inara_rowan
Just Around The Corner
Nov 07, 2009
OK. Tuesday is the big day, I have been fine until now. My sister to ask what time my surgery was scheduled for (I am staying with her the night before and a week after because her house is closer to the hospital than mine) just as we were about to hand up she said "ok, ill see you monday" that is when it hit me. there isn't any "this month" or "next week" I am having surgery on tuesday and I am scared. The only thing I keep thinking is "I don't want to die" wich is a complete over reaction but I can't get it out of my head. Please tell me somone out there had the same thoughts and I am not a chicken little. I think I am going to call ahead and reserve that zanax I know they have.
I feel very tired today, I think it is because I am having a hard time with protien so I am only takeing 30g or so a day and it is leaving me run down. i need to do better than this. The good news is that I only have 4 Lbs to lose before I am at my required surgery weight. The bad news is that I am supposed to go to my Aunts house for family game night and she is ordering Pizza. I think I will have a "headache" tonight.
