Justin W.
Well, I have put this whole profile off for a long time. Partly, because I am an embarassed 19 year old male, who lives in a town of "hard-working blue collar" men and women who think being overweight is a result of pure laziness; I live in a town where every doctor thinks every health problem I have, from a cough to a broken bone, comes from being obese. This town doesn't even have a scale large enough to weigh me, I go to the city aluminum recycling plant to weigh myself. I hope whoever reads this can understand the long awaited profile beginning. Sure, I have tons of friends and can't name a handful of people who dislike me but I am seriously embarassed to be 19 years old and seriously obese.
Here is my story. My name is Justin, everyone including my family calls me J or Big J and it fits me perfectly. I have a big body, a big heart and an oversized personality. I live in a small town in Tennessee, every one knows you by either your vehicle or a family member. I have moved around a lot due to some rough child days and that has socialized me to love every one and every kind of person, my eyes see no size nor race only evil faces. (lol) I have always been overweight, I can legally say with a doctor's packet of paper that I have been obese since I was at least two years old. I grew up humiliated and adapted to the weight and size. I have always been the "big kid in class" and I learned to take adantage of its securities and turn away from its cons long before I should have even realized either. I love sports, I used to love to try and play all kinds of sports and only ever achieved in one. I played football like most big guys and it caused me more hurt than I ever could have gained from watching. I am now a fat guy with two permanently aching ankles from constant strain and sprain, I can't squat or run because of heavy weight lifting and injury. I have lower back troubles from heavy weight lifting and I can say that I would have been better off staying home reading books and watching football. I quit football when pain turned to serious injury and finished off my last two years of high school doing something all obese people are usually good at: talking. I am an avid public speaker and have more leadership awards, certificates, and plaques than a lot of people would think necessary, but it is my life and my driving dream. I hope to use my gift and turn the obesity awareness into a unending lifeforce with characteristics of a massive octopus of outreaching knowledge.
I am currently going through college and it is very hard to be in college; anyone in college will let you know that classroom comfortability is not easy. Being three times the normal size of kids, that is not comfortable. There are no desks to fit me in unless I squeeze in and focus on shifting fat from here to there and keeping the cold sting in my back eased. Some classes have tables and removable chairs but it is very hard to find that. I find working through college is hard as well, late nights and a low gas tank back and forth to either are hard for any college student. But, what about the college student who is on prescription medicine for knee, ankle, and back pain just to stand more than two hours? Then you count in sleep apnea, not learning anything in an uncomfortable class and you pretty much see how my days can turn sour. I don't understand how I am supposed to become educated to be a better person in life if I can't work to support school, and then I can't even learn in school that I work just to live and go to. I am very hopeful for surgery!!
In a nutshell if you just got bored reading all this crap... I am a 19 year old morbidly obese who is not only very gifted but loves to speak and be charasmatic but is trapped by a never ending death whirl of physically uncomfortable classroom settings in college and physically demanding jobs that's only purpose is to keep such 19 year old male alive while attending such torture traps. But smile...I say for one day... The fat guy is contributing more dirt back to God's green earth than the skinny man:)
