Amy H.
Patience and Hope
Feb 21, 2009
Patience is something I've never claimed to have much of. But lately I've had to develop more. I am desperately trying to remain hopefully that my insurance will approve me for surgery. My biggest fear isn't having the surgery; it's not having the surgery. If my insurance doesn't come through, I don't know that I'll ever be able to have the surgery, and therefore never be able to get this weight off. I'm so afraid on postponement because I'm afraid of gaining more weight. As much as I try to eat the right foods and exercise more, I continue to stumble. It's so incredible frustrating. No one in my family has had to deal with obesity in the way that I have. I've never known what it was like to even be somewhat "normal" in my weight. I'm only a couple months shy of being 21. I'm afraid of getting sick. So far I've been exceptionally fortunate with my health. I rarely get sick. But I know what's coming or at the very least what could come if things don't change. My good health fortune isn't likely to hold out forever. My hope is beginning to run out a little. I'm beginning to doubt that insurance will approve me. It's sad when you almost need to be sick in order to prevent getting ill. For now I suppose I'll have to just hope things come through. And hopefully it won't take too long to find out. Hopefully....
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About Me
Batesville, AR
Location
41.8
BMI
Surgery
05/11/2009
Surgery Date
Dec 11, 2008
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