hannahp
Blog 1
Jul 02, 2013
My surgery is tomorrow and I am a nervous wreck. I feel like I just should sit down and write a little bit so here I am. I am not nervous because of what is happening to me - I am excited, thrilled, READY. I am just nervous about the actually surgery part. I am a baby. I do not like pain. This is what has me all worried. I know I am in good hands though. And, also, I know I need this.
The 2 week liquid diet hasn't been as bad as I thought. The first few days were pretty miserable but I have accommodated fine. I keep thinking of "the big picture" and it helps. I am a little worried I'll never be able to eat some of my favorite foods again but it's really of little concern at this point. I never really just loved food. It's really kind of odd I'm in this situation in the first place. Food isn't an addiction like it is for some. I am just simply overweight. I ate the wrong foods. The area I live in has fast food EVERYWHERE and it was just easier to stop there. It was more of like a convenience.
Well, we see where that convenience has gotten me. OBESE and hours away from weight lose surgery. I am excited to start my new life, though. I am excited to learn to eat right and to stick with it. A lifestyle change, right? Yes! I am excited to loose weight so I can exercise. All my friends do some kind of exercise, they run in races or they train in other programs like "Crossfit." Wouldn't it be neat to be able to do all that? YES, I AM READY!!
Everyone has been really supportive so far. Some still think I am taking the "easy way out" but they don't know my body. They don't know this is the best thing I could be doing to help make myself happy. I just nod to them and go about it. I can't let it get me down. Sure, it would have been nice to find a diet that worked and just gone with it. But, I haven't. I need a little more than most people and I am not ashamed to say that.
I've been reading the forums on here a lot and almost all of them say the only regret is that they wish they would have done this when they were younger. I'm 25 - I still have a lot of life left to live, so here goes.
To a healthy me! CHEERS!
