Irritated and Frustrated!!

Jan 09, 2012

Feeling kind of down today.  I'm feeling like everything I want to do for myself ALWAYS has to be scheduled around something else.  Don't get me wrong, I love my husband and children, but at times I feel like I don't get adequate time for myself. 

I am working towards getting all my appointments in for pre-approval.  I had the consult with my surgeon, my NUT appt is tomorrow and psych appt. on Thursday.  I am also waiting for the recommendation letter from my PCP as well.  So at this rate, I will be ready to submit for insurance approval probably in the next two weeks.  Now my problem is that I have twins that were preemies that we are in the process of getting into school part-time( They will start the 1st week of Feb).  They will be 20 months this Friday and my grandmother watches them currently.  She has truly been a blessing and I don't know what I would do without her.  My twins are 28 pounds a piece and are not able to go up and down the stairs on their own yet.  They have only been walking for 4 months now.  Currently, my husband and I carry them up and down the stairs. ( All our bedrooms are upstairs)  I get the twins ready in the morning to go to grandma's house and he picks them up to go home.  It works well with our schedules.  I could arrange help for one or two weeks, but would need to be able to lift them after that.  I am very concerned and upset because I want to have surgery, but don't want to jeopardize my healing process by lifting too soon.

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