Joshua Beck

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I'm about 6 months out from surgery.  Life is much different, but in a good way!!!  I've lost around 110 pounds now and I way around 257.  I feel great, my ankle has improved alot!!  I'm still wanting to lose more, it gets much harder as time goes by too!!  Anyone feel free to ask me any questions or leave comments.... THANKS!

Well I am now about 3 months and 1 week out from surgery!!  My potassium and protein levels got critically low but are on the rise now I believe.  I started at 365 and am now tippin' the scales at around 278 so I have lost around 87 POUNDS IN 12 WEEKS!!!!  I'm alot happier about the surgery now then what I was, I was in a 48 waist and now fit into a 40-42!!! I still got a ways to go but I SEE THE LIGHT AT THE OTHER END OF THE TUNNEL!!!!!!!!!

Well It's been the weirdest 6 weeks of MY LIFE.  VERY HARD at times and then there are times were some smiles get it there too, lol.  I have lost 45 pounds so far (365 down to 312) I have to go Monday to get my Stricture* fixed with a simple out patient surgery, i'm sure all of you know what that is.  I have had a very hard time getting in Vitamins, water, and Protein liek I'm supposed to.  I'm hoping the taste will get better with the Protein.  I'm very happy with the progress I have made so far but I hope it gets easier from here! 

I couldn't sleep good last night from being so sore, the gas is still rumbling inside and really bothering me.  I kept waking up in the middle of the night with an awful taste in my mouth, I hope tonight is much better.  Some good news though, I started my "Isopure" protein drink today and it seems to be going down pretty good.  the experience so far has been tough, I hope tonight and tomm is much better...

My long wait is finally over, I only had to stay in the hospital one night, so I'm happy to get to sleep in my own bed tonight!!  The surgery went well, it was rough, but about what I exspected, except for the Cath and the drain tube!!! They both bothered me alot and was very painful when taken out.  I had the best Doctor (Robert Richard) and the best group of nurses.  I ate clear liquids today and I held all of it down so I think I'll be alright.  I still have alot of gas build up and its bothering me alot, but I'll post again when I get some rest....

I have struggled with weight problems my whole life, but the worst has come with my last few teenage years.  I was at 200 pounds in middle school and was "overweight" but I told myself I would NEVER hit 250, when it slowly but SURELY creaped up on me, I said I would never weight 300 NO MATTER WHAT IT TOOK!! (YOU ALL KNOW HOW THIS STORY WORKS) but when my weight became 360 POUNDS and had attacked my physical and emotional life is when I really knew I had a problem.  I have had an extreme problem with my right ankle since I was about 13 (2 surgeries only made it worse) borderline diebeties problems and overall fatigue, aching bones and not sleeping good, ect. there again most of you probably know what I'm talking about.  People who have never had weight problems DONT UNDERSTAND A WORD YOU TELL THEM, SO QUIT TRYING, TRUST ME!!" All I have heard for 5+ years is "quit eating so much, drink more water, get more exercise, ect." BEEN THERE, DONE THAT!!  My life grew to be even worse when I "ALL OF A SUDDEN REALIZED"  I had alot of friends that were girls and NO girlfriend, when all my friends were going to Six Flags and I pretended like I didnt like theme parks (I LOVE THEME PARKS!!!!) because I became TOO big to fit in the rides, when normal cars just became TOO uncomfortable, when I could only wear clothes from big and tall stores or get lucky and find things here and there, when I was affraid I wouldnt be able to fit into resturant, sports stadiums, and theatre seats, or that they would be TOO uncomfortable to enjoy the experience.  I have such a 'BIG,SOFT, and LOVING" heart that has always went unnoticed because of my weight, so I'm just known as the "class clown" (who never made it to a Prom).  I quit school my junior year and got my G.E.D. not long after.  I think my weight really contributed to why I quit school, the desk were too little and it was for one EMBARRASSING and two TOO uncomfortable to even pay attention.  I have struggled with getting into some trouble, not getting jobs I really wanted, losing some best friends and even a few family members friendship due to fights, struggling with insurence about this surgery, and dealing my my ankle hurting all the time.  and on top of all that not having a "non family member, opposite sex" person to lean on and to talk to, so I've kept all my feelings bottled up, it really stresses out a person who is 18 and is supposed to be having the time of his life.  When I found out I was covered by the insurence for surgery, honestly, it was the first time I was trully happy for longer than I can remember.  I know this surgery is not an easy fix and the aftermath will be hard and struggling at times. I'm so motivated for a better, more happy life that all the sacrifices I will have to make will all be well worth it in the end!!  I'm about to embark on a life-long journey (I get teary eyed just thinking about it) leading to a loving relationship with a beautiful girl, six flags season passes, trips to the beach and the lake with NO shirt on, buying cloths in ANY store, being able to have a job for more than two weeks and not quitting due to my ankle pain and just being socially accepted in this world!!!
I wanna thank you for reading this, I hope it motivates you as much as its gonna motivate me!!
Love, Joshua