ihaveaninnerskinny
On the road to meeting my InnerSkinny!!
Jan 18, 2010
Hmmmmmm where to start.... I figure since I've been lurking around on OH for a few months now and I'm weeks away from a surgery date I should get my arse in gear and start my personal page....
I'm 39 years young and I've been fighting a weight problem since about the age of 12. I started putting on the pounds and it just snowballed from there. I was the chubby, chunky, big boned girl in the family (well on my moms side anyway). Dads side of the family is pretty much made up of "big stock" so I come by my size genetically and by the fact that I like food.
I never really gave notice to my size because I was always surrounded by friends that didn't judge me, or make fun of me for being bigger. Then one day I heard the worst thing that could possibly be said .... from my dads mother. She looked me right in the face and said to me " Dear you have such a pretty face, now if only you would lose some weight". Yep nice thing to say to a grandaughter at 15yrs old. Even more surprising coming from someone who also had a weight problem. That is definitely the one thing in my life, weight related, that I will never forget.
Having said that, I've now decided that I'm tired of being the token, funny, fat girl and am starting on the road to just being the funny girl. I think (and some may not agree) that I have a pretty great personality, a wicked sense of humor and a heart that is big enough to fill this frame and then some, but I'm also sure it will be quite comfortable in a smaller home.
Now we fast forward to March 2009 when a friend turns me on to Dr. Levy. After some meetings with Dr. Levy, I'm in line for blood work, sleep studies and ultimately an appointment with the surgeon.
I met with my surgeon, Dr. John Hagen on November 23 and after reviewing my file, and a brief chat we decided that RNY was in the cards for me.
A few more meetings with the Social Workers, Nutritionist, Internal Med doc and then I wait. Not for long because on January 7th, I got 'THE CALL'. There was a cancellation with one of the other surgeons, Dr. Quoc Huynh and the office wanted to know if I was interested... YES, I AM!!! So I got a surgery date of February 9, 2009. On January 14th, I visited the hospital for all my pre-admit. stuff. On January 15th I picked up my Optifast and here I am now on the night before I will begin the next best part of my life. On January 19, 2009 I will begin my 3 week liquid pre-op diet.
Wow, talk about fast. I figured things would hit a slow down and I would wait months, and here I am 3 weeks away from the day when my Inner Skinny gets ready to dig her way out.
Will I miss the old, bigger me???.... Maybe a little, Maybe not at all. Guess time is going to tell but I can say that I am definitely excited about taking this step in the direction of a healther me. I'm looking forward to being able to shop off the rack, to be more comfortable in an airplane seat, have an easier time with seatbelts, and most of all, being able to run around and play for longer periods of time with my 3yr old niece and not have to sit and take a breather!!!
I have an awesome family and great friends who are very supportive of me and I made a promise to myself and them that I will make them proud, and dammit I'm gonna do just that!
So here goes...... Tomorrow morning I will raise my glass of Chocolate Optifast and toast to a newer, healthier, happier me and make everyone more proud of me than they already are, me included!!!
