going in on October 12, 2009 to have my surgery.

At first it took so long that I was relieved and warn out at the same time.  So many emotions swept through me that I was walking around numb for a couple days.  At this point the numbness has warn off and I am starting to get excited.  My big sister will be here and she send me her itineray, which made me realize this is a reality.

Nervousness hasn't set in yet, I think I went through so many things and had many many obstacles along the way that I won't be nervous.

Be prepared I will be posting more and more, because I am completely consumed with the thought of it literally being only 17days to change my life.

I finally got approved after 10 years, many tears and many many doctors appointments.

October 12th, 2009 will be the day that changes my life

Finally, I have completed everything I need.  On Thursday September 10th Patty submitted my paperwork, they called on Monday which means they received my stuff and are reviewing it.  It has been a week and a day and I haven't heard anything back yet, which means I am getting very nervous.  The lady at the front said that something they do not hear anything if the patient was denied, the patient will simply get a letter straight from the insurance company.  So needless to say I can't leave my house, looking for the mailman everyday.

As of now my surgery date is October 12th, 2009.

Wish me luck

I finally went to the dietician and she was wonderful.  It's funny because I have been going through this for 10 years and went through many nutrition classes along the way, and Renee was the most helpful.  My sister has been a great big help because she went through it and I have more of an insight of what to expect, my sister does not sugar coat it whcih I have found people do.

As of now my surgery date is October 12th, 2009.  I haven't gotten my approval yet but that is the date that was selected.  If I do not get approved for this operation this time I will not try again.  I am going to accept the fact that I am going to die early and live with it as best I can.  It is harder to deal with all the crap they ask you  for and all the denials than the actual weight itself.

I will let you know hopefully in a couple days if I was approved or not.

I had my last appointment with my primary physician today.  I have my dietician appointment on September 3rd and then hopfully on the fourth they will submit my paperwork.  I am still going strong and as of now there hasn't been any obstacles.  I am very nervous every single minute because of all the problems I have had so far these last nine years.
I am hoping to get the surgery by the middle of September.  My sister and her friend will be here to stay and take care of me.  I am also getting nervous about going under.
I really need for this to happen this time, because I am not sure I can take another let down.
Looking forward to my next appointment and I am counting the days.

I think I might be getting ahead of myself.  I still have one more test to do on the 3rd of September and I haven't had my paperwork sent in yet.  But I have been going through my closet and seeing what I might still be able to wear and how long I might be able to wear it.  Most of my clothes are from Lane Bryant as I used to be the store manager there.  I got so many wonderful deals and I really am bummed that I won't be able to wear them anymore.  I like my clothes and my style even though my clothes are plus size they are still stylish.  My sister is coming here when I get the surgery and I feel bad, because she didn't get approved for the surgery and now she is going to get all my hand me down clothes.

I hope she doesn't get too depressed about it.  I hope it goes through this time.

Yesterday I called the surgeons office and it seems every time I call them they need more stuff.  One day they will say I only need three more things, then I produce those three things and then they say ok well you only need four more things.  I almost threw in the towel yesterday out of sheer frustration and it has just been so long.  I can't understand why it is so hard for me.  I have seen so many people come and go; they just fly by and get the surgery.  I started the process in 2000 but the second time I started the same time my sister did.  She had her surgery done April 1, 2005.  She has reached her goal, her health is perfect and I still don't have a date.  My paperwork hasn’t' even been sent in.  I lost my job in January and my insurance hasn't begun yet.

The purpose of this post is after all that frustration yesterday.  The lady called me today and said she called my doctor and was able to get the information my doctor hasn't yet sent her since October of 2008, then last night I found the rest of the nutrition trackers for the rest of the months that were missing.  As of now, I have my final appointment with my primary physician on the 24th of August and the last required appointment which is for the Dietician on the 3rd of September.

I seriously believe I will have my date for the end of September.  I had a goal of end of October, but I have seen people take forever to finish the process and submit the papers and within 24 to 48 hours get approved and a week later get scheduled.  I can really see the light and it is so bright right now.  I think it is going to really happen for me this time.  I believe that if it doesn't happen this time I am not going to try to get it done again.  I am emotionally drained and I do not think I will be able to handle another disappointment.

If anyone has any support will you please send it my way?  I surely need it at this point.  Not only have I been going through all this, I was 247 in January and I just weighed 264 and my blood tested at 399 these doctors keep effing around and before you know it I am going to die.  They need to get on the ball; this is my life they are messing with.