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What AM I doing???
Feb 10, 2010
Well, I have not posted in, ummm....forever!!
Tonight we ordered pizza. I don't understand how I can put away 4 slices of pizza, and not feel like I'm going to throw it right back up??? I wasn't drinking before or with dinner. I know normally when I do drink something, food goes down much better and I can fit in a whole lot more, but tonight - no liquids.
The other, more frightening thing is - why did I not stop myself from eatting slice after slice. So what, my pouch didn't say stop. Why can I not get my brain to say STOP!!!! I am feeling very bad, guilty, low......somewhat like I used to feel, pre-surgery.
I need to stop this madness and get back on track - I have to before the weight starts piling back on again!!
I don't want to ever be where I was before!! I need help!!
4 Months Post-Op
Jul 29, 2007
Well, today is my 4-month surgiversary. About 2 weeks ago I made it to a loss of 60 pounds. Then, a few days later, it bounced back up and I was at a 58 pound loss for about the last 1 1/2 weeks. This morning I stepped on the scale expecting to see the same thing again, and I was pleasantly surprised to see that I had finally broken the plateau. I'm at 265lbs today, which is a 61 pound loss from my surgery date. Later tonight I'll take my measurements too so I can see how far I've come from last month.
It was only a few weeks ago that I had my 3-month follow-up at Duke. That went very well. All my blood work came back great and I'm happy to report that my iron level is still high, so I still do not have to take an iron supplement. They gave us the "all clear" to start eating any/all foods now, so nothing is "off limits" anymore. It's all up to me now to decide what is good/not good to put in my pouch. I must say it was nice having a list of foods that were ok, and a list of "off limits" foods too. It made it easier to say "no--I can't eat that". It's a bit scarier now since there's no more lists and it's totally up to me now. I just know I have come too far over the last 4 months to turn back now and make dumb decisions that will mess up my weight loss!
My workouts have been great. I was doing mostly water aerobics, riding the stationary bike and walking. I got with a trainer at the gym and decided to cut back on the water aerobics and add in some weight training and then some other forms of cardio as well. Last week I took a cycling class. I must say that was extremely hard, and while I wasn't able to do all the moves the instructor called out, I did keep up with the tension callouts and pedaled the entire hour. My legs were like rubber afterwards, but I did it.
So, after 4 months - I'm still thrilled I did this!! My energy level is climbing, I feel good, I've given away 3 huge bags of clothes that were too big and I'm keeping up with my little 2 1/2 year old much better these days!! I look forward to what the next month will bring and also excited that in a few months we're going to the state fair and I'll be able to fit on the rides this year with Tori :-)
It was only a few weeks ago that I had my 3-month follow-up at Duke. That went very well. All my blood work came back great and I'm happy to report that my iron level is still high, so I still do not have to take an iron supplement. They gave us the "all clear" to start eating any/all foods now, so nothing is "off limits" anymore. It's all up to me now to decide what is good/not good to put in my pouch. I must say it was nice having a list of foods that were ok, and a list of "off limits" foods too. It made it easier to say "no--I can't eat that". It's a bit scarier now since there's no more lists and it's totally up to me now. I just know I have come too far over the last 4 months to turn back now and make dumb decisions that will mess up my weight loss!
My workouts have been great. I was doing mostly water aerobics, riding the stationary bike and walking. I got with a trainer at the gym and decided to cut back on the water aerobics and add in some weight training and then some other forms of cardio as well. Last week I took a cycling class. I must say that was extremely hard, and while I wasn't able to do all the moves the instructor called out, I did keep up with the tension callouts and pedaled the entire hour. My legs were like rubber afterwards, but I did it.
So, after 4 months - I'm still thrilled I did this!! My energy level is climbing, I feel good, I've given away 3 huge bags of clothes that were too big and I'm keeping up with my little 2 1/2 year old much better these days!! I look forward to what the next month will bring and also excited that in a few months we're going to the state fair and I'll be able to fit on the rides this year with Tori :-)
2 Month's Post-Op 5/29/07
May 29, 2007
Well, today marks 2 months since my surgery. I can't believe in just 2 months how much my life has changed already. I'm now down 43 pounds, and a total of 28 inches. I can workout hard during water aerobics and still breath now. I'm not out of breath when I walk even long distances now and the best thing is that my clothes are fitting looser and looser each week.
I definitely have my "down" moments, but I take those as normal emotions after this life-altering surgery and know that in the long run, I'm so much better off than before. I find it tough at times to order at a restaurant. I think I ask all the right questions and order the most high-maintenance way I can, but sometimes the food still comes out too greasy, too soggy, etc....so I'm not able to eat it. During those moments, I have a personal pitty party with myself and momentarily mourn ordering the way I used to. It was nice not to worry about soft bread, or too much butter on veggies, etc.. But then I come back to reality and remember something my old Weight Watcher's leader used to say - "nothing tastes as good as thin feels." I was about 16 years old the 1st time I heard that, but it will stick with me forever.
I'm very happy with my results so far, and I hope it only gets better with each passing month!!!
I definitely have my "down" moments, but I take those as normal emotions after this life-altering surgery and know that in the long run, I'm so much better off than before. I find it tough at times to order at a restaurant. I think I ask all the right questions and order the most high-maintenance way I can, but sometimes the food still comes out too greasy, too soggy, etc....so I'm not able to eat it. During those moments, I have a personal pitty party with myself and momentarily mourn ordering the way I used to. It was nice not to worry about soft bread, or too much butter on veggies, etc.. But then I come back to reality and remember something my old Weight Watcher's leader used to say - "nothing tastes as good as thin feels." I was about 16 years old the 1st time I heard that, but it will stick with me forever.
I'm very happy with my results so far, and I hope it only gets better with each passing month!!!
About Me
Fuquay Varina, NC
Location
37.3
BMI
Surgery
03/29/2007
Surgery Date
Dec 10, 2006
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