j_walker

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My Lap Band surgery is set for January 10, just 8 days away.  I am starting to get nervous.  Can I do it? Can I break all the bad habits I have?  I must start planning my meals, I must exercise EVERY day, I must not eat white food.  That last one will be very hard!  But I must change...that is why I am having this surgery in the first place.  I don't like my body anymore and I want my old one back!  I had a great body before kids, then I gained 80 lbs. with my first and didn't lose much of the weight before I got pregnant again.  Well now I am about 90 lbs. overweight and can't seem to get the weight back off.  All the diets wouldn't work long-term...I always seemed to put any I lost right back on.  So here I am getting fatter and fatter every year!  My youngest is now 4yrs. old, so that can't be my excuse anymore!  I am excited about the possibility of watching what I eat and excercising and actually seeing progress for it.  I am really results-driven, so when I used to excercise, I never saw any weight loss and would get frustrated and stop.  With the lap band, I am optimistic that when I excercise and eat right, I'll actually see the weight come off, and that will just motivate me more!

So, I guess my nerves are also excitement for the future and what that holds for me.  I know that if I just follow the "rules of the tool" and do what I am suposed to, then everything will go well.  Goodbye 256...170 I am coming for you!