On the LOSER'S BENCH!!

Feb 20, 2010

Sorry it took so long to get back to you. My energy has been low but I'm starting to get that back on track. I had my surgery Tuesday the 16th at 8:30am. Everything went smoothly. When I was waking up I felt a TON of pain. All I could remember was in my last WLS class the nurse telling me if I was in pain tell them so they could help me. Well, I'm sure they had no problems knowing I was in pain, I was shouting it at them. I scared my mom and husband but they shortly felt better after a couple hours I was taking laps around the hospital like a champ! Walk, walk, walk. I knew that was important. I remember the "shrinking titan" telling me to walk all night long every few hours even if the nurses don't get you up. So, that's what I did. The nurses never had to get me up I was calling for them so I could walk. The 2nd and 3rd day were the toughest but as long as I was walking it wasn't bad. My husband took my 18 month old daughter to his parents today and tomorrow. I think that will help. I can concentrate on getting on a good nutrition schedule. It's so hard not to pick her up and to tell you the truth I've cheated twice . Most of the time though I sit on the couch and help her climb up...the only problem with that is there is no warning when she's ready to get down and she wants to put her elbow right in my gut. Ugh! So it will help for her not to be here for a couple days so I can more quickly get back to being the mommy she needs!

I guess my aunt told my mom that she knows 4 people who have had this surgery and they all gained their weight back which worried my mom. I explained to my mom that this is not a fix it is a tool. I am a food addict. I will have to keep myself in check forever. If I use this tool correctly it will help retrain myself how to eat. People can and will gain their weight back. I will not. Not because it is not possible but because I understand that this is a life decision, my surgery is a tool to help.