Unsettled

Jan 30, 2014

By Monday, I should hear when the first appointment with the surgeon and seminar will be. So far, everything has gone smoothly, and hope it continues before I get a permanent case of the jitters. Looking forward to the new challenge! Like most of you, I have had obesity issues since just before puberty. Both sides of hte family going back three generations (that I can prove with pictures, anyway) were also obese. Of course, there are many reasons for obesity -- habit, family tradition, using food as punishment/reward, addiction, using food for comfort, etc. I think our family probably does all that.

I was very athletic after the age of 14, though, and that has barely kept things at bay until illness and injury stopped me from working out to the extent I was used it. Things are better now, and I want to get back in shape before I am too old to enjoy it/too old to have the surgery! I was complaining about my brother, who is dying at a young age because he refuses to do anything to help himself. Several people in my family have done just exactly that and I mourned all of it for the duration. Well, I suddenly realized I am no better than they are if I don't take this opportunity to help myself by having this surgery. Especially since nothing else has worked so far. Getting at least some of the weight off will allow me to exercise without so much pain, and will stop the vicious circle thats going on now.

I work in the medical field, so am not as much afraid of the surgery as i am of having it fail on down the road, or turn out to be a mistake in case I get a serious illness and the VS makes it harder to get well. I was born with a defect in my immune system and don't make antibodies. But I know that the medicine I take for that will work better if I lose some weight, and less weight is easier on the immune system anyway, becasue it doesn't have to work so hard (better circulation of the lymph system, for example). It's been a pleasure reading all the stories on this website and especially good to see all the great support that's given out. Life is supposed to be an adventure, so...I say, Let the Adventure Begin!

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