Fail

Jul 09, 2012

Food journal my butt.

Maybe on paper will be better.  I'll try that.


I hear that saying "I'm worried about failing." or "I'm worried I will cheat." or "I'm not sure how I am going to be able to not eat chocolate." is just an opening to allowing myself to fail.

I am afraid that I am too (stupid, self sabotaging, bull headed, messed up...) to make this work. 

I want to be thin (thin? really? or just slimmer and sexier?).  I want to stay thin (normal size?).  I want dad, uncle allan, etc to all say 'she lost all the weight and kept it off' instead of being disappointed in me and say that I didn't stay on track and did it all for nothing.

Feeling anxious and depressed and fearful/trepid about my ability to manage it all.  I know that if anything fails, it is my fault.

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