First Emotional Breakdown

Oct 10, 2013

Yay! I'm human!  LOL  OMG! I had theeee best pity party, complete with violins, Kleenix, snot, and tears.  Like... a real "cry me a river" kinda day. But, at the same time...it felt good!  LOL  

But on a serious note, I realized the weight of all that has happened, and there has been plenty, from the initial consultation through the entire process which moved at the speed of light in 3 months tops, plus maintaining all my school assignments during the week of surgery, and now finals this week with two 10-page research papers due tomorrow, which I have yet to start, except for the outline, not to mention a rough time on my job, and a wonderful man in my life who has commitment phobia (that's a whole 'nother book for an entirely different day) LOL All these things just bundled itself up all together, and decided to wage a war on poor little ol' me.  

BUT.... and you all know, I have been encouraging everyone to stay positive, so I waged war right back, and gave sorrow a run for her money.  LOL  So after my Pity Party, I began to encourage myself with positive words of affirmations in order to gain my emotional strength back and defeat self-pity right where she stood. 

Even now as I sit here and write, I have a smug smile on my face of victory, and a joy in my heart that says.... I will not be defeated and even though the BLAH times will come, and there will be many, you go to your pity party, stay a coupl'a hours, then high-tail it out of there, take off your clothes of weeping, and put on your dancing shoes, rejoice in your accomplishments, rejoice in your future, and rejoice in the best decision we could have ever made for ourselves, our family, and all those who care and love us.  

Stay Beautiful!  

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