Judeevee
5 year anniversary progress report.
Mar 14, 2009
Well, my 5 year anniversary was on March 12th, but it wasn't as great as I hoped. my lowest ever weight was 139#. People told me I was "too skinny", "looked sick", and I kind of agreed. 145# was probably just right for me, considering all the loose skin.
I now weigh 192 #.
My mistakes?
1) I should have had plastic surgery right then. I didn't have the money for surgery then and was not in a position to take out a loan. my excess skin was ridiculous. I still couldn't wear shorts or dresses as I had carried a lot of my excess weight in my legs. My thighs hung past my knees, and my calves were around my ankles. I think plastic surgery is a necessary part of the weight loss process. Your self esteem is hindered after while as you start to see yourself as still fat. I knew I looked good but still it was depressing not to be able to complete "the process" of becoming the real me.
2) I've been fighting with an ulcer since maybe 2004 around a band from my first weight loss surgery in 1999. It burns all the time. I'm on meds but they don't help much. In the past, when my ulcer would heal up briefly, it would cause the outlet of my pouch to narrow and cause vomiting. I could not tolerate meats or veggies or even fruits. I turned to all the slider foods because food would temporarily ease the burn and the hunger. Dr Graber (my GBP Surgeon) would stretch the opening so I wouldn't vomit, but then I ate too much as I didn't feel full at any time. Eventually, after many cycles of this, my pouch outlet has stayed too far open. I can eat way too much, and unfortunately the slider foods are the only ones that ease the burn. If I had known or understood more about "redo" surgeries, I would have asked Dr Graber to remove the band, or even the scarred areas around my first surgery. Dr Graber and I have discussed another surgery to remove the ulcered area and the band, but it would be an open surgery with more time out of work, more pain, and no guarantees. I still may have to see him again for this, but.......
I'm sure I've screwed up more than this but for now, I hope these first 2 screw ups will help someone else.
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I now weigh 192 #.
My mistakes?
1) I should have had plastic surgery right then. I didn't have the money for surgery then and was not in a position to take out a loan. my excess skin was ridiculous. I still couldn't wear shorts or dresses as I had carried a lot of my excess weight in my legs. My thighs hung past my knees, and my calves were around my ankles. I think plastic surgery is a necessary part of the weight loss process. Your self esteem is hindered after while as you start to see yourself as still fat. I knew I looked good but still it was depressing not to be able to complete "the process" of becoming the real me.
2) I've been fighting with an ulcer since maybe 2004 around a band from my first weight loss surgery in 1999. It burns all the time. I'm on meds but they don't help much. In the past, when my ulcer would heal up briefly, it would cause the outlet of my pouch to narrow and cause vomiting. I could not tolerate meats or veggies or even fruits. I turned to all the slider foods because food would temporarily ease the burn and the hunger. Dr Graber (my GBP Surgeon) would stretch the opening so I wouldn't vomit, but then I ate too much as I didn't feel full at any time. Eventually, after many cycles of this, my pouch outlet has stayed too far open. I can eat way too much, and unfortunately the slider foods are the only ones that ease the burn. If I had known or understood more about "redo" surgeries, I would have asked Dr Graber to remove the band, or even the scarred areas around my first surgery. Dr Graber and I have discussed another surgery to remove the ulcered area and the band, but it would be an open surgery with more time out of work, more pain, and no guarantees. I still may have to see him again for this, but.......
I'm sure I've screwed up more than this but for now, I hope these first 2 screw ups will help someone else.
About Me
Clark Mills, NY
Location
34.0
BMI
Surgery
03/12/2004
Surgery Date
Apr 05, 2004
Member Since
Before & After
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Time for a change, I couldn't live like this forever.
331 #lbs
Finally! I knew I was in there somewhere!
156lbs