Janu69
Hi my name is January. I am 38 years old. I have been married to the most wonderful man for 5 years. Between us we have 6 teenagers. I have always had a "weight" problem. I always had a high self esteem and was very outgoing. I hated it but yet I didn't let it control me...Seven years ago I quit smoking and then here come more weight...Its amazing what 25 pounds can do to a person. I maintained the same weight for several years but then all of a sudden I had a top gut...I had a spare tire all the way around ...I couldnt wear my clothes..I couldn't shop at regular stores. I ignored it awhile but it sure didnt' go away..it started eating at me...it started living my life for me...I was no longer in control...I know longer walked, danced or had any kind of activity in my life. I started to hate myself. My husband always tell me how beautiful I am and how sexy I am but I want to puke when he tells me that. I can't imagine what he sees....I asked him one day and he said..."I see you" I tried to pull the old me back out but she wouldn't come out..I have been stuck in here now for a very long time suffocating behind sadness. I tried hiding by making my own "fat" jokes but then I found I had diabetes, high blood pressure, thyroid, high tryglicrides,and irregular heartbeat...this was all found in a 7 month period...now it wasn't about weight anymore...its my health...I have a daughter graduating this year and have no energy to enjoy it....I have tried to become healthy but can't seem to get over that hump....I want to be healthy and I want to enjoy time with my kids before they all are grown. I have researching for several years now and finally broke down and went to a seminar with OWLO. Three weeks later I found out my insurance is going to cover my surgery..I just sat down and cried. I was so overwhelmed. THis is the start of my new journey...I am not sure when my surgery is going to be. I am in the first stages of getting things set up and scheduled. Please keep me in your prayers and I would love to hear success stories....I would love to have some support. I have friends and family but would love to have someone that has actually experience this. To all of you that are in the same boat as me....well we can do it...we can walk this walk together....good luck to all.....Janu
