hopefulnickster
Well, I guess my story is just like everyone else's here. I spent my entire childhood fighting the battle of the buldge. My grandmother would tell me all the time that I needed to slim down. "Don't eat that- it will make you fat" she would tell me at the fragile age of 8. In high school I slimmed down thanks to an obsession with my mother's dexatrim pills. I got pregnant at the age of 16 and became very ill with eclamsia while pregnant. My daugther was born 6 weeks early- but very healthy thank god!! I gained over 100lbs with my pregnancy. I was bedridden from about 4 months preggers- and needless to say- there was not much activty to be had laying around all day. After my daughter was born I lost some of the weight- but not nearly enough. I weighed 250 at my first post-preggers appointment.
I yo-yo dieted from that day till now. I have tried them all- cabbage diet (my brother was going into the army and I got this one), atkins, weight watchers, xenical, phetamine. I lost and gained lost and gained. Today nothing has changed. I weigh 268 this week- next week I might weigh 250 and then next month maybe 270.
I know my eating habits are because of environmental affects. I come from a family of 6 kids. Growing up- it was just us and my mom. Food wasn't really an abundant item in our home sometimes-and when it was around- we scarfed up whatever we could possible fill in our tummies. Today, I still eat the same way. Sometimes I worry that tomorrow I will end up poor and broke, and there won't be any food. I go to the grocery store and buy more food than I need because I want to have a backstock in case tomorrow I lose my job and I am out of work- I don't want my child to starve. I have received counseling for my "eating habits" but it doesn't work. I don't make horrible food choices- it's just how much I eat of that one item. I eat until I can't eat anymore. Don't worry- I am attending counseling for my eating habits now- before my surgery.
I have chosen WLS because this curse stops with me. My mother, grandmother, sisters, aunts- they are all 100lbs or more overweight. My daugther is beautiful- and perfect. I don't want her to become overweight. I want to be a good example for her. I want to show her the example of eat right- in correct portins, exercise- and you will stay healthy. I can't do that for her right now- but she is still young enough that I really think I can be the mom she deserves and the example that she needs. I don't want to be "that mom" . You know the one that I am talking about- the chubby one that the other kids make fun of. I want to be the cool mom- that one that is vibrant and active- full of energy and confidence.
