hambylover
Where do i start? well I am a 30 year old mother, wife, trapped in a fat body that makes me feel like i'm way older than i should. I have been pretty much heavy my whole life, give or take a few years. I have struggled with yo yo diets, and finally i just gave up. I met the love of my life in high school. I was skinnier back then, but i steadily gained, and gained, and gained. I blamed it on being comfortable in life. Well that may be true, but whats REALLY comfortable? It isn't 265 lbs That's for sure! I guess i started feeling, well noticing the steady growing, after i couldn't even walk up stairs with out gasping, also i was a regular smoker, which didn't help matters any. I also think as my children have gotten older, they seemed more energetic, and wanted to be involved in sports, and i honestly felt like i was holding them back, because i was too tired to tag along, therefor i didn't want them to participtate. Shame on me! i was trying to repeat the same patterns of my life into my children. i started to with draw myself out of family time, alone time with me and my husband, pictures, I just didn't have any desire for anything anymore, except for a couch, and a tv. My family has always been good to me, even through all of this, that's some unconditional love i am blessed at getting, that's for sure!!! BUT, it wasn't enough, i missed being with my husband, not out of guilt, but the closeness we shared, the fun times my kids and i shared. i want a life again!!! This is when i made the decision, i am doing something about it! I still am young, and have lots of years ahead of me. This truley will be my biggest challenge yet in life, and i say bring it on! i am now waiting for the surgery date to be scheduled to have the lap band, we just sent in all my info in to my insurance, and are now awaiting a responce. i hope to have this done in january, hopefully! say a prayer for me everything goes smoothly. I have quit smoking, and honestly i feel fantastic! Just with that alone. NOW i want to look and feel better all together! I feel if i can accomplish quitting that, i can over come this food addiction. I know what i have to do, and i intend on doing just that! So, that's it about me...for now anyways.
