HoldYourOwn
Losing a friend and starting a new life
Jul 17, 2015
It has been a bumpy week. Although in only about 9 weeks out from finally getting approved for surgery, (after 6 months of insurance-required dietician visits), my desire for surgery ceased, momentarily, on Tuesday when I learned of the passing of a friend, due to ongoing complications from the DS surgery he had almost 4 years ago. It sent me into a tailspin. If he can die, them so can I. Do I really want to risk my life?
After talking with family and friends, (only my immediate family and two friends know of my plans), I realize that by not having the surgery, I am still risking my life. The older I get, the higher my weight gets, the more health issues I have. With the crappy genetics that infest both sides of my family, I am acutely aware that I need to stand up and fight the heart disease and diabetes that dominate the family tree. The best way for me to do this is to be healthy; something which I have really haven't been for quite some time.
Many friend who passed was influential to me in starting this process towards surgery, and regaining my health. Although I won't be able to hear him cheering me on, I know that his love and support surrounds me as I continue to walk towards surgery and a healthier life.
Jessy, I love and miss you terribly. I won't let you down.
