kasamarie
Feeling Not so Hot today...
Sep 26, 2011
Not quite sure whats going on with me today but i'm def not feeling so great. Been upset all morning since I got on the scale and realized i'm not losing weight like I thought i'd be. I don't know if my expectations are higher than they should be but for some reason I thought i'd be losing weight alot quicker? It's day 13 since the surgery and i've lost 15 lbs. and i'm down from 295 to 280 but i've been at 280 since last week and I thought the first few weeks were supposed to be some kind of dramatic loss? I'm still on the mushy diet so I know i'm not eating anything wrong because i'm barely eating anything at all between the chicken broth, sugar free jello, and the very rare mash potatoes. All I have had to drink since the surgery is water, powerade zeros, and the Sobe life waters with no calories or sugars. I'm active all day long. My days usually consist of chasing my daughter around and cleaning up after her and my spouse and running errands. I go for my walk in the evenings since during the day time here it gets in the 100s and the evenings makes it easier for me. Should I be making the time to walk twice a day? My other problem is I spent all this money on these protein supplements that I didn't have to spend to begin with and I can hardly even stand them. I got these protein shots from GNC for almost forty dollars and they were awful, i attempted to drink one and couldn't even finish it, so now the rest of the case just sits there in the fridge. Also have the enormous jug of whey protein powder in chocolate flavor (eww) to mix with Silk lactaid milk and i'm trying to make sure to drink one of these a day but i'm really only getting one every few days because they aren't very good either. Could this be my problem? Is it imperative that I have these protein supplements to lose the weight? And my last and final complaint for the day is.....lol....I've been asking my girlfriend to come to the gym with me for months now since I live on an Army base and there is one in every neighborhood and now today she decided she wants to start going this evening but she's invited a group of our friends to come with us. They are all in the Army and used to working out and I of course am not. I am still very embarassed by my body and have made it clear to her that i'm not comfortable around other people which is why i pick certain times I know the gym is empty to go cause otherwise I feel like people are staring or laughing at me. I've even caught some girls in there before making fun of me saying how they bet I won't last long on the treadmill and other comments which is why I stopped going there a while ago. I know it shouldn't bother me and i know if they are really my friends they won't care but it still makes me uncomfortable and less motivated to push myself. Maybe i'm just having an emotional day and being crazy but I just feel like crying today. I don't know. I am going to go to the gym and try to just focus on myself and see how things go, but i'm not starting my day off very well by feeling like this.
