jenads85
Still no restriction...
May 14, 2008
Rollin'...rollin'...rollin'...
Apr 21, 2008
Back in the saddle again...
Mar 26, 2008
Feeling hopeless...
Mar 21, 2008
Been away sick for a while, but I'm glad to be back. BRONCHITIS! YUCK! I'm going through a really rough patch right now. I was so full of joy because I was losing weight, exercising, eating right, and taking some pride in my appearance. Then...it happened. One day, just days before my last fill, the restriction left my band, and everything went to hell. I had lost enough weight so that my band loosened up, but now I am unable to feel restriction. It has been just like my pre band life, but worse. I eat just like I did before and just as much as before. I had just reached one-derland, and I was so happy. Then this happened, and now I'm back in the 200's. I was so upset that I called the doctor and explained to them what was going on and asked if I could get another fill. That, of course, was not allowed. I've gone a month like this, and I am so misserable. I see the doc on Thursday, but it just feels like it's not soon enough. I'm afraid that the next fill will be just like the last one...no restriction. Has anyone ever asked the doc for a larger than usual fill? Just keep me in your thoughts and prayers; I'm really needing them right now.
HALLELUJAH!
Feb 20, 2008
I'm at 200 lbs as of yesterday!! Should be at ONE-DERLAND in a few days! I was afraid of weighing myself for fear of disappointment. Now I'm glad I did.
Been a long time...
Feb 06, 2008
In desparation I joined Weight Watchers again for the 6th time. Somehow in the back of my mind I knew that doing another diet wasn't right, but I made excuses to people about how it was really different this time. I had to do it differently this time, but for real. Something in me changed, snapped, whatever you want to call it. I'm not sure when it happened. Perhaps it was because I didn't want $16,500 of my dad's money going to waste, or maybe it was because I felt myself pushing my husband away out of guilt and shame from my own actions. I was becoming a bitch, and I felt the change in myself accutely. Perhaps that was when God stepped in.
I can't account for my renewed desire and strength, but I had been praying for the answer to my problems for a while. All I can say is that I voluntarily worked out 3 times last week, I quit the diet, I choose to eat breakfast, I don't even look at the part of the menu with the unhealthy crap, I get to bed fairly early, and I feel happier. I still falter, but now I don't feel like the end of the world is nigh because I ate some salmon fettuccini. I'll eventually master this whole healthy living thing, eventually there won't be "slip-ups", and I can feel that I'm finally closer to that life than I have ever been before. Dreams are attainable for all of us, and I see mine coming true every day.
PS - I started a fitness group in January, and I'll be taking belly dancing lessons starting Feb. 26. I am also reading "The Way of the Belly" by Veena and Neena Bidasha which is helping me rediscover my femininity, sensuality, and mystery. I recommend it to all you ladies while on your weight loss journey.
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
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Jun 22, 2007
Tomorrow I will be taking my first steps towards Lap Band. I will be attending my required orientation in Overland Park, and I am really looking forward to it. I feel like I've been waiting for this process to start for ages, and now here I am! I'm hoping to be able to have the surgery by the end of the summer. When I get the notion to do something there's no stopping me, and I'm not very patient. I'd get this done tomorrow if I could; I just don't see any point in postponing something if you know it's the right thing to do.