terri R.
weight of day of surgery 275 height 5'3' the height shouldnt change but i hope the weight does.
I have a date. I have a date. I go for the testing oct.31, the surgery on nov 6 2002.... not too bad.
I made my first appointment on sept. 16 2002 after a 3 month wait for the appointment.. it is very close now , only 3 weeks to surgery and a new life...
will write more after the test
oct 31 2002 ,I went today, to ocala for my pre-admission for my surgery on the 6th of nov.2002 had all the tests and am ready to go.
on the 4 hour drive home to savannah , I told each fast food resturant we came across good-bye. it was a painful good-bye but it was neccessary , they have always been there for me when i felt i needed them and I didnt feel it was right to leave them without at least a tearful good-bye and best wishes.
so all I have to do now is clean my house, go to the store, stock up on vitamins and clear broth. and search the house for any hidden carbos.... you never know those pesky little devils could be lurking anywhere. I considered calling for a priest to make sure all the carbos ,, sugers and coke a cola had beeen removed from the house , but i guess that would have been going toooo far.
weight at docs office today was 275,, bigger than i have ever been, but soon my new life must emerge.
I will update as often as I can . too all ,keep the protien shinning :)
nov.18th 2002 I went back to work today but only a couple of hours.
the surgery went fine alot more pain than i was expecting though, but i survived,
I am still wondering why I did it though, I am still hungery and the 15 pounds that I have lost I could have lost with out all the pain and the radical change to my body.
I am eating very little and i am hungery very soon afterwards, I hope when theis liquid phase is over things will change , but as of right now, O think I am going to be to the only one it didnt work on.
DEC 9 2002, sorry i havent updated ,I am not much of a writer, so I will try to do this aalittle more often.
I went the 5th of dec for my 4 week check up. they removed the "g: tube and boy was i glad to see that gone, i wont miss it at all. it was a little painful . but not bad.
i lost 30 pounds at my weight in so that made things a little easier to handle.
I still have troble drinking anything unless it is heated, they didnt know why. so to say the least i am not getting in the amount of fluids as i should.
i drink my protien shake and try to eat but it hurts most of the time. cream of wheat seems t be about the only thing i eat that stays with me and doesnt hurt.
GOD I WANT A PIZZA.
sorry i digress.
i still cant honestly say i am glad i did it i am tired alot and sick to my stomach alot and dont seem to have any drive at all.
i am on soft food now so the varity is better but there are only a couple of things that seem to agree with me.oh well
i guess things will get better. time will tell.ok so will will try to update oncde amonth and let you know how it is going.
1/17/03
things are getting better, as of last week i am down 50 pounds, i havent weighted in abpout 5 days because i was getting addicted to the scales and when it wasnt moving i was in a deeep depression, and spent the whole day feeling like a failure.
so i am not getting on the scale till next wednesday and then i will see. hope there is a loss of some kind or i dont think i can take it.
i still get kind of sick to my stomach alot but i dont throw up any more. i cant seem to drink all my fluids though, i am never thirsty, have no idea why.
i drink my shake in the morning and a protien bar for lunch, dinner at nigh varies. tonight i had a lean cuisene but couldnt finsh it , about 3 hours later i was hungry again and i finsed it.
about the only thing that really agrees with me is cheese, weird huh?
i will try to get back on here when i weight next week and post the weight.
nite all.
JAN 26 /03
well I weighted and am down 56 piunds so far, the only real problem is I have what i think are pretty severe stomach cramps after I eat anything at all. this has been going on for about 8 days now I have an apt with my PCP wed for blood work and then one with my surgeon feb 3rd hopfully someone can tell me why and what to do about it is getting pretty bad, i dont know if i can keep this up, i have tried tums , pepto bismol and even milk of mag. so far no help,
i will update when i find out something
FEB.3 2003 weight 215 that is a 60 pound lost in 3 months , i was very happy with it even though sometimes i feel like a slow loser , it is coming off.
I ask the docotor about my stomach cramps and she said 'i have no idea" i cant say that made me feel any better. she said my blood test were all fine , my weight loss was fine , but that i was alittle dehydrated. take in more fluids, and again i said " that is when i get the bad stomach cramps, and again she said "thats weird i dont know why that would happen, drink more anyway ,,, SIP SIP SIP , was her final answer. oh well.
my pcp put me on zantac and that seems to help so i guess i will take them and see.
she also told me i could try any food i wanted now with of course the exception of sugar and fatty foods and eat what i could tolerate. that is good news i was getting really sick of soft stuff, if i ever see another bowl of jello again i am going to run really fast, of course that running wont hurt me either.
so i guess i am fine, i dont go back for 3 more months but i will try and remember to check in here and keep you posted, thanks to everyone for all your support.
feb 18th 2003
wight 210 that is a loss of 65 total. I checked my BMI today and it is now 37 , yeah. no longer consider severly obese. I always hated the word obese. it is such a nasty word.
still having bouts of pain on the right side below my ribs. some days no pain other day alot. still dont know what it is , but I really think it is my gall bladder acting up. I guess I will just wait and see. I dont have to go back to the doc till may . so by then maybe we will know for sure.
eating different foods now and loving it. some foods still dont agreee with me very well/ the other night I had a lean cusiene , it was shrimp pasta and veggies I ate the shrimp and some of the veggies but none of the pasta,I was full anyway . started having alot of pain and within 30 mins all of what i ate came back up. that is the second time I have tried srimp and the second tiime it didnt stay with me. I bet I dont try that for a long time.
well good luck to all of you and I will check back really soon.
3-01-2003
WEIGHT TODAY 202 DOWN 73 POUNDS.
FAT CLOTHES
I HAVE lost 80 plus pounds several times in my life, and each time i give away my fat clothes. t have lost alot of weight several times in my hen as usual, I gain it all back plus some. only to find myself havving to buy more and more clothes. the last time i lost 85 pounds, was in 1998. this time like the others i gave away all the x's well of course in a 4 year period I gained it all back plus some. I didnt trow away my smallers sizes this time like i had before. and well today i am 3 months and 3 weeks post op with a 72 pounds loss, so i went to the closet and gathered them all up pack them away in those space savers and printed FAT CLOTHES. at the same time I pulled out all the 16s, 14s, and 12s hung them neatly in the closet so this time I have clothes. I will never give away my xs' again I am afraid if I do I will gain it all back......I still have 70 pounds to goal, that is my dr's goal but only 50 to mine, either way atleast I have a few things to wear. If and when I get to goal and maitain atleast 5 years,I will pull out the box marked,FAT CLOTHES and create a sculpture of some kind out of them, but untill that day comes they will remain tucked away in the box and my mind as FAT CLOTHES.MARCH 10 2003 I am 4 months 4 days post op and I finnally went below 200 today i weighted 198. believe me I was very happy.
I am still having discomfort in my right side and or my pouch area. I dont get in all my fluids because it water tea or cyrstal light still dont agree with me. i am also having problem with my bowels if I dont take milk of mag pretty regula I am not,ha ha, then i get pain in my lower tummy, not sure why I keep having all these weird pains, but I would still do it again. my skin is looking pretty bad but i hope it will tighten up some with time. i dont plan on ever wearing a bikini anyway
so i will be ok.
my husband has gone to kuwait so I have been depressed and alittle anxious lately but I guess I will be until he comes home.
so untill next month,,,, happy losing!!!!!!!!
april 7th 2003. well it has been 5 months now since surgery and this month has been a slow month, weight today is 190 that is 85 pounds down, i guess i should be real happy but after loseing so fast in the beginning it is hard to handle such slow loses now.
eating and drinking is all fine now, still cant handle fish for some reason but most everything else is ok. i was hopeing to reack 100 pounds by the 6th month but that means i will have to lose 15 pounds this month and as slow as i am losing i doubt if i will make it. i did have to break down and buy new clothes, which of course was soooo hard for me i hated every minunte of it ,,,,,,NOT,,,,
my husband in in kuwait and probably wont be home for awhile. i hope to be atleat 150 by the time he gets home. atleast now i weight less than he does so that is a good feeling.
lately i am trying to drink 2 shakes a day because i am afraid i m not getting enough protien in. my hair is filling up my hairbrush after each use. i do have thick hair so as of yet it doesnt show too bad but if this keeps up, i may be looking for wigs, hopfully it will end in a couple of months and the new hair will start growning back in, i have read all the stuff on the libary on this site and there doesnt seem to be much that can asure the slow down of hair loss. on another subject the sex drive is gone too but then thjat isnt a bad thing because my husband is deployed so it isnt anything i or he will miss.well i guess that is about it till next month, i will keep you posted.
thanks for all the help i have recieved,,,my new favorite song is a it is a small world.......luck to you all
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4/24/03 'our self esteem', Content = 'I went to my PCP today to have my blood test run.I have to go to a army clinic because my husband is army ,{duh} anyway . I always hate going there because we always had to weigh in and the first thing all the docs and people there always said weight is the cause of most of the problems, I was on the defendisve the minute I got out of my car. today when I went I was 90 pounds lighter, and feeling pretty good, the person at the registration desk was nice the nurse was nice the lab tec was nice, everyone i came in contact was nice to me,,,,,,. hmmmmm was it because i wasnt the fatest person there anymore. was it because, i was dressed better, was it because it was a sunny day. was it because they had all had a 3 drink lunch. I dont know, but then it dawned on me . I was nicer to them I smiled when I came in contact with each one of the different people I mentioned before. I spoke to them, I wasnt on the defendsive, about my weight, I wasnt waiting for someone to say the 'fat" word. som maybe just maybe it hasnt been everyone else, maybe just maybe it was my low self image, that made me expect the worst from people I met, hmm. what do all you great people think.? thanks terri
april,30 2003 my 6 month is not due until the 6th of may but I may not be able to weigh then or post,I will be out of town, so this is early. I weighted 179 today that is a 96 pound loss. I was hoping to lose 100 by my 6th month, and I guess I may make it , but I will have to lose 4 pounds by the 6th. if I get near a good scale by then and can update I will..till next month...
may 20th 2003 well i made it to the 100 pound loss . it finally happen, but it seems to be stuck here now. i cant complain though this is the most i have ever lost. i seem to be getting hunger sooner now and want to eat alot more at night . i am keeping mycalories below 1000 and trying to eat the protein first so maybe i will start losing again soon.i weigh 175 and am still 45 pounds from doctors goal but only 25 from my goal. i will gladly take either one. i am away from home and have been for a month now. i wont be home on my computer for another month. i will update then. bye for now
JUNE 7TH 2003
i am now 7 months post op and todays weight was 169. it is really comming off slow now but it is still comming off so i cant grip.
i am still trying to stay under 1000 calories and it seems to be enough. but i would really love to have some of those fast loseing months back. it is so slow now.
i still have times when some things i eat dont want to stay down but that is fine with me. the skin is another problem. at 48 it is looking really bad,i hope as time goes buy it will get better cause right now there is no way i will wear shorts in public.
the hair is still comming out, but i had thick hair so it is still ok for now, if it keeps up past the 8th month i may be in real trouble.well till next month, keeping loseing
JULY 6TH 2003
WELL it has been 8 months now and i am really glad i did this. weight now is 160 that is 115 pounds lost. i only lost 9 pounds this month but as long as i am still loseing i dont mind the slowness. the hair has stopped falling out so that is another good thing. as a matter of fact i cant say anything bad right now.except my clothes get bigger by the day. not too long ago i would never dry any of my clothes because i was sure they all shrunk. but i dont think that is so true now. i dry everything hoping they will shrink, but they dont. i have taken some in as much as i can. i am noot going to buy anymore summer clothes becaUSE I CAN makeit till fall i hope. now shoes are another story all together. i am buying lots of shoes cute sandles of all types because i can wear all of them without pain. I LOVE IT.
i can eat about anything now just much less. i stay away from most carbs encluding chips, which, i kinda miss. but it is ok.
all in all this is a great life now,,,,,,,yeepeeeeeeeeeeeee
AUG 9TH 2003.. THINGS ARE PRETTY GOOD. i am weighing 150 now so that is another 10 pounds gone. i can wear anywhere from a 8 to a 14 depending on who makes them. i wish they would all get their sizing right.
i have had alot of problems with gas, up high, i dont know why but it has been very painful at times. i can seem to eat just about anything but still ver little i am still always under 1000 calories a day. i go back to the doc on the 18th of the month and will ask them about it.
i will write more when i know. bye for now.
oh be careful buying to many clothes , i thout 12 14 would be as small as i would get and some of them are too big now, so please dont go crazy like i did.
loss so far 125 pounds in 9 months
i have reached my personal goal of 150 now on to the docs goal of 130.
sept 9 2003 hmmmmmmmmmm this is the 10th month and things are going very slow now, by my scales i am at 143 but i think it is closer to 145, no, i can gripe, i am still loseing but darn i miss the old days.
shin looks pretty bad but, it didnt really look that good at 275 lbs either so, i will deal with it.
i go back to surgeon the 15th , i hope we can talk about TT.
i am wearing medium tops and 8 or 10 bottoms, cant complain, this is the smallest i have been since the 9th grade.
things are going fine i still have problems when i piss off my pouch, but then i am suppose to.
so to recap 10 months and weighing 143 down 132 from 275, not bad , not bad at all.
well till next month , bye for now
it isnt next month yet but I need to add this:
If I hear one more time that I am getting to thin I think I will scream. my father who all my life wanted me to lose and even paid me at times is now saying I am getting too thin. my mom who weighes 140 tells me I am too thin and I should stop. mind you I have a sister who is 15 months younger than me and has always been tiny, who, by the way weighes about 109. even friends are telling me to stop. now I will tell you i started this at 275 11 months ago today I weighed 139, I am only 5'3' so I dont hardly see how this is too thin.my mother and others, whenever they call the first thing out of their mouths is . what do you weigh now? I ask mom if she has ever ask my sister what she weighes and she said 'no' so why ask me. I believe that there is a possiblity i am more than my weight, maybe not. but I would hope so. i am tired of telling people what I eat and when and how much I have lost. I am tired of telling everyone why I hope to get down to 120 or 125.It seems to me that all of this attention on my weight all my life may have contributed to my gains and starvation diets to lose. I hope I can get past all of this and just be a person. maybe normal or not , what ever that is. do any of you great people feel the same way. and if so how have you dealt with it? I am very sorry to sound off llike this, and i hope i have no offended anyone. you guys are all great and I figured , if anyone could, you would all understand. thank you again for listening. I love you all.
oct 6th 2003. boy i wish i had a few more days befor i had to update but here it is. weight this morning was 140 that is 135 down in 11 months, yes, that is good but this month i have only lost 3 pounds, sad, it is so slow now.
i have an appointment with dr. jawad oct 23rd to discuss my tummy tuck, tri-care sent the appoval for the visit but of course they havent approve the tt yet, keep your fingers crossed for me cause i really need all the help i can get.
things are doing real good i can eat a larger varity of foods but still not a whole lot. my biggest problem is it seems like the foods that are the worst for me are the ones i can eat the most of.: like; cheese curls, chips and salsa, you know, all the bad ones, i tried some peanut butter cookies and i didnt dump, that made me very depressed so now i have vowed to just stay away from them or anything with over 12 grams of sugar,,, think it will work? i hope so.
well till next month bye for now. love ya all
i need to get a new photo up huh?
NOV.8TH 2003, WELL IT HAS BEEN 1 YEAR AS OF THE 6TH. IT HAS BEEN A LONG YEAR IN SOME RESPECTS BUT, A SHORT ONE IN OTHERS. I DIDNT MAKE IT TO GOAL, BUT THIS HAS BEEN A PRETTY GOOD MONTH. I LOST 7 POUNDS THIS MONTH TO PUT ME WEIGHING IN AT 133. MY DOCS GOAL FOR ME WAS OR IS 130. I SET A GOAL OF 150 AND OF COURSE I MADE IT THERE SO I WENT ON TO HIS. MAYBE I WILL MAKE IT BY NEXT MONTH.
MY TOOL IS WORKING VERY WELL STILL. I CANT EAT ALOT AT ONE TIME, UNLESS IT IS CHEES CURLS OR SOMETHING I SHOULDNT. SO I REALLY HAVE TO KEEP AWAY FROM THE BAD STUFF. I DONT DUMP ANYMORE, I WISH I DID, I HAVE TESTED IT A FEW TIMES AND LOW AND BEHOLD JUST LIKE ANY JUNK I TRY IT SITS VERY WELL. BELIEVE IT OR NO THE ONLY THINGS I HAVE PROBLEMS WITH ARE THE FOODS THAT ARE GOOD FOR ME. SEAFOOD DOESNT SIT WELL AND SOMETIMES EVEN CHICKEN, SALADS ARE ROUGH SOMETIMES TOO. NOW STAK AND PORK DO GREAT, STRANGE HUH?
I WENT THE 23RD FOR MY CONSULT FOR MY TUMMY TUCK . I WENT TO THE SAME SURGEON WHO DID MY WLS. THEY ARE SENDING THE PAPER WORK IN TO TRY AND GET IT APPROVED. WE MADE THE PICTURES LOOK AS BAD AS WE COULD. I CALLED THE OTHER DAY TO CHECK ON IT AND IT IS STILL PENDING. I REALLY HOPE IT GOES THRU. I AM GETTING SICK OF WACHING MY TUMMY RISE TO THE SURFACE OF THE TUB WHEN I AM BATHING.
THE REST OF MY BODY LOOKS PRETTY BAD TOO, I HAVE GONE FROM A 42 D BRA TO A 34 C AND ACTUALLY I DONT FILL IT VERY WELL.
I USE TO GET COMMENTS ON HOW I DONT LOOK MY AGE BUT AFTER SEEING MY AFTER PICTURE ON HERE THAT WILL STOP FOR SURE. I THINK A COMPLETE FACELIFT IS IN THE CARDS, JUST NOT SURE HOW I WILL PAY FOR IT.........
I FIGURE I LOOKED REALLY BAD BEFORE THE SURGERY IN CLOTHS OR OUT NOW I JUST LOOK BAD WITHOUT CLOTHES. CANT HAVE EVERYTHING, RIGHT?
I BOUGHT 2 NEW PAIR OF JEANS TODAY 1 IN A 8 AND 1 IN A 6, SAME BRAND I DONT KNOW WHY THE FIT ABOUT THE SAME.
WELL I GUESS I WILL CLOSE THIS AND UPDATE WHEN I HEAR ABOUT THE TUMMY TUCK. TAKE CARE ALL.
nov 11 2003 I am very excited , only 5 days after my 1 year aniversary i made it to my doctors goal of 130. I have been here for 2 days now so I think it is for real....275/145/130... I owe alot of it to all of you. I come here every night. this site and all of you great people help keep me on track. thank you for all your help. love terri
DEC 8TH 2003, WELL IT HAS NOW BEEN 13 MONTHS, THE NEWNESS HAS WORN OFF. THIS HAS BEEN A CRAZY MONTH. I AM STILL AT 130 WHICH IS GOOD BUT I AM AFRAID I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW THE MAINTENACE HAPPENS NOW, I HAVENT CHANGED MY EATING AT ALL AND HAVE NOT LOST ANYTHING. HOW DID MY BODY KNOW TO STOP NOW.I AM REALLY CONFUSED.
I ACTUALLY SAW SOME GAINS AROUND THANKSGIVING BUT I KNOW IT WAS WATER WEIGHT, CAUSE I GAINED 6 POUNDS OVER NIGHT. I RETAIN WATER VERY EASILY AND ALLWAYS HAVE SO THE SALTY FOODS OVER THE HOLIDAYS GOT TO ME. I LOST IT PRETTY EASY WHEN I WATCHED THE SALT AND INCREASED MY FLUIDS.
I CAN EAT MORE NOW BUT I AM VERY CARFUL AND WHEN I HAVE A DESIRE FOR , SAY CHEETOES, I BUY A TINY BAG INSTEAD OF THE LARGE ONE AND LO AND BEHOLD THE DESIRE IS GONE AFTER A SMALL AMOUNT . BEFORE I WAS BUYING A BIG BAG AND EATING THEM IN 2 DAYS AND GAINING ALOT OF WATER WEIGHT.
I DONT DUMP ON SAY 2 OR 3 COOKIES OR A TINY PIECE OF CAKE BUT LAST NIGHT I HAD 3 1 INCH FLAT SQUARES OF CHOCOLATE MINT AND YES I DUMPED. I GOT HOT AND VERY SICK TO MY STOMACHE. SO I WAS GLAD THAT I HAVE TO STAY ON THE MODERATE SIDE OF THE GOODIES.
I BOUGHT 1 SIZE 4S TODAY AND 2 MORE SIZE 6 JEANS AND THEY ALL FIT GREAT. I STILLL AM HAVING A HARD TIME WITH GOING TO THE SMALLEST SIZES ON THE RACK INSTEAD OF THE LARGEST, BUT I HAVE TO ADMIT IT IS MUCH MORE FUN.
I HAVNT HEARD ABOUT MY TT YET STILL WAITING TO SEE WHAT TRI-CARE IS GOING TO SAY. I WILL WRITE AGAIN WHEN I FIND OUT.
WELL TILL NEXT MONTH STAY LOSERS ALL OF YOU.
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JAN 6TH 2004,,,,,WELL I MADE IT TO THE NEW YEAR AS A NEW PERSON AND I KNOW THIS YEAR WILL BRING MANY MORE CHANGES FOR ME, ALL FRO THE GOOD I HOPE.
I WEIGHTED IN THIS MORNING AT 125, 5 POUNDS BELOW DOCS GOAL FOR ME. BELIEVE ME I COULDNT BELIVE IT MYSELF. I ATE ALL THE WRONG THINGS OVER MY 2 WEEKS HOME FOR XMAS, CREAM FILLED DOUNUTS, COOKIES,FRUITCAKE, SOMETHING CALL CARLIE BROWN THAT WAS HIGH IN SUGAR, IT DID MAKE ME ALITTLE SICK BUT NOT BAD.BROWNIES, BREADED PUDDING. CHIPS DIP YOU NAME IT I ATE IT AND WHEN I GOT HOME I HAD A 5 POUND LOSS. THINK MAYBE I HAD BEEN EATTING TO LITTLE BEFORE AND MY BODY WAS SCARED TO RELEASE, THAT IS THE ONLY WAY I CAN UNDERSTAND IT. NOW I AM TRYING VERY HARD TO GO BACK ON THE STRAIGHT AND NARROW, AND AM DOING OK SO FAR , EXCEPT I HAD A COOKIE TONIGHT, BAD GIRL HUH?OH WELL I AM TRYING TO THINK LIKE A THIN PERSON AND EAT WHEN I AM HUNGRY AND STOP WHEN FULL, SO FAR SO GOOD.
I STILL HAVNT HEARD ABOUT MY TUMMY TUCK. THE PICTURES THE DOC SENT IN WERE NOT ENOUGH SO BEFORE WE LEFT I HAD HUBBY TAKE SOME MORE AND SENT THEM IN, SO I AM HOPING TO HEAR SOON WHAT THE DECISION WILL BE,,,WISH ME LUCK.
I AM FEELING PRETTY GOOD NOW I STILL GET TIRED PRETTY EASY BUT I THINK IT IS BECAUSE I AM NOT WORKING RIGHT NOW AND I AM DOING VERY LITTLE, SO I NEED TO GET A JOB AND GET THIS BODY MOVING.
WELL LOSERS TILL NEXT MONTH, KISS AND HUGS TO ALL
TERRI
feb.9th.2004, month,15. I still havnt heard about my TT, i am getting tired of waiting, but then again it is tri-care so who knows. weight is still aboutin the same ranges from 124 to 127 when i am swollen, i am eating alot more now, yes i know i shouldnt but i am hungry alot now.
i did a bad thing the other night i had 6 , count them , 6 red beers, that is a beer with tomatoe juice added to it. it was so good . I didnt dump and got only slightly drunk. that was bad. i dont plan on makingit a habit, but it was great. it is the first time i have drank really since surgery.
now for the bad news, for me anyway. i hate my body, i look really bad i am not going to be able to wear short sleeves or shorts this summer. my skin is really bad, i mean bad. i cant afford all the surgery i need aleast not now so it will be a long hot summer.
now the good news, i look great in clothes, i can wear anything from size 3 low rise strech jeans to a no streach 4 to 6 depending on who makes them, small tops. and really fun boots and shoes, as long as the weather stays cool i will be looking good. maybe we will get another ice age and i wont worry about plastic surgery.
i got a job and i start wed, just in time for valentines, I am a floral designer and i thought i would get away from having to work this valentine but low and behold the first shop i applied to hired me, damn i was hoping for a reprive this year. oh well.
the only prob with the job is that all the other employess are pretty large and i noticed food all around. i think they all love to eat, plus the boss sends out for all of our lunch each day, so it is going to take alot of will power not to endulge. wish me luck
well i guess i will close so till next month wishing you all a big loss this next month. hugs and kisses
MARCH 10 2004, THIS IS MONTH 16, EVERYTHING IS STILL OK. I CANT EAT FISH YET I ALWAYS TOSS IT BACK UP, NOT SURE WHY. BUT I CAN EAT EVERYTHING ELSE. CAKE COOKIES CANDY, I KNOW ALL THE BAD STUFF. BUT I AM STILL TRYING TO KEEP MY CALORIES BELOW 1200 AND I HAVENT GAINED ANYTHING SO I GUESS I AM DOING OK. AS A MATTER OF FACT IT LOOKS LIKE I LOST 1 POUND THIS MOTH THE SCALE SAID 124 THIS MORNING.
I AM WEARING MOSTLY SIZE 4 AND IT IS REALLY WEIRD THAT IN THE LAST 15 MONTHS I HAVE GONE FROM GOING FROM SHOPPING IN THE LARGEST SECTION OF THE STORES TO THE SMALLEST, IT IS STILL HARD TO BELIEVE. ATEAST FOR ME.
I GO TO THE DOC AGAIN THE 15TH OF THIS MONTH AND I AM HOPING THEY KNOW SOMETHING ABOUT MY TUMMY TUCK. I AM SO EMBARASSED ABOUT THE WAY I REALLY LOOK.
TODY WAS ABOUT THE FIRST SELF I THINK I SAW MYSELF THE WAY OTHERS ARE SEEING ME, I WAS CHANGEING SHIRTS AND SAW MY BACK IN THE MIRROR AND COULD SEE MY RIBS IN MY BACK, WHILE JUST STANDING THERE, IT WAS KINDA SCARRY. IT LOOKED BAD.
I HAVE ALLOT MORE ENERGY AND MY FEET KNEEES AND BACK DOESNT HURT ANYMORE SO THAT IS A REALLY GOOD THING. I WOULD HAVE THIS ALL OVER AGAIN IN A MINUTE, I AM HOPING MY DAUGHTER WILL GET IT. SHE IS LOOKING INTO IT AND I HOPE SHE DOES.
WELL I GUESS I WILL CLOSE TILL NEXT MONTH UNLESS I HEAR ABOUT THE TT THEN I WILL HAVE TO UPDATE. SO TILL THEN BYE BYE, WRITE ME ANY TIME IF ANY OF YOU EVER HAVE A QUESTION, LOVE TO ALL
JUNE 21 2004 ,OK HAVE I BEEN BAD. IT HAS BEEN AWHILE SINCE I UPDATE. THERE HASNT BEEN MUCH TO POST WEIGHT HAS STAYED ABOUT THE SAME 124 TO 126 EXCEPT AT NIGHT WHEN I RETAIN ALOT OF WATER, BUT OH WELL.
CAN EAT ANYTHING ENCLUDING ALL THE WRONG THINGS BUT SEEM TO KEEP MY CALORIES BELOW 1500, WHICH IS MAINTAINING MY WEIGHT.
STILL NO WORD ON THE TT AND GETTING TIRED OF WAITING.
WELL I WILL POST MORE NEXT MONTH I PROMISE
BYE FOR NOW SEPT 8 2004, I KNOW I AM NOT UPDATING LIKE I SHOULD.
I AM NOW 22 MONTHS POST OP, STILL WEIGHING IN AT 125. I CAN EAT SWEETS VERY EASILY AND FIND MYSELF WANTING THEM OVER THE GOOD STUFF. I DONT KNOW WHY I HAVNT GAINED ANY WEIGHT BACK, I AM SO SCARED IT WILL CATUCP UP WITH ME VERY SOON. I STILL CANT EAT ALOT AT A SINGLE SITTING BUT I GET HUNGRY EVERY 2 HOURS AND I AM AFRAID I GIVE IN TO IT. AND MOST THE TIME FOOD THAT ARNT SO GOOD FOR ME.I DONT DUMP AND VERY SELDOM GET SICK , BAD HUH? OH HOW I LONG FOR THE GOOD OLD DAYS.
THEY PUT IN AGAIN FOR MY TT TRI-CARE LOST THE PICTURES SO WE ARE TRYING AGIN. WISH ME LUCK.
I HAVNT BEEN COMMING TO THIS SITE AS OFTEN AS I USE TO AND I REALLY NEED THE SUPPORT TO GET ON A MORE HEALTY EATING AGAIN. SO I WILL BE LURKING AROUND ALOT MORE OFTEN.
GOOD LUCK TO ALL
HUGS AND KISSES
dec.11,2004 ...BOY IS THE HONEYMOON OVER!!!!!!!! UNTIL JUST ABOUT 3 OR 4 MONTHS AGO I COULD STILL EAT ALL THE WRONG THINGS AND BOOM, LIKE OVER NIGHT THAT ALL CHANGED. NOW IT ISEEMS AS IF I AM HUNGRY ALL THE TIME AND CHOOSEING ALL THE WRONG FOODS. I SWORE IF I NEARED 130 I COULD TAKE HOLD AND GET BACK TO 125, WELL I AM RANGEING FROM 128 TO 132 NOW AND CANT SEEM TO GET IT OFF. I CANT SAY THOUGH THAT I HAVE BEEN TRYING AS HARD AS I COULD ,EITHER. I AM GETTING UP AT NIGHT EATING NON STOP AND ALL THE WRONG FOODS, I AM REALLY HUNGRY ALL THE TIME. I STILL GET FULL PRETTY FAST BUT IT DOESNT LAST LONG AND THE HUNGER IS BACK WITH A VENGENCE. SO FAR I CAN STILL WEAR ALL THE SAME CLOTHES , BUT I AM SO SCARED. I DONT KNOW HOW TO GET ON TRACK, I AM NOT USEING THE TOOL LIKE I KNOW I SHOULD AND AM FEELING ALL THE SAME ISSUES AND OUT OF CONTROL AS I DID BEFORE SURGERY. I DONT THINK I CAN TAKE IT IF I LET MYSELF AND EVERYONE ELSE DOWN AND GAIN THE WEIGHT BACK.,PLEAS IF ANYONE IS READIN THIS AND HASNT HAD SURGEY YET TAKE TO HEART THAT THE HONEY MOON WILL END, CHANGE YOUR HABITS NOW, WHILE YOU CAN.
LOVE TO ALL
jan 8 2005
well well does the squecky wheel get the grease or what, i have been pestering tri-care for 1 year now and have finally been approved for the abdominalplasty, i am due to have it on feb 21st.
i could have had it sooner but i am a floral designer and i would never ask to be off durning the first couple of weeks durning feb. i mean no self respecting floral person would ever skip out durning valentines, just the busyest time of the year.
not sur what to expect from the surgary except for pain so wish me luck.
weight is still holding steady from 126 to 130 depending on the day and time.
well guys i will let you know how the surgary went.
hugs to all terri
March 22 2005, I THE ABDOMANALPLASTY ON 21 FEB, AND BOY OH BOY IT WASNT EASY. THE PAIN I THOUGHT WAS PRETTY INTENSE. AFTER ABOUT THE 10TH DAY I WAS PRETTY GOOD TO GO.
DOC TOOK OUT THE TUBES AND STAPLES 10 DAYS AFTER TOO, BUT THE HOLE HE TOOK THE TUBES OUT OF BROKE OPEN ABOUT 4 DAYS LATER AND BLED ALOT FOR 2 DAYS. THEN A COUPLE OF DAYS AFTER THAT MY INCISION OPENED UP ON THE LEFT SIDE AND BLED ALOT FOR ABOUT 7 DAYS, NOT IT ISNT BLEEDING BUT DRAINING A LIGHT YELLOW FLUID FROM THE INCISION AND THE NAVAL, I AM STILL WEARING A MAXI PAD ACROSS MY TUMMY TO KEEP IT FROM BEING EVERYWHERE. I AM GETTING TIRE OF IT . NOW YESTERDAY I NOTICED THE LEFT SIDE IS VERY SWOLLEN AND RED LIKE IT WANTS TO BUST OPEN, I THINK I WOULD BE BETTER OFF IT IT DOES BECAUSE IT IS GETTING HOT AND HARD AS A ROCK. I HAVE AN APPOINTMENT ON THE 24TH WITH THE DOC IN FL SO HOPEFULLY HE CAN GET THIS ALL CLEARED UP.
I STARTED BACK TO WORK BUT I GET TIRED EASY I GUESS BECAUSE OF THE INFECTION.
BUT ALL AND ALL IT IS LOOKING PRETTY GOOD AND I HOPE WELL I KNOW I WILL BE HAPPY WITH IT WHEN IT IS ALL HEALED UP.
GOOOD LUCK TO ALL OF YOU. EMAIL ME ANY TIME
HUGS TO ALL
oct. 17th, 2005
lets see where do i start, it has been a long time since i have posted.
tummy looks pretty good, i have some strange floppy shin on each side where the incision stop, kind of like tucks, but at my age i wont be in a bikini any time soon.
weight is about the same but i have to say i got up to about 130 after the tuck, not sure way but i know how. i was eating all the wrong things. the people i work for have alot of goodies all over the shop and we can have whatever we want for lunch, so , well you know, i ate it. i cant blame anyone but my self.
my youngest daughter got refused for the surgery. they said she wasnt big enough, so in jan. she started on her own and has gone from 204 to 126. I am so proud of her. we jave kind of been doing this together so it has helped me get back down.
my oldest daughter, had the surgery in july, she is still in then early stages of finding out what she can eat and dealing with hair loss. but she is loseing great.
back to the tummy. the muscels are tight but i still have a kind of hard bulge in the lower center, it is visiable in jeans , but i know it is there.
i really need thighs, upper arms , breast and neck done, but insurance wont pay for all of that so i guess , i will stay being 51 with a 71 year old body.
but atleast now i can walk like i have a 30 years old body.
back to weight; i am weighting anywhere from 121 to 124 or 5
depending on the time of day. i am trying to watch it though.
i do not drink and sodas of any kind and try to get my protien shake in everyday. the shake doesnt fill me up like it use to
so sometimes it is very hard not to eat soon after i have it.
all of this is still a struggle every day, i have to stay on my guard all of the time. i really thought after the surgery and the loss that was it, but no way, after the honeymoon is over you have keep diet in your mind, if i dont the weight will be back on fast.
i guess i will dieting all my life.
do i sound depressed? well i'm not because before it seemed like i was on a diet all the time, or atleast thinking and feeling guilty about what i was going to eat or what i had eaten.
this is a million times better.
i would do it all over again, in a minute.
well good luck to all and i will try hard to post more often.
if i can help anyone at any time please feel free to write to me.
hugs to all
NOV. 6 2005. WELL I MADE IT TO 3 YEARS, IT HAS BEEN A LONG JOURNEY AND I GUESS IT WILL NEVER BE TOTALLY OVER.
I AM WEIGHING IN AT 115 TO 120 DEPENDING ON THE DAY AND TIME. I HAVE HEARD IT IS HARD TO LOSE AFTER THE HONEYMOON PERIOD IS OVER, BUT DONT GIVE UP IT CAN BE DONE.
I HAD MY TT IN FEB OF THIS YEAR AND ALTHOUGH I AM HAPPY WITH IT, I STILL HAVE SOME PAIN AND A POOCH DOWN LOW ON MY TUMMY. BUT ALL IN ALL IT LOOKS PRETTY GOOD IN CLOTHES.
I STILL WISH I COULD HAVE THE REST DONE BUT IT DOESNT LOOK LIKE THAT WIL HAPPEN. I JUST CANT AFFORD IT. IF IT SOUND LIKE I AM A LITTLE DOWN WELL I GUESS I AM, I AM NOT SURE WHY . THINGS ARE GOING OK BUT I AM DOWN ALOT LATELY.
I HOPE I CAN SNAP OUT OF IT SOON.
WELL NOT TOO MUCH TO REPORT I JUST WANTED TO POP IN A DO MY 3 YEAR UPDATE.
HUGS TO ALL
HI ALL. JUST A QUICK UPDATE. WEIGHT GOT DOWN TO 112 HELD THAT FOR ABOUT 10 MINUTES. I WOULD LOVE TO SEE 110 BUT I DONT THINK THAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN. RIGHT NOW I BOUNCE FROM 120 TO 118 ALMOST DAILY. I SEEM TO BE EATING AN AWFUL LOT LATELY, AND NOT GETTING MUCH IN THE WAY OF EXCERCISE. I AM NOT SURE WHY I AM NOT GAINING BUT I AM NOT GOING TO PUSH IT.
I DONT GET SICK AND ONLY DUMP IF I EAT TOO MUCH SWEETS. OH SWEETS I HAVE DEVELOPED A SWEET TOOTH FROM HELL.
CHOCOLATE IS MY DRUG OF CHOICE. WHERE I WORK THERE IS ALOT OF CANDY AROUND AND SNAKS OF ALL KINDS. I FIND IT HARD TO LEAVE IT ALONE.WHEN I AM STREESED OR DOWN OR WHEN WE ARENT BUSY, I SEEM TO EAT THE MOST. OF COURSE I AM AND ALWAYS WILL BE AN EMOTIONAL EATER. I DONT KNOW HOW TO BEAT THIS. I AM GOING TO ASK ON THE DR,JAWAD SITE AND MAYBE SOMONE CAN GIVE ME AN IDEA.
WELL I WILL CLOSE THIS NOW . WILL UPDATE AGAIN SOON.
HUGS TO ALL. may 31st 2006
HMMM I DIDNT PUT A DATE ON THE LAST ENTRY BUT I THINK IT WAS IN FEB. OF THIS YEAR. I WILL TRY TO DO BETTER.
WELL THINGS ARE ABOUT THE SAME. I GOT UP TO 126 BUT GOT BACK DOWN TO 118 BUT NOW I AM ABOUT 120 AGAIN. I CANT COMPLAIN THOUGH IT IS A FAR CRY FROM 275.
I HAD ALL MY LAB WORK DONE AND ALL IS FINE. I DO HOWEVER HAVE A KINDA PAINFUL KNOT IN MY TUMMY THAT I NEED TO FIND OUT WHAT IT IS. I HAVE HAD IT QUITE AWHILE NOW BUT JUST HAVNT GOTTEN AROUND TO CHECKING IT OUT. I GUESS I AM A LITTLE AFRAID IT IS A HERNIA AND I REALLY DONT WANT ANYMORE SURGERY JUST YET. BUT I DO NEED TO CHECK IT OUT.
I NEED TO GET ON HERE MORE OFFTEN I HAVE BEEN REALLY DEPRESSED LATELY AND SPENDING TIME HERE DOES HELP.
I AM NOT SURE AS TO WHY I HAVE BEEN FEELING SO DOWN, I HOPE I SNAP OUT OF IT SOON.
WELL JUST STOPPED IN FOR A SHORT UPDATE, HUGS TO ALL AND I WILL WRITE AGAIN SOON
7-29-06, BOY THINGS ARE KINDA BORING NOT TOO MUCH TO REPORT. JUST CHECKING IN TO UPDATE BEFORE I GET TOO FAR FROM THE LAST ONE.
WEIGHT IS STILL 120 BUT I TRY TO KEEP IT THERE. I HAVE STARTED DRINKING COFFEE TO KEEP FROM EATING. I DOUBT IF THAT IS A GOOD THING BUT I AM SO AFRAID OF GAINING BACK I WILL DO ALMOST ANYTHING TO STAY WHERE I AM. AS A MATTER OF FACT I WOULD LOVE TO GET TO 110 SO I COULD HAVE SOME ROOM TO BREATHE.
I STILL INDLUDGE IN CHOCOLATE AT WORK BUT SINCE I ONLY WORK 3 DAYS A WEEK I CAN BE GOOD THE OTHER DAYS AND SO FAR IT IS WORKING. I STAY AWAY FROM SWEETS THE REST OF THE WEEK.
I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON PAYING OFF MY BILLS SO I CAN START MAKING NEW ONES AT THE LOCAL PLASTIC SURGERY CLINIC. I AM WANTING TO HAVE MY FACE AND ARMS DONE FOR STARTERS. BUT BECAUSE I WILL HAVE TO PAY FOR IT ALL THAT WILL PROBABLY BE ALL THAT GETS DONE. NOW MIND YOU I NEED EVERYTHING DONE BUT ONE HAS TO START SOMEWHERE.
THE TUMMY TUCK I HAD LAST YEAR COULD REALLY BE IN NEED OF A REVISION SO I WILL CHECK INTO SEEING IF INSURANCE WILL PAY FOR THAT ONE.
I STILL HAVE A KNOT THAT IS SLIGHTLY PAINFUL AT TIMES AND I AM GOING TO PCP NEXT MONTH AND HOPFULLY FIND OUT WHAT IT IS. I THINK IT IS A HERNIA BUT I WILL SEE.
WELL BETTER GO .
HUGS TO ALL TERRI
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