Jun 13, 2008

WOW, I never dreamed I could feel this good at eating healthy. I got through my first really stressful day without the need to binge or eat fast food.

ABSTINENCE: For me is ...............................

1. no more soda
2. no more fast food
3. no more binging
4. food planning
5. daily plate charting
6. up to six small meals a day if needed
7. limiting calories to 1800 a day 
8. drinking lots of water

Saw Amanda today!

Jun 10, 2008

Wow, I lost 16 pounds in 18 days. So in order to have the surgery I only have to lose about 40 more pounds....geezzzz I am thinking that I should just do it my self....I really think I can ....
I am having second thoughts about having the gastric bypass. I really don't want the pain, the starvation, the constipation, foamies or the dumping. 

Still, I am afraid to stop the process....I just don't know what to do.....

12 days on food plan....Can I do this with out surgery?

Jun 05, 2008

Ok....I feel great. I have no desire to over eat and I am making healthy choices. OA is wonderful and I am making friends. So I am thinking .....I can do this .....One day...today... I can do this.

I have been reading post every day since March 13 and collecting information and here is what I see all the time.

Obession with scale, being a slow loser, stalls, constipation, diarrhea, strictures, hairloss, food getting stuck, vomiting, dumping, wound infections, no time release meds and no Nsaids.

MORE SERIOUS: Hernias, gallbladder pain, kidney stones, blood clots, chronic digestive problems,  anemia, kinks, twisted intertines, and blockages.

LATER OUT PROBLEMS: Can't stop losing, not losing any more, gaining, back to old eating habits and hypoglycemia.

It's not a quick fix or easy way out.
Requires life long hard work and commitment.
It doesn't fix all your problems. 
You must work at losing weight.
Living with the consequences of WLS.
This is a tool and it's a tool for a short time...Then it's up to you.
It is a DIET, a DIET for the rest of your life.

7 days abstinent.....wow

Jun 01, 2008

I feel so much better on this food plan. Here are the results of one good solid week of doing things different.

1.I can stand for longer periods.
2.Showers are becoming easier.
3.I can stay awake for the whole day.
4.I am sleeping a little better.
5.My attitude is better.
6.I feel like doing house work.
7.I can stand through the whole sink of dishes.
8.Bathroom visits are less.



May 29, 2008

I decided to join OA today. I am so afraid I will be denied wls. I have been in OA before but didn't allow anyone to sponcer me or be my friend. I didin't like myself so why should any one else like me. That was last year in Nov.

Another year has gone by  and I have added another 30 or 40lbs. to my already painful body.
My new Dr. thinks it is due to being on cymbalta, causing me to have  a huge appetite. 

My new med is effexor and I have been on it for two weeks and I am feeling alot better. Maybe this is why for the last 5 days I have been able to do the food plan for wls.

 I am ready to allow people in my life and going to OA is one way to help me. I was so surprised to find that the ladies were so warm and helpful. I am going to commit to two meetings a week and see if this is the help I need to get the 50 lbs off so I can have wls.
Also I have all the support on OH, which I love.

Sleep study done May 21st

May 29, 2008

They were so good to me, I felt well taken care of and Tom was so nice. I think I slept for about 4 hrs. No one had to come in and I have not gotten any results, so I quess I'm good.

May 12th I had committed to doing the wls diet for 30 days for Dr. Borkum. I am dissapointed in the fact that I couldn't do it.

 May 25th I finally decided that I had better do it and so far am happy to say that i have been on it for 5 days.
I may be able to lose enough weight by my apt. with him on June 11th. I won't know till then how much weight I will have off. I hope it is enough to prove that I have tried really hard to do it.

April 29th is the Day!!!

Apr 28, 2008

SO....I have stuffed and stuffed trying to get in all the bad carbs I can ....before wls....what has this done for me?

1.became bloated
2. retaining fluid from the salt
3.feel twice as big 
4.can't hardly walk without more pain
5.feeling stupid and ashamed
6.gained more weight....ugh



I am not waiting till the 1st of May, I am starting a new behavior first thing in the morning.

Breakfast: protein drink made with water and 1/2 cup of frozen blueberries.

Snack: slice of swiss cheese

Lunch: protein drink made with water and 5 frozen strawberries.

Dinner: lean cuisine

Decaf tea when feeling hungry

Psyc eval...long

Apr 23, 2008

The 550 questions were kinda of fun to do but I was so uncomfortable. Every thing is hard   for me at this size...Hurts to sit too long, hurts to stand, but you got to do what you got to do.

I liked Dr. Borkum, he is gentle and soft spoken. He has ask me to choose a day to start the wls way of eating and do it for one month, then he would like to see me again.

I can do this ....got to decide when I will start. I'm thinking ....May 1st.


Apr 21, 2008

I have my psyc. eval tomorrow at 11am...it is a 3 hour apt. I'm excited because I didn't expect this apt. until july....

Thank God for sunny days!

Apr 15, 2008

Since I have started this process, this OH site has become an obsession with me. I have noticed that I spend so much time reading here that I have let things slip. 

BALANCE: I need balance in my life so today I am going to do some house work, take a walk and start a journal on what I eat .

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Saw Amanda today!
12 days on food plan....Can I do this with out surgery?
7 days abstinent.....wow
Sleep study done May 21st
April 29th is the Day!!!
Psyc eval...long
Thank God for sunny days!