Patricia G.
Well way back almost 35 years ago on Ocotber 27,1972 a little girl named Patricia was born! 
That would be me!! I was of normal size the day I was born, 7lbs 8oz ! I think the next day after being born the weight started piling on! I can remember starting kindergarden and being the chubby girl in class. I was doomed from the start to be fat! All through elementry school and jr high I was overweight. Always dealing with weight issues. I was always made fun of, ridiculed and left out of many things. Ya know the last one to get chosen to get on a kickball team, well that was me!! Missing out on all school dances, dates with boys, never having a boyfriend, or being able to dress in the latest fashions. Spending many nights crying myself to sleep asking God why me?
Well high school was approching and I was determined to lose some weight. I can remember saving my lunch money and going to the drug store after school and secretly buying dexatrim. I was 15 and taking diet pills already! I did infact lose some weight, I was doing really good through my senior year. I was by no means skinny, but I was comfortable in my own skin for a change and I thought I looked good. After graduation, I was still fairly smaller. I was wearing like a size 16.
I was always ridiculed by my family when I was bigger. I guess they thought it would help me by being hurtful. I am not really sure, but it by no means helped me to want lose weight, infact it made me only want to sink more into food! Every get together, holiday, etc. It seemed like I was the brunt of every joke. I was always told the famous, " You have such a beautiful face", "you should really do something" If only they would of known how hurtful those words were.
I met my husband when I was 23. I was still over weight. Probably around 200 or so. It didnt seem to bother him though. We fell in love instantly. He loved to eat and so did I. It was what we did almost every weekend. Time went on and so did the pounds. With in the past 10 years of us being together, I have tacked on another whole me..adding on an additional 140 pounds. Needless to say, trying every diet known to mankind, only to lose a few pounds then gain double when I would give up. I never thought in a million years I would of ever let myself get to this point. For the last 7 years, we have been unccessful at having a baby. In the time of the last 10 years along the way I was also diagnosed with poly cystic ovarian syndrone, making matters worse. PCOS is also known to help you gain weight. Just what I needed!!
I had quit my job about 4 years ago as a registration clerk in a hospital ER. I took some time off to travel with my husband for his work. Once he was done with that, I decided I wanted to go back to work. I had been applying for so many jobs on line and always getting called in for the interview, seems like they must have been really impressed with the online me, but once I would get there and they would see me, I was always told I didnt get the job, that I didnt have enough experience wtf??. They saw my resume beforehand, they knew my experiences. No, what it really was I was too fat for the job, why dont they just come out and tell ya the truth. I had so many interviews and nothing..I just decided to give up.
So here I am uemployed, unable to get pregnent, and I am secluding myself now from society and all the things I use to so love to do because of weight. I am by no means living a life of what a 35 year old woman should be. That is why I have turned to gastric bypass to try and reclaim my life and hopefully have a better 35 years and more ahead!!
I just want to be able to do the simplest things in life that so many take for granted. I want to have a baby!!! I want to one day to be able to sit and cross my legs, shop for normal sized clothes, not get stares and laughs from people when I go somewhere!! I wanna be able to go to someones house and not have to worry if I am gonna break their chairs!! I wanna feel loved and respected!!! I want to love myself!! I wanna be able to play on the floor with my nephew!! I wanna go on a roller coaster ride and know I will fit in the seat!! I wanna sit in a lawn chair. I wanna ride in someones car and not be scared to death that their seat belt wont fit!! I wanna own clothes that is not made out of stretch matarial and actually zips or buttons. I wanna not sweat like a heffer in the middle of winter!!! I just wanna LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!
