Less than 20 days left...

Sep 15, 2009

It's exciting and scary for me at the same time to realize how much my life will change 3 weeks from now! I'm excited to realize all the possibilities out there for me to do things ive never done. That I could be coming off all my meds. My diabetes , high blood pressure, PCOS and other medical issues my finally leave my body.
I wanna be able to sleep at night without waking up a zillion times because my arms are asleep from where I layed on them. Or because I have to lift my body to roll over. I wanna know what it's like to shop in the regular department store for clothing again. I wanna take my son go karting. I wanna run! I wanna eat to live not live to eat. I wanna be ALIVE instead of existing!
The scary part for me is just the unknowns of the surgery itself. There are just little things about it that make me uneasy. But I have every confidence in my surgeon and every faith in God that whatever his plan for me is will be the outcome in the end.
I'm ready to live again...really live and experiance all that life has to offer..I don't want to be a spectator any more..I WANNA BE IN THE GAME~

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