jazlady999
Where do I begin??? I am 5' 1" and weigh 210 lbs. I'm a 46 year old type 2 diabetic that takes shots & pills. I also suffer from depression and take pills for that. Lately my joints hurt so bad I take pills for that too. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. This is my last ditch attempt to do something drastic about my weight problem. I am addicted to sweets & diet coke (which I just recently gave up. I just wish these caffeine headaches would go away!) I can't walk up a flight of stairs without feeling like a cripple and like my heart is going to jump out of my chest. I hurt all the time. I'm tired all the time and often sleep to avoid life. I can't wear heels anymore because my feet hurt too much. I have to wear stretchy clothes just to be comfortable. My stomach is so large that a coworker thought my good news was that I was pregnant! How shameful! My legs stick together and rub. My self-esteem is so low that most times I don't wear makeup because I feel like what's the use. I am tired of living a slow death. I feel like I've been digging my grave with my fork. I've tried diets over the years without any permanent success. I've been going to OA (Overeater's Anonymous) for the last 30 years and it has helped me tremendously in areas other than food. I am scared to reveal that I'm having lapband for fear of them thinking I'm either going against the program or taking the "easier, softer way". But it has been a great support system to me. I do have fears of losing weight. It's hard for me to handle male attention or drawing attention to my looks in any way. I hate to exercise because it is so painful and unenjoyable. But now I've come to a major turning point in my life. I want to live. I want to be healthy & fit. I know lapband is just a tool. But I am ready to give this tool a major workout.
