Jeniffer G.
3 month update... a little late
Jul 23, 2009
As for food... the relationship is totally different. I really did not believe that I had an emotional relationship with food until about 3 weeks out of surgery. All of a sudden I had this horrible feeling of loss. I missed food. Not just food but the quantity of food that I was able to eat before. I wanted pizza! and not just half a slice! I wanted 5 slices like I used to be able to eat! Somewhere along the line that has all changed though. I get moments where I want something and generally I have it if its not pure carbs or something. I can eat so little at one time that its not like I can do too much damage if I occasionally have something that is not in my general "good foods category".
Self confidence... still not great. It doesnt register how funky your body is going to look as it goes through these stages until you are actually going through them and happen to look at yourself in the mirror while you are naked... I am getting the batwings! and my boobs could use a pair of tube socks as a bra right about now! and lets not even get into the whole excess skin in the stomach area. I just keep having to remind myself that in all honesty I wasnt gonna be winning any bikini contests before surgery either! and I did this for my health above all else.
This surgery has been a miracle for me even at only 61 lbs down. I can WALK for HOURS now without feeling like I am going to die. Before I had surgery I was in pain after about 5 minutes of walking. I went for a 9 mile bike ride with my husband a couple weeks ago and it was wonderful! granted my ass hurt for more than a week but I made it. I never would have made it before. I would have stopped half way and told my husband to go get the car and pick me up. I can even RUN after my son when we are playing now.... granted I have to be careful though because occasionally that extra skin likes to make some noise if I jump or something and ... well... that is effing humiliating!
Wows...
I can bend over while in my seatbelt in the car and reach my purse on the floor or untie my shoes. (My husband always had to hand me my purse if I needed it while we were in the car before)
Sex is so much more fun with some of the fat gone!
I have knuckles again.
Ankles! I lost my ankles for a while...
My butt hurts when I sit on a hard surface :(
I can feel bones in my body that I have not been able to feel in I dont know how long.
I am sure there are more but that is all I can think of now. Sorry this is so long but I have been a slacker about updates.
I have a date!!!!!!!!
Feb 19, 2009
Change of heart... well not really just following my heart!
Jan 11, 2009
When I initially had started the process for wls I had started with Dr. Rabkin in San Francisco and was planning to get the DS. I filled out all my paperwork and sent it in. Then I went to schedule my appointment for my consultation and the gentleman at the office told me that they required a 300.00 deposit at that time and then when they actually scheduled my surgery they would require the remainder of $8,400.00. Well I had to make the decision at that point that I could not afford to do that... after all I dont just have a cool 10k sitting in the bank I still wanted a DS so I started calling EVERY wl surgeon I could find within 200 miles of me. Everyone seemed to require a large deposit that did DS not to mention I had a lady at one of the offices really greatly discourage me from doing it, she told me it was still a very experimental surgery and that I would most likely not get it covered by insurance. So I settled for RNY. Even had my first appointment scheduled with Dr. John Morton as you can see in my earlier posts. Well thank god for surgery wars because a ton of useful information was brought to the boards so I started thinking "why am I going to settle for the surgery I did not want in the first place. Then I remembered it was the money factor. Well after calling and speaking to my parents in a fit of total sobbing frustration they said they would talk amongst eachother and see if they could lend me the money until insurance paid. I called my mom the other day to let them know the time frame because my dad had asked when I would need the money. She told me there should be no problem with that. I feel so truly blessed at this time because I really didnt think my parents would even be supportive of wls as when I spoke about it a couple years ago they were NOT. I have a supportive husband and children as well as friends/coworkers and now my parents are too... to the point of even lending me the money to do it. What more could someone ask for??? I dont think I could ask for much more than this if I tried. I feel so lucky that I just dont know what to do with myself. I have scheduled my consult with Dr. Rabkin for Feb. 11, Hopefully all goes well!
Yippeee!!!!
Jan 08, 2009
Yay! answers to my questions!
Jan 06, 2009
Frustration, Anxiety Etc...
Dec 31, 2008
I am feeling frustrated, anxious and just plain miserable the last week or so! I am not a patient person. When I want something I want it NOW not a year or more from now! I know its the holiday season and maybe people are out of the office but I want a response to my email that I sent over a week ago to the surgeons office. My first appointment is not for 6 months! I sent an email asking her if it is possible to put me on a cancellation list if they have one, if all my appointments are going to have a 6 month wait between them and if so can I make them in advance, If I should make an appointment to see the Psych person there since I live in BFE and nobody specializes in bariatric surgery stuffs, I also asked if it would help if I started having my weight charted now by my PCP who I have an appointment with on Jan 13th. So far I have not gotten a response and I am irritated because I have been waiting for too long to start the process and now I just have to wait more! I know I am rambling but I needed to vent and get this out somewhere so here it is.
Jeni
Approved as a Candidate for Surgery
Dec 22, 2008